Fantasies and Unrealistic Hopes. Help!?

Question

As of late, I have been reading a lot of fantasy books about magic and such.
I have always had this desire to have this amazing adventure. Life seems boring to me. School, job, retire, die.
I've also always wanted magic powers.
But now my desire for them has increased.
I can't go a day without wishing I was...unique? Had powers no one else had. It seems cool. I'm obsessed. It's come to the point where without it, life seems pointless, and I've considered suicide. Not because I'm miserable, but because I'm bored.

I don't want attention, I know that. I'm a middle child, and I am camera shy, and just plain shy.
I would love to have magical powers, but I don't care if I'm known or not.
I just HATE being normal. I don't understand it.

Are others like this? Is this natural? Is there something wrong with me? I know other people wish they had magical powers, but not like this.

I'm a scientific gal. I'm an atheist and like realistic things.

So why do I believe in and want magic so badly??

"Always remember that you are unique. Just like everybody else."
That's what gets to me.
Why does it matter if I am unique? There are 60 billion other "unique" people out there.

So I'm looking for something that makes me even MORE unique. I don't know why, it's confusing!

Answer 1

Nothing wrong with this desire. It is a matter of perspective. Life offers a great deal to those who are willing to look it in the eyes.

Standard culture lacks depth, lacks intensity, lacks truth. It is like walking through a movie set. The fronts of the buildings are painted nice and purty but there is nothing behind them. They are fake. Facades and nothing more. The emptyness of the institutions around you are making you feel like the world is just as empty. You are in a spiritual dessert. The good news is there are oasis's out there. The whole world isn't like this. There are people and places which are not so plastic. Just not easy to find. Remember the ideas and values you find endearing were not created from thin air. They are portraits of ideals. Exagerations and distortions with a basis in the real world.

What you describe is not average, nor is it extremely rare. D&D springs from the same basic desire. A healthy outlet for such. Ren Faires and the SCA are two other such outlets.

One thing about the human being is that we are able to extrapolate things that our normal reasoning facilities are unable to justify. It is the boon and bane of humanity. The same elements which make us vulnerable to con artists and cults also extend our world daily. Technological breakthroughs are often leaps of fantasy bonded with a strong desire to make it so. The Einstein space trip for example. Until he made it in his mind and returned how could he develop reasoning to explain how and what happened? He couldn't. One part of his mind made the leap. The objective side of his mind discerned what it would take to make it so. Then the analytical side developed a picture of the world. Reasoned out the truth, which was quite likely vastly different from the first trip. Eventually fantasy and science met to create a world unknown before Einstien dared to go there. Science has since established good reasons to expect Einstien's theories are correct.

Many Sci-Fi writers have advanced science. Their constant questioning of the world and where it could go have inspired many people to attempt just such a journey. True the cannon idea Wells had was a primitive illustration. Rocket, cannon, same principle. Jules Verne's Nemo is another example. Arthur C Clarke has probably done more for Space exploration than any other single person up to this point in time. His ideas continue to drive space exploration even today.

Fantasy and Sci-Fi have much in common. In fact 20 years ago they were considered the same genre. Most libraries and bookstores still sell them in the same genre. Fantasy is a journey into humanity and the world unseen. Sci-Fi tends to be more technology oriented and less intraspective. Other than that they share much.

To meet like minded people, I suggest checking out the nearest ren Faire. You can google the results. They are all over the US. If your lucky enough to live in Texas then you should attend the Texas Ren Faire in Plantersville. Far less commercial than any other that I am aware of. Especially after the gates close. The SCA can be good and bad. Sometimes very political and cliqueish sometimes exactly what it was founded to do. Some RPGers will share the same interests and intensity.

Do you "grow out of it". I never did. I'm 40. I hope they throw dirt on me before I do. To lose such an interest is to lose your passion for life. It is to lose a special gift. A special insight and special motivation. Will it make you rich. Who knows. Even if it makes you poor who cares. Starvation is not just a physical thing. A starved soul is more painful than a starved body. To grow out of it is to accept spiritual starvation in my opinion.

Answer 2

We are all definitely unique...but everyone wants to be or have something that really sets them apart from everyone else...its human nature...be it the biggest house on the block or in your case magic powers. But sorry...you can't get magic powers...at least that i know of in this world.

You can however have an adventure...there are sooo many things you could do..just because other people have done it doesn't mean its not an adventure to you. Go skydiving or rock climbing, or travel around the country and world. Even a hike through the forest can be an "adventure" of sorts.

Answer 3

If you're bored maybe you should go out and try new things,, fill your life with things you love and maybe you will feel less hollow and the desire for magical powers will ease. Just remember suicide is never the answer, and I'm sure being dead is one hundred times more boring than living.
Your belief in magic is just a distraction from the boredom, I'm sure many people have dream worlds, you just need to make sure that you realise that is a fantasy. Life doesn't have to just be school job retire die. think of all things you can do while working, travel, go out and make friends, create new things, and once you've retired you're free to do what you want. You need to think more optimistic and find a hobby that you love to entertain you. Whether it be sport or writing or a musical instrument. reading your past questions and answers you're obviously a very intellegent person, i'm sure you can make your life meaningful, you've just got to go out and try things instead of waiting for things to happen.

Answer 4

Guess what, you do have "magic" powers. Everyone does. Google "the law of attraction" and begin manifesting.

Answer 5

be careful of what you wish for.

Why don't you find a magick user in your area and see if they can teach you some magick that you can do. Don't worry about being unique, because we all are in some way.

Answer 6

Join a cult