Forgiveness is a difficult task..The toughest job I've ever loved...I've turned my other cheek so many times,

Question

After being pushed and shoved...
I feel I've reached another point,
Of inevitable not returning,
As I look in the mirror at a 32 year old,
I see an 18 year olds passion burning,
Shall I watch as the years just drift away...
Into nothing, but paying off debt...
Or should I try to live my dreams,
Of all those things I havn't done yet?
Skydiving, Mountain climbing, Or deep see diving,
Life holds for me so much more....
I'd dive off a cliff if the water was deep,
But that's nothing, I've done that before...
Adrenaline is my drug of choice,
How convenient, it's dealt in my body!
And it's not a substance that hinders performance,
Or makes you vomit when you try to go potty!
Is there a route that I can choose,
That doesn't lead me into the abyss...
That swallows many whole, without control,
Left with so much oppurtunity to miss?
Depression is a daily fight for me,
As the job market isn't too forgiving,
May I get suggestions pertaining to hope,
To make a happier living?

Answer 1

Wow,that's really sad,maybe you need to keep looking for more options being as you don't have any good ones,stop letting the past hold you back,that is the purpose of forgivness.let go and move on,but I hope you have something in your life worth holding onto.Sometimes hope is not enough and you just gotta jump with both feet,have faith and take chances.Good luck Mr.

Answer 2

25 hours thanks too rather some dozing pills and 14 or 15 images of tequila It got here about very last 12 months i become depressing reason i purely breakup with my boyfriend I lost my understanding about 1am (i wasn't advantageous yet that become the purely appropriate time i checked my watch) i awoke at 2 am the subsequent day and the humorous element become i idea i purely slept for one hour yet then i checked clock in my cellular telephone and purely realized that the date wasn't a similar anymore i woke on the health midsection through the way and that i need to stayed there about 4 days

Answer 3

That's a beautiful poem,I'm really sorry you feel ALL your choices lead to a big ,dark ,deep nothing.A suggestion of hope?hmm...maybe you need a different job market..I'm looking north and wondering if you really don't like ANY of the choices God has put in your face.That is so sad....I really don't know what to say.

Answer 4

God gave you the ability to forgive. That is a value far more than most. If you are dismayed due to that it is normal. Count your blessings and thank god for such a wonderful ability.

Answer 5

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