I'm so depressed?

Question

I have been depressed about the last half a year. I've always had a feeling of worthlessness and felt that i was never good enough for anybody, but it wasnt as bad as it is now. I've recently been going out with a girl for about a year and a half, i broke up with a little less than 2 days ago. This is like the 20th time with broken in the last few months. I found out she slept with 3 guys, and caught an std. She lied to me and did while i knew she was with them, she turn off her phone, i beg her not to anything, but she did anyway. I recently found out all the truth within the last two months. I've tried to work it with her but i dont think i can forgive her. I feel completly crushed, and want her back. I dont know were to turn i feel as if everybody is sick trying to help me. I feel so alone, and just want to jump of a building, i keep turning to liquor and adderall, to numb some of away. What should i do, i've scheduled a appointment with a theapist, but its 2 weeks away.

Answer 1

Well i think the therapist is the first step, and thats great that you already did that on your own. All i can say is that i too have been there where you feel like the world is just spinning and spinning and all you want is for it to stand still for one minute so you can catch your breath but you can't. I know you feel like you just lost the only thing that kept you going and now you think theres nothing left. When i got to that point i had someone very wise tell me to do something i thought seemed silly but it changed my life. He told me to sit down and right out a list of all the things i liked about me and then next to that write out how i could apply it to my life. For example if i liked that i was a caring person i could apply it by voulenteering at a homeless shelter once a week. I know it seems like this wouldn't really matter, once i was focusing on my good traits and using them to help others and to keep myself occupied i stopped thinking about how horrible everything was and saw just what i could do that day. It sort of gave me a purpose. Numbing the pain only helps the moment not the problem, so what you have to do is build up your stronger points to make up for the ones you may be lacking at this time. Its kind of like if you go to the doctor complaining of spinal acheing, he will tell you to work out the muscles surrounding the spine for better support, thus eleminating the pain. So if you strengthen your strong points it will eventually eleminate your pain. I hope i've been of some help.

Answer 2

Since you've always had a a feeling of worthlessness, that you've never been good enough for anyone, you're "settling" for partners who accept that type person & who most likely feel the same way about themself. Seeing a therapist is what you need most right now, to help you find selfworth, thus overcoming your depression. Until then, forget wanting back this cheater & liar because when you find your self worth thru therapy, you'll realize you deserve much better than her, someone who appreciates & respects you, then you'll be happy again. In the meantime, pass some time talking to a friend or neighbor (about the weather, news issues, whatever), visit the elderly in a nursing home, feed the pigeons/ducks at a park or just sit on a bench & people watch, (kids playing is especially enjoyable to watch) get some exercise, take a walk daily, get fresh air, sunshine & keep your living area brightly lit & not too hot or too cold, use aroma therapy candles, incense & bath oils, drink plenty of water & juice, avoid junk food, eating healthy foods like fruits & veggies. Most importantly, stay away from alcohol, adderall & all drugs not prescribed to you! There IS light at the end of the tunnel! Good luck!

Answer 3

You are so much better than this - thank God you are not married to her - and please know that you can and should move on. Work on yourself - and feeling better - get involved in some new activites - sports - or whatever interests you. Take baby steps and look for a ray of sunshine in each new day - or each new hour! Don't look for alcohol or medication (unless it's an antidepressent to help you through this tough time). I am glad you are getting the help you need - your life IS worth living - and someday you will find someone who loves you and will be commited to you. Until then - I hope you feel better soon!

Answer 4

If you really feel like you are suicidal go to the ER and tell the truth, or call the therapist office back and let them know you can't wait 2 weeks and why. Just remember that even though it may seem dark now eventually it will get better. Self medication never works. Good luck

Answer 5

First of all, take a deep breath and look at your life.
Is this what you want from your life?
Hopefully not.
You need to realize that inner happiness comes from yourself, not a girlfriend or things like that.
You can choose to be happy, and turning to things like alcohol will do nothing but make it worse.
Try meditation and yoga. Let go. Forget the past. You DO NOT need a woman in your life to make you happy. What you do need is to love yourself.
The healing process of learning to love yourself could take no time at all, to a lot of time. But you can't hang on to all the negative stuff in your past.
If you do, you'll only be walloing in your misery, which will make it worse. Let it go.
Think about what a great person you are, and do things that make you happy.
Go on a jog for fifteen minutes every morning, join a club or a team. Get a hobby.
Remember, happiness comes from loving yourself. Happiness is a choce, and it's up to you.

Answer 6

I have been their too many times. Had horrible relationships was co-dependent(addicted to bad relationships)But I found the Truth which set me free. I did finally get a very nice faithful husband but I had to become sincere and not settle for a rascal. This world is called Maya(illusion) and is temporary and full of misery. Only one fourth of the souls come here.(the less intelligent ones. We are not these bodies,we are eternal spirit souls, part and parcel of the Supreme Soul, also known as Krishna,Allah, Vishnu, Jehovah, etc. We have to reconnect with our Maker to actually be happy. Other relationships end in misery one way or another (ultimately death.) The quickest and easiest way to get out of misery and illusion and be happy is to chant the Maha Mantra (the great mantra for deliverance from suffering and misery.) go to harekrishnatemple. for details and also go to stephen-knapp. for e-book The Key to real happiness. Read Bhagavad Gita as it is By Bhaktivedanta Prabhupada- -to understand the true meaning of life and your life's purpose. Don't kill yourself-- those who take their own life become miserable ghosts who suffer incessantly the misery they felt at the time of their death. They have no senses to enjoy and other ghosts torment them. They are so lonely because no one sees or hears them. It only makes ones misery worse. Read these books and follow the process and you will be happy.

Answer 7

There isn't anything you could do to anyone in general. I think it would help if you dumped her and see if there is another girl that will treat you with the respect that you deserve because you've put up with her for her actions so farfetched from what kind of person you should be hanging around in the first place.

Answer 8

It's up to you to change your life and make a good one for yourself. Do you know how many hurting, dying & sick people there are who are in such physical pain? They have good reason to be depressed. They can't be cured,nor help themselves. You can!! It's how much effort you want to put into it to have a good, a
happy life with someone worthy of you. A person that cheats and
trreats another like that is not worthy of a persons love & caring.
Why you would even want to be with her is the question. Please
get yourself up and do something good for yourself.

Answer 9

No 1: Get your self to a crisis center if you want to kill yourself and are using booze and adderall.

No2: Someone who cheats on you is not worth you wanting back. She obviously does not care about you!

No3: There are over 3 Billion other women on the planet. Pick one.

Answer 10

Find your phone book and get the number for your local crisis help line. You need to talk to somebody NOW- not in 2 weeks. I feel so bad for you and you need to know that even though everything looks and feels hopeless right now- it will get better. Stop beating yourself up over this break-up. It sounds like she wasn't worth the pain you're suffering over her. Please get off the computer and call the crisis help line and talk to a therapist NOW! Do it!