Bipolar question?

Question

does anyone with bipolar feel like the path to actually finding out who you are is actually longer than what it should be? Like it seems when you are manic you almost have it figured out but then when you crash it seems you are someone completely different with different goals and yes even when being evened out things are different too. How does one distinguish what is real or not when the mood changes so much?

Answer 1

Oh, yes. I know exactly what you mean. Not only the difficulty of finding the reality of myself, but of everything and everyone around me. Meds certainly help, but I still vary from day to day. And at each of the poles, there is a feeling of regained memory after amnesia, an "Oh, yeah, this is what it's REALLY like, this is the truth, I was just fooling myself before." After observing the patterns and the deceptions I used to believe in these extremes over the years, I seem to have developed an interior BS detector that recognizes these illusions for what they are. Even when I am sure (in depression) that I am a worthless piece of garbage that doesn't deserve to consume oxygen, it's very convincing, but some sort of higher consciousness breaks through and says, "I'm not going to believe it this time, this perception is false and it will pass." Same with the manic grandiosity -- though that's even harder. Sometimes I think my brain is like a broken clock: it's right twice a day.

It will come, with meds, with practice, with observation, with therapy. Recognize the truth lies somewhere in the middle and learn to hold on to that truth even in the extremes. Have faith in yourself.

Good luck.

Answer 2

I myself am Bipolar, but for some strange reason I do a lot of things such as a bad habit and I realize I am doing it. Most people tell me I'm very intelligent for a 14 year old. Most other people see Bipolar as an anger disorder when it's really just a chemical imbalance in your brain. Which can also cause memory issues like forgetting something really important or going someplace and forgetting why or what you went their for. Basically what I'm trying to get at is the fact that in some ways yes Bipolar disorder can make life seem like such a pain. We only think it that way because our brain isn't quite like a normal humans would be. And we go chasing the dreams of getting one(a normal human brain) but we only end up finding the truth that we won't. And that we will just have to live with the facts that we will never see life like others do, as a thriving paradise...with a true meaning.

P.S. I really hope this helped out...

Answer 3

I feel the same way sometimes. It becomes apparent if I take a personality test or quiz. Would I describe myself as being introverted or extroverted? That depends on how I'm feeling that day. Sometimes I feel very comfortable around other people, I enjoy laughing and telling jokes. It's fun. Other times I feel like a social retard. I'd even prefer to just be alone.
It depends if I'm in a hypo-manic stage(I don't really get full on manic) or a depressive stage.
The way I see it is, people respond differently to different situations. If I'm really depressed, but I can manage to suit up and show up, and maybe even squeeze a smile out once in a while if I'm lucky, then that says something about me. If on another everything is a breeze, I can brighten another person's day, maybe get some laughs, that's part of me too.

Answer 4

What you have discovered is one of the most important things to recovery - the pattern & the rythym in those patterns because these can be used to help that person in their time of need.

That is, when a person is manic or depressed then you cannot rely judgement made under those conditions. You could however rely on someone else's judgment, someone you trust, someone who cares for you and allow them to make those decisions for you. When you are even then you can make those judgement calls yourself.

Working in this field trying to keep these guys out of jail, i can tell you its always because of the decisions they make when they are either manic or depressed. Unfortunately its not until AFTER they have been trouble and all their rights have been stripped away do they understand and are inclined to use this strategy

Good luck with yours

Answer 5

hey, i have been tormented by bipolar for a lengthy time period, perchance years, yet I in common words were given a diagnosis about a week in the past! no individual else in my relations has it, all of them have recurrent melancholy somewhat. that is a alleviation to get the diagnosis in a way, because i keep in mind that that is the Bipolar causing my mood swings and by no ability in basic terms ''me being loopy''. i have been began on a low dose of Zyprexa, i imagine my psychiatrist intends to operate more effective drugs in some week's time. i imagine on the time he concept i became manic, because even as he requested how i might want to cost my mood I stated 'low fringe of time-honored' and then his eyebrows raised and he regarded bowled over and stated 'you advise you get a lot higher than this?' and that i went 'hell yeah!' and laughed, and that is even as he positioned me on the Zyprexa. i'm slightly depressed on the minute regardless of the reality that, and that i'll't take care of to make myself go away the living house, dress or get something to eat... besides, as we communicate i'm no longer functioning properly in any respect, although that is type of a alleviation to charm to close there are different bipolar human beings available that are coping and living a classic existence. i desire which will be me quickly too. perchance once i'm on the right drugs. each of the perfect. <3 x

Answer 6

my wife is manic bipolar it has been a true rollercoaster ride 13 years . the good the bad and the ugly . happyness within her self and any and all things around her has helped her awarness of this ride .it never ends and may never end. but for her to listen to her self and try to here the voice come out to strong or fast or just plane mean she has found peace inside her enough to move on and see it. this is not all the time .for her just seeing it, these diferent voices ,these strong feelings, the vent from her mind ,has helped the awarness of it all and inturn a breath of happyness ...

Answer 7

I am bipolar my self it can mess with your moods it makes you feel like some one diffrent all the time it could change your life its very hard to deal with some times but you have to and fight it and dont let it take over and its going to be a very long time to come out of your shell .I am 28 years old and i had it since i was a very young child and im still fighting with and its very hard for me and my family. I wish the best of luck.

Answer 8

Lithium my friend, Lithium.
6 whole years of therapy didn't help to solve your question. Now I don't even ask it anymore.
I know it sounds like I gave up to search for the truth and reality of things, but now I live happier, even without knowing.
Focus on who you want to become, not who you are coz that is always changing when you're bi...

Answer 9

Ther is either a light at the of the tunnel, or, a tunnel at the end of the light. You just have to work it out for Yourself.

Answer 10

I have 2 answers for you ... but it will take me twice as long to answer... hold on.. gotta discuss this with myself...


OK... I'm back. no, sorry. we can't come to a decision on this cause neither of us will agree on anything. we are just so different.

I guess just choose the one answer that seems logical the most.
sorry, gotta go... I'm about to get into it with myself again... ggrrr!...