Why can I NOT move on?

Question

Around early September I was with this guy, the same guy that my parents didn't want me near...

It was a foolish mistake and it haunts me till this day. Not one day goes by without me worrying about some consequence of my actions. Although no sexual intercourse took place, I fear maybe some of his fluids might have gotten near "my area". Gosh, I can't even talk about it without hating myself. Although I had my period 3 days later, I somehow can't talk myself out of thinking I am NOT pregnant. I don't know why.....the guilt seriously haunts me. I would DIE if I was :(. Its the fear that is getting to me......I bet many here would say "go get a HPT". I just can't do that, many reasons for that. My family is quite strict and if they EVER see me with one.....well, I just rather not hurt anyone else; I am hurting myself enough mentally. Plus, I cannot get myself to just go take one. I would be 18 weeks if I was pregnant.

My question to you guys is do you think I am pregnant?

Should I be showing now? I am 5'6" 115 lbs (if that matters) and have had 5 full periods ever since. The guilt is eating me alive, and there is ABSOLUTELY no one I can turn to to ask for help. :(

Answer 1

Don't Worry. You aren't pregnant if you have had 5 periods since then. His "fluids" have to go into your area for you to get pregnant.

Answer 2

Sweetie, I am pretty sure you are not pregnant. The periods really are the tell-tale sign. Yes, women get 'spotting' durning pregnancies, but FULL periods, not so much. And you'd be feeling TIRED through the first trimester. Like can't-get-off-the-couch tired. I have three kids. You KNOW when your body is pregnant. It's different for every woman, but you KNOW when you are pregnant. And you'd be noticing changes, although you wouldn't be really 'showing' till 22 weeks or so. You'd be felling the baby by then too, and my kids were KICKERS. . .there's no 'is this gas' type of feeling. But I'd put my money on NO, you are not pregnant.

Go to walgreens or whatever, buy a test, then go to the bathroom there and take it. Or go to target after that with the test in your purse, you can leave all the packaging and everything in the public garbage.

Answer 3

what makes you think your even pregnant since you have had 5 periods. fear?guilt? For one thing, if you were pregnant, you would be far enough along that you should be feeling movement in the uterine region. Do you feel anything? If your that afraid, buy a pregnancy test then go to a public restroom and do one there. Ive done that before. You really need to try and forgive yourself and move on. Try and focus on other things. Get the pregnancy thought out of your head, and think about things that make you happy. What kind of life is it if your constantly making yourself miserable? YOu know, I had sex with a guy on the first day we ever met. You have no idea how guilty I felt. Then I finally came to the realisation that hey, Im in my 30's, Im old enough to do what I want. This is my life, no anyones elses. Accept what you have done, and move on. YOu really need to forgive yourself.

Answer 4

You've had 5 full periods, that's five months of normal menstrual flow, you can't be pregnant by this boyfriend. If you were pregnant and at 18 weeks, based on your size and weight, it would be VERY obvious that you were carrying a baby. Thank your lucky stars and learn from this experience. The amount of guilt you are experiencing indicates to me that you are not ready for a sexual experience. Date other guys but keep it out of the bedroom.

Answer 5

it seems like there is far more to this than just a fear of being pregnant, which you are not. You cannot live with the guilt forever, but I know that its hard to get rid of. try calling this number 1-800-645-4949, they may have answers as to why you still feel that guilt, and what you can do to erase it. It is a church, but I promise, it will work.

Answer 6

Don't worry about it. You are not pregnant if you have had 5 full periods since that time. You would know it by now also. Stop getting yourself all worked up. Maybe you should try talking to someone about this, you don't want to have to keep worrying. Goodluck :)

Answer 7

URGHH! do not!! NOT feel guilty about something like that. you say you have had your period and that means you are not pregnant, otherwise your body would be using the blood. Your parents are not being good to you at this moment, eiehter they havnt educated you or make you feel bad about yourself for it. DO not feel bad about it, or dont tell them unless your in real trouble. Sex is sex, and its nice to think of it as more than that, as long as you have your dignity and self respect. ( although you say no intercourse took place). You need to tell yourself theat you did nothing wrong. Be a woman! Dont be a little girl whose easily influenced because someone else wanted you to feel bad about yourself!

Answer 8

NO honey you are NOT pregnant. Use this guilt to change your behaviours in the future. You really didnt do anything wrong here..you were human. Now you know what not to do, learn from it. Quit worrying and move on.