please, I want so much to be the woman that i am meant to be.And need and desire to be.?

Question

WELL, ITS ME AGAIN, STILL TRYING TO WORK WITH AND OU
T ABOUT THIS WOMAN WHO IS LIVING INSIDE ME. SHE LET M
E HAD MYWAY AND PEACE FOR QUITE SOMETIME. BUT NOW
SHES TRYING TO LET ME KNOW THAT SHES VERY MUCH AL
IVE. THAT PAIN, AGONY AND TORTURE IS COMING BACK SLO
WLY. I DONT KNOW IF IM GOING TO BE ABLE TO OUTLAST T
HEM THIS TIME? RIGHT NOW IM BEING PROGRAMED ABOUT
WANTING TO BE A WOMAN TO NO END? EACH TIME THAT I FEEL OR THINK THIS WAY, THE PAIN AND DESIRE GETS A LIT
TLE STRONGER. I FEEL LIKE IM FIGHTING MYSELF ON THE IN
SIDE AND OUT? I DONT HAVE VERY MANY PEOPLE TO TALK
TO, I JUST WANT SO MUCH TO BE A WOMAN, I DONT KNOW
WHY I WAS REFUSED THIS OPPURTUNITY AT BIRTH? NOW I
TS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MY LIFE IS GOING TO CHANGE, S
O THAT I CAN BECOME THE WOMAN THAT I NEED TO BE, AN
D SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALL ALONE? RIGHT NOW, I WOULD
GIVE ANYTHING, JUST TO BE A WOMAN, I AM SO SORRY THA
T MY LIFE IS THE WAY THAT IT IS. NATURE SHOULDNT HAVE
LEFT ME THIS WAY, TRAPPED IN A MANS BODY? OK.

I DO KNOW THAT PEOPLE CAN BE UN
CARING, WHEN THE PROBLEM IS NOT
ABOUT THEM. IT DONT HURT OR TAKE
MUCH EFFORT TO LOOK INSIDE OF Y
OURSELF FOR A FEW SECONDS. BEF
ORE YOU TRY TO FIND REASONS TO
LAUGH OR MAKE FUN AT SOMEONES
ELSES EXSPENSE? YOU NEED TO KE
EP IN MIND THAT YOU WILL NOT BE LIV
ING A PERFECT LIFE ALWAYS? I TOO U
SED TO BE JUST LIKE YOU, WHEN IT C
AME TO HEARING AND SEEING PEOPLE
WHO HAD TRANSSEXUAL AND OTHER
PROBLEMS? I NEVER THOUGHT THAT
IT COULD OR WOULD EVER HAPPEN T
O ME? BOY, WAS I WRONG? I EXPECT
AND ASK FOR YOUR RESPECT, I HAVE
A RIGHT JUST LIKE YOU, TO SHARE MY
PROBLEMS AND FEELINGS IN A SAFE
PLACE WHERE EVERYBODY SHOULD
KNOW HOW TO TREAT EACHOTHER I
N A LOVING AND CARING MANNER. I DO
NT HAVE TO ANSWER TO YOU, GOD IS
MY BOSS, AND HE IS THE ONLY ONE W
HO I MUST WORRY ABOUT. SO YOU C
AN PLEASE LET THE DOOR HIT YOU W
HERE THE GOOD LORD SPLIT YOU? T
HANK YOU TO THE LOVING AND CARIN
G PEOPLE FOR YOUR ANSWERS, AND
MUCH APPRECIATED SUPPORT.LOVE

Answer 1

It sounds like you are a transsexual, not a transgender as others have suggested. Well, first of all, it would be a good idea to locate a therapist. They will listen to you, and later on, make the necessary referrals to advance in your transition. You will be asked to live full-time as a woman. In at least 3 months of seeing the therapist, they should refer you to an endocrinologist for hormones. In about a year or so, you can get a psychiatrist for a second opinion, and the therapist and psychiatrist can give you surgical clearance. From there, you would see a surgeon who performs Sex-Reassignment Surgery (also Genital-Reassignment Surgery, or Gender Affirmation Surgery).

In the mean time, join gender support groups. They are both land-based and online. Try to find more TS-specific resources and not get tangled up in the affairs of the TG community or the LGBT. Look to understanding genetically born women as role models moreso than other transsexuals or transgendered persons.

You may wish to do things before actually living as a woman to make the transition easier. It may help if you have a map before undertaking this journey:
http://www.tsroadmap.com/

You may wish to start on electrolysis, hormones, and undergo simple cosmetic procedures (eg., nose job) before you actually live as a woman full-time. Once you go full-time, it is hard to retract that portion of your life, so be sure you are fully ready before you do so.

Answer 2

For most men checking women out is not even a conscious level of thought type of thing. More times than not it only means that he sees something he likes. You are not involved in his thought pattern when he is looking at other women. So therefore him looking at her has almost nothing to do with you. If on the other hand he runs over and tries to get her digits, I would suggest a good swift kick in the nuts and a get lost loser statement.

Answer 3

Wow thats really deep. I can almost feel your pain through your words. If you feel that strong about it you should go ahead and become that woman. Do what will make you happy. You may go through a lot as far as people who know you are concerned but your happiness is what should matter most. Good luck and I hope things get better for you

Answer 4

You need to talk to someone. Find a therapist! Either call your local Transgender or Gay & Lesbian Hotline or LGBT Center and ask for help. You can also look up on Yahoo! for your local area for phone numbers and places to go to find someone to speak with that are in similar situations to give you ideas. I hope you find someone to help, you deserve all the happiness you can find, good luck!

Answer 5

Jeese why the drama so what do you need to SCREEEEM to the world

Just put on you favorite panties and bra and chemise and dress and do what you want if it SCREEEEMin most likely people will tell you go sit in the corner

No big deal Girl

Answer 6

And, what do you expect of us ????

We can't do a gender change operation here, I'm sorry!?!?

Please try the transgender hospital around the corner!?!?

Answer 7

these three sites helped me a lot when i had a gender and sex identity crisis:

http://tsroadmap.com
http://nikaaskini.com/
http://www.reneereyes.com/

Answer 8

sure you want to be a women no problem. you have to do is pray to Allah[ Muslim god} that he will take your dik out then replace it with a sponge bath. so every time you feels like a women u just need a bath ,then you will realized a women is boring then you will say to yourself jesus,it feels good to be a man than a fuking women

Answer 9

Have surgery

Answer 10

BE WHO YOU ARE INSIDE !!!