me and my parents always fight and i feel like they hate me the fights sadden me i think about suicide help!!?

Question

i hate my self i have major anexity and panic disorders undiagnosed b.c i nvr talk to anyone about them and i think about suicide and cutting and i cry all the time what should i do im also always fighting with my parents and i feel like they hate me even tho i no they love me i cant help but feel they hate me

i am really scared about the dark thoughts i have aquired of killing myslef and inflicting harm even tho ive never done either

Answer 1

First of all killing yourself never ends misery, it only increases it millions of times. We are not these bodies, race, color, religion, nationality, job, intellect, senses, etc. We are eternal spirit souls, part and parcel of the Supreme Soul, also known as Krishna, Allah, Jehovah, Vishnu, etc. This world is called Maya (illusion ) and is temporary and full of misery. If we want to be truly happy and transcend all misery we have to reconnect to our maker. The quickest and easiest way is to chant the Maha Mantra (the great mantra for deliverance from suffering and illusion) go to harekrishnatemple.c for details, Read Bhagavad Gita as it is By Bhaktivedanta Prabhupad- gives the meaning of life and how to be always happy no matter what your situation. I use to fight all the time with my parents but that ended. You can't just base your whole life on this situation. life changes and you can make your life change by knowing these higher truths. Don't give up.

Answer 2

I understand that in these types of situations, talking to someone seems like the most unfavorable option in existence, but it really is the best thing that you can do. Its important for your overall health that you find someone to talk to, preferably an adult, and ideally a professional, a therapist, counselor, psychologist, or psychiatrist. You should tell your parents how you're feeling also, that's very important, don't be worried that they may be hurt by your feelings, because they'd be even more hurt if anything ever happened to you because you felt you couldn't talk to them. Like you said, your parents d love you, even if it doesn't seem like it. Parents are human too, they make mistakes, and just as any other human, they learn from them, but any mistake they do make was with the intent of doing what they thought was best for you. I sincerely hope that you can find the strength to confront your parents, I know that it hard, I went through a very similar situation. I wish you the best of luck, I hope that you find peace within yourself.

Answer 3

If you know that your parents love you, why commit suicide? Imagine the pain they'd go through. If your a teenager, this is what I called pubirty. I was sort of the same way, always fighting with my parents and feeling that life was collpasing in on me and that I was alone in this world. You need to do what I did, take a while to collect yourself and talk with your parents and a close friend. The worse thing to do to the ones you love is to hurt them.

Answer 4

Call the Suicide Hot Line 1-800-784-2433 they have people trained to help you get through this difficult time. Knowing your parents love you is a good thing talk to them they can help too. Talk to someone don't just type. You need to speak out to get better. Good Luck!

Answer 5

I see the anger.

Dark thoughts are okay.

The bible has a good story about a man named job. (Sounds like j-owe-b)
God allowed him to be tortured just to see what he would do.
And it shows a very interesting part of Jewish tradition because Job was made to hate himself/what had become of him, as much as possible, but he still would not say to God kill me, I want to kill myself, or I wish I was dead.
He only said to God "I am cursed", "It would be better that I was never born".

Because it is apparently a sin to wish for death according to the jews. God gave you your life, your soul. It is a fairly serious sin to want to destroy that gift. To deny that you exist with some purpose somewhere within you that God does not want destroyed. God wants probably wants you to do something (and who the hell knows what that might be? -it can take a long time sometimes) probably wants you to do with your life first, you can't just give it back. What you can do instead is tell God "I think you were nuts when you made me, when you made my soul and brought me here", I wish I were never born. -That's not a sin, apparently- You can be angry. You can think dark thoughts.

He probably Wanted to kill himself, but he wouldn't tell God he really wanted that. He just complained "It would be better if I had never been born" -which is a little like "What the hell were you thinking when you made me?"

Answer 6

Calm down, it's OK... the fight develops because you're both confused, nothing more. Just be aware in those moments. Your inner voice is easily dismissed, but it is able to guide you.

Answer 7

Dig in and find a little grit. You only let that garbage control you because you don't "want" to buck up and take life like a real person!!!!

Answer 8

u should try to tell your parents whats going on. they need to know. tell a close friend and hope that they tell someone... no offense, but u need a little help. these problems can get worse so just try and get enough courage to tell someone...

Answer 9

please dont try anything u might regret find help if u r not happy with ur parents there r other places u can go just please find help

Answer 10

Oh please, go see a psychologist, right away.