I have been in a low mood, and I have tried to find ways of helping myself. Ever since I was twelve I had an eating disorder. My weight fluctuates and I never feel happy with it. I have been feeling so horribly for feeling sad. I also feel what is technically known as existential despair, considering the ambiguties in life--and I maybe I do read to much--which is the reason my parents consider me to have my...abstract thinking processes. I always hear how it is your fault for not taking control of your life and not being positive, but nothing is enjoyable to me anymore. I feel I have caused this, and I feel so guilty. I don't want to sound like some sympathy plea. I disgust myself with my dependency on others, especially older men. I'm sixteen. Maybe it's because I feel no relation to boys my age. I want to talk to someone about their opinions on philosophical/historical figures, literature, morality.This is why I think I feel an affinity for some teachers, I feel guilt for my sadness.
2007-01-13
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