I wanted my parents to get a divorce when I was a child (now Im 29 and they are and I think Im a big factor). I also tried to be an alcoholic but I wasnt successful. I tried drugs for sometime but I decided to use my money on clothes anyway, I wanted to be an addict. I told an ex I had our baby aborted though I was never pregnant. i pretended to be a hooker to a guy but i am not! And yeah, thre was a time I liked being with committed men. I just have this self-destructive (or fine, generally destructive) mentality and I dont understand why. I liked being it these situations... until recently. Why the hell am I like this???
2007-01-27 05:51:25 · 8 answers · asked by Stefani 2 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
its always easier to destroy than to create, to settle rather than to climb, you seem to be protecting yourself from disaapointment by not having any expectations of yourself. We gain strength not by going with the flow but by fighting the current and the things that make us weak ie: additctions and bad habits. The first step in reconciling any behavior you don't like is finally admitting that you have a problem. YOU have taken the first step just how far you a willing to push yourself is entirely up to you. Stop settling for failure and be who you have always dreamed you could be. Good luck and God bless. x
2007-01-27 06:07:17 · answer #1 · answered by southforty1961 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I am the same way. The reason is that you never experienced a stable life growing up, so as soon as you achieve stability as an adult, it scares you because you are not used to it and only feel comfortable in a state of chaos. Plus, it seems like you have definite identity issues. Sometimes the only solution to a weak, fragmented sense of identity is to lose it all together and slip into self-destruction as a way to suffice for the emptiness you may feel.
Drugs, sex, and other vices can be irrestible when you need to feel bad about yourself. Feeling good about yourself must be too dangerous becaus eyou believe you are rotten to the core. You have traits of Borderline Personality Disorder.
2007-01-27 14:55:10 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
i have a problem with getting my self in to situation where either i end up hurt or i hurt others. several people have called me self-destructive. but you are on a whole other level. you seem to have some kinda thing for chaos in life. your trying to create chaos in your "peacefull" world.
id suggest listening to some heavy rock like some death metal or something. also you should go to underground fight clubs. you sound like the perfect person for one. thats only if your trying to nurture it.
if you want to get rid of this then go back in your memory to the first time you remember having these urges. find out why you have this need for destruction. maybe you just need attention. maybe something horrable happened. what ever it is you need to find it and acknowledge it. and why the sudden change. ask your self all these things.
P.S. the thing about being an alcoholic or drug addict is that they didnt choose to be one. it just happened. and they can learn to embrace it or some of them know that they cant break it so they dont bother fighting it.
but thats just me
2007-01-27 14:16:16 · answer #3 · answered by lostnkhaos 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
It is a consequence of the fact that you are not confident in the person you are while wanting people to think of you as who you are not. You can never be good at being who you are not and you will never be happy with the person you pretend to be. So,show yourself to be who you are, find a way to always remain within the territory in which you are happy with yourself and the people you are with like you for exhibiting yourself as who you really are... but first you must know yourself before you can show yourself to be that you are to others.
2007-01-27 14:11:10 · answer #4 · answered by agboola f 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It sounds like you have borderline personality disorder, and crave attention, and that maybe the attention you seek is negative because your masochistic,and masochists strive to suffer.And all this is happening to you because you had some kind of childhood trauma happen to you around the age of 3.
check into it:(book)New Ways in Psychoanalysis. by Karen Horney.
2007-01-27 17:18:57 · answer #5 · answered by badseed 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
ummm, you were experimenting with things, maybe i could tell you more if there was more detail! but other than that you just tried stuff and didnt like stuff. Then i think you realized you hated all the stuff you were doing and said screw it....
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2007-01-27 14:02:26 · answer #6 · answered by Metalup87 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Low self esteem. You are unhappy with who you really are. In a sense, you are a compulsive liar. Therapy might help you.
2007-01-27 13:59:59 · answer #7 · answered by notyou311 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
get a therepist
2007-01-27 13:59:55 · answer #8 · answered by tigerlilliebuick 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋