I hate myself.........?

Question

right now I hate myself so much that I'm just extremely angry at myself for even being alive. I just want to yell at myself. I failed gym again, I'm failing most of my classes in school. I've also had a lot of nightmares about school. last year I missed more than 75 days. I hate it so much, not the fact the I have to work and no one there likes me, it's the fact that people I don't even no or like have control over me. does anyone else ever feel like this? or have any advice?

Answer 1

Many dream interpreters would tell you that when you dream about school, it means that in your subconscious state of mind school is hell. That is most definitely true in your case: you failed gym again, you're failing most of your classes in school. If you feel like you have no control over yourself, you need to find a way to ground yourself and a way of thinking. You need to speak to your parents about getting you some help from a psychiatrist and a life coach to help you better balance your life and behaviors.

Answer 2

Gym isn't important. To a certain extent, neither is academic achievement (check out Winston Churchill and George W. Bush, among many others), so I wouldn't let that bother me too much. You may well have other talents, like in acting, writing, art, music, or even cooking. Find out the things you are good at and develop them. You would probably feel a lot better about yourself if you gave some of your time to helping others, like spending 2hrs a fortnight helping Meals on Wheels, or writing letters as a member of Amnesty International to help prisoners of conscience, working with disadvantaged children: the list is long. Also, see a doctor and get a complete checkup and see if you need counselling. Eat healthily, exercise daily and ensure you get enough sleep. In the meantime, go to: www.relax7.com/7.php

Answer 3

Eh well, you're not alone. Comforting, yes?

I completely messed up my senior year of highschool, I just stopped, shut down completely. I gave up doing all homework and projects, and hardly even went. It's a wonder I still graduated. I regret doing that tremendously.

And I'm trying really hard right now not to do the same thing in college; but as you said...the hatred of self, it sometimes gets in the way.

Advice? Take things one day at a time. Try to realize your OWN values and goals, not someone else's. Yeah, sounds trying doesn't it? Well, it's trying that matters. You may find you have something to be very proud of if you realize who you really are and what you really want; do everything in your power to achieve it; and that's all anyone can really do. But, that's a lot.

(shh....I don't have this down. Feel like a hypocrite giving advice, but it's what I'm aspiring to. Occupies my time, and keeps me from thinking about all the things I can find wrong with me.)

Answer 4

You might not be failing your classes if you get off the internet and actually do some studying. No one controls you except you, and you should try going to school more. If you can't do anything to try and help the situation then maybe talk to your parents about switching schools or looking into home schooling, and then talk with a psychologist because it sounds like you might have some mental problems.

Answer 5

Try to start small...it seems like ur mad at a lot of things. Take one thing at a time that way ur stress level is still low and u feel better. Try to stay conscience of everything to keep yourself going to school and staying motivatied so that u do go. With work..i'd just get through it as much as possible but if you feel like its too bad to bare one get a new job, or two find someone, just one person, to be friends with. This can really change how you feel about work and even change the way u feel about yourself. I say all of this because i am one to get stressed out soo easily. i try so hard but if i've learned anything i'd be that you have to take it one step at a time. otherwise u get overwhelmed and then u never get anything accomplished. i hope this helped.

Answer 6

i guess a lot of people are on a hate trip tonight .high school is insignificant when you get older you wouldn't even remember it..life is so much more than school.i only had 3 friends in school, and when the 10 year reunion came, all the geeks,loners,misfits were still siting at the same table...and i will tell you for a fact we were far more happy,well adjusted , and very interesting people than the ..cool people that were popping baby's and getting smashed drunk at the bar.

meditate ,love your self, read a good book on self esteem, and some on yoga.another good thing to do is take out your frustration on a inanimate object, like hit one dead tree stump with a big dead stick and try to break the stick. or beat the heck out of , a huge pillow ,get relay mad at the pillow, or cushion. you are directing your emotions though your fists, into>>>> the object and .OUT OF YOU.

i got all most strait F's , because i knew that my life was out side the window that i got constantly yelled at for looking out.schooling for me was a boring hell and i only started to see the light after i got to college when i was working for me , not because i had to.

so love your self,be kind to your self,give your self a big hug, and know that life is out their some were just waiting for you to be happy:)

Answer 7

In regards the CLICKHEARS statement, i'm not defending his policies but G.W is a Yale graduate. I don't know how much you value ivy league schooling but its at its very least a 4 year degree.

Anyways you likely suffer from depression. You should see a therapist, tell your mom and when people start putting your potential condition off as an excuse for laziness, explain to them there truly is a biological basis.

Answer 8

I'd say that we've all been there at one point or another in our lives but what's important is that you never give up on yourself. Nobody will look out for your best interests as much as you will. There are times in life (some people seem to get more than others) when times are hard and it may help to look towards something greater than yourself for the answers. If that doesn't work...hey....pm me....I have two big ears and no date for friday night. = )

Answer 9

My son and I both are intellegent,but have a differant way of learning.The important thing is to remember you are a person and that you matter.I'm sure there are people who love you that would be very hurt if you did something stupid to hurt yourself.You may need tutoring or talk to your parents about an alternative school,try to better yourself and don't judge yourself by what you think others think of you,it doesn't matter,what God thinks of you,what those who love you,thinks of you, matters.If you talk to school counselors and your parents and want to help yourself,I'm sure you'll be able to.Right now you see yourself as a failure, but you just need a little help.Lots of famous and very intellegent people have fallen into that catagory.

Answer 10

same here. but dont dwell on that thought. Just do what is it that u like..indulge. Do not worry about failing. Learn from it. And life isnt just about school...after school everything else change. since ur not alone on ur feat, just do what u think is right and have fun...just have fun. dont worry we all end up dead, so why worry? if u hate urself too much, then others will probably not see the good in u, and probably will despise u too. goodluck.