im 29 and battle psychiatric problems that ive struggled with since 16?

Question

ive never had any real friends unfortunatley, and have great difficulty making any. i live on my own. and im very lonely. i fear it will always be this way. i have inner rage problems to. impules to lash out, when im havin an outburst. i really feel people and life have damaged me, i was victimised alot in my past, bullied throughout high school. i was sexually abused to as a kid. i wonder how im ever gonna find happiness, and a life. a girlfriend. a job. my own home. security. i have a destination, but i dont have a road map. i live in a small flat with not alot of possessions. my biggest problem however amoungst other distressing symptoms like racing thoughts, is my very low self worth. i dont feel capable of being loved, wanted or liked by anyone. i feel i have nothing goin for me. nothing to offer. except a mentally ill mind, and a vault load of bitterness and rage..which no girl wants. i have a criminal record to, which i feels ruined my life..how will i be able to achieve the

ambition of emmegration if i wanted to? i dont want to stay in england. and the other is my very low self esteem which i feel prevents relashionships i try to make

please serious answers only. dont take the mick

Answer 1

Leviathan, you have my support. I hear your issues. Answers you get here may be valid but your life has evolved over 29 years and it will take a while to change anything. First, seek counseling. There are professionals who are trained to deal with people who have many different issues. Now...now you can recognize that you are your own best friend. You are unique in the universe. Learn to accept yourself without judgment. You have always done the best you can. You will continue to do the best you can. Your question is articulate, well-written, makes sense. You are intelligent and have a lot of personal insight. Your willingness to discuss your issues is wonderful, a step in the right direction. If you want to do some reading, go to the library and look at books on understanding yourself. Everybody has trouble with this. When you can begin to accept yourself as you are, you will find your life will be more comfortable and you will stop comparing yourself to others. Good luck.

Answer 2

The one positive thing here is that you have a mental track record of all the negatives. The key now would be to take all the negative you feel you have been surrounded by in your life and convert that energy into positive.I am sorry for the traumatic experiences that may make you feel helpless, but it is always comforting to know that there are millions of people who are have suffered similar pain. The bright side here is that you may be at a status where you can find help through rehabilitaition, counseling, therapy and the likes. There are people in the world that do not have access to these luxuries and may never see the name tag on a doctor prescribing them anti-depressants. The tought stuff hurts friend. I'm sorry. But you have to learn to be stronger. Find something that interests you and study about it. Find a medium through which you can channel and release the negative energy that haunts you to pave the way for postive cosmic karma. Do you like to paint? draw? exercise? dance? write? The only way any woman will be drawn close to you is if you make her feel like she should be close to you. Love yourself my friend. Life is too short to dwell on evil. We are always surrounded by evil, so why not make the effort to free ourselves from these shackles of self loathing and worthless feelings. As much negative that may surround us, there is that much beautiful positive aspects of life, religion, philosophy, art, history and human existence that goes unnoticed.

Answer 3

I am sorry to hear of your emotional problems but when I was your age I had to deal with problems similar to yours. I got counseling, once a week for two years then off and on for six more years. I took medication, low dosage and non-addictive for those eight years. My life turned around. Totally. I am happily married and have been for many years now. Adding some religion in your life will help also. But you need counseling.

Answer 4

i had the same anger problems as you when i was living in Ireland and i did mediation myself and i deal with my anger now i decided to move to America as well and now i am having the time of my life i got a brand new start in a country where nobody knew who i was now i am everything i wanted to be and theirs no problem getting a women here completely different than the European women i was really in the same boat as you should at least try relocating somewhere and starting anew you can be whatever you want to be

Answer 5

if ur sincere in ur quest, ask GOD for help, find a church, take a walk, first one u see, walk in and pray. ur life will turn around.