love was hurting me so much. then I put it to sleep. now I'm cold.
this was my hardest descision between leaving a life of pain, but having a warmth inside me or the a life of nothingness and having nothing inside me. the pain was too great and it killed itself. I chose a life of nothingness but it was leaving love behind that let me see this way and now I'm beginnign to understand that my way certainly is not nothing.
2007-01-23 08:43:46
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answered by Anonymous
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Everytime I have been at a crossroads, it is a very difficult decision because for each path that you choose, there is one that you are giving up, the road not taken & you always wonder. Here are a few of mine:
1. Choosing my speciality in university: I had wanted a triple major English, Drama & Art, but this was too ambitious. I had to give something up. English & Drama worked together. When I took a Shakespeare course for instance, it counted toward my Drama major & English Specialist. I decided to drop Art & just have a minor in Art history. At the time it was heartbreaking. Like I was giving up on being an artist. The silly thing was, they couldn't really teach me to draw or paint. They could help you to hone techniques but I have my own unique style & I still paint now. You certainly don't need a degree to be an artist. You just buy canvas & fill it with paint & show it & hope someone buys it, which is what I have done.
2. Ending a relationship with someone I loved because I knew it was wrong for me. Painful but necessary.
3. Buying a house by myself in a new community & leaving behind my home, family & town that I'd known for 25 years & where I felt safe & secure...That was the hardest, scariest thing i ever did!
4. Embarking on a new relationship that is exciting & challenging but scary & uncertain. Not sure if I made the right choice here as things are pretty rocky at the moment...you just never know.
It's hard. You follow a path & hope for the best but part of you wonders...what if I'd gone the other way? Where would I be now? What would I be doing? Who would I be...?
2007-01-23 09:02:57
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answered by amp 6
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Suffering from depression is quite a challenge for me. I mean not even medicine can completely cure it so it takes so much time. I had a hard time finding the right medication and I just lost patience with it. So I wanted to end all this, all this pain I felt. I knew it was a totally selfish thing to want to do, especially if you have so many people who love and care about you but if you ever knew what is felt like you'd understand. So I made this one life changing decision of planning out how exactly I'm going to do it and someone caught me in the act and stopped me before it was to late. I did finally find the right medication but to think that I was going to make a permanent decision on something temporary is something so scary to live through.
2007-01-23 09:17:25
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answered by Sara V 3
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I left my good paying job to try my luck as a Stock-Broker. You have to take a "Series 7" exam to become a Broker. The firm I went to gave a free class to take this exam. A typical class is for about a month, and classes are everyday for 8 hours with 1/2 hour for lunch. You had quizzes everyday to have you get used to the questions. The text and all of the notes had lots of info where you had at least 500 pages. The hardest part was studying the notes and quizzes. You had no life and the money supply was slowing dwindling. The actual exam had to be passed with a 70%. But at least 50% of the class drops out within 2 weeks and only 1% of the class actually passes. So for one month you are a hermit in you own home. Needless to say, I didn't make it, but got my old job back.
2007-01-23 09:14:14
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answered by nyicecreamking 2
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Whether to have my daughter or not. That can be a hard decision when you barely come out of high school, and are not financially stable, and already have problems in your relationship. That was the toughest decisions that I have ever made in my life which I don't regret having my daughter.
2007-01-28 20:58:41
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answered by Anonymous
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The day I had the gun to my head and had to decide whether to pull the trigger or not. It was the hardest decision of my life because I wanted to pull the trigger so bad but something kept saying "don't do it, you'll go straight to hell if you do and there's no way out of that." I struggled with that for a couple of hours and finally put the gun down.
2007-01-29 08:25:52
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answered by wd 5
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Last Sunday it was so cold and I had to decide if I should go out in cold and leave the garbage bag now or wait until the next morning. The reason was that if I woke up late and missed the garbage van, my wife would cuss me for the entire week. I got up at 3 in the morning and put the garbage at the street corner.
2007-01-23 08:49:40
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answered by Anonymous
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When my husband died suddenly, no good byes. He wasn't even ill. You are faced with allot of what if"s. Did I ever have this beautiful life once,or did I just dream it? It involved allot of changes in my almost perfect life. I learned life does go on, you have to change for the better. No one can do it for you, you have to think positive all the way.My faith,work, and volunteer work carried me through, it made me a better person today.
2007-01-30 02:56:07
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answered by chilly bean 3
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giving up on my mother. i realized she was a co dependent and i couldn't get her to leave her husband even for the sake of her kids. so i gave up. she knows if she files for divorce the couch or spare room should i get one is open to her. other wise my mother is gone. giving up on her and deciding i was going to make sure she didn't screw up my sister. so when my sis graduates in the spring I'm making sure she can move out safely. giving up on my mother was the most difficult time consuming decision of my life.
2007-01-23 08:51:20
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answered by ~*~AmethystMoonBeams~*~ 5
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The decision to end the life of my sick cat before the suffering became too much or before he passed away alone at home while I was at work. That day, it felt like my heart turned to stone and it took three years before I was able to really feel anything again.
2007-01-23 09:06:57
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answered by Anonymous
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