I saw her die .She was my mother, aids, drug , anger and hate kill her.Why do I fear to die like her?

Question

She a go mom like living her life to the fullness, never stopping to rest. Her life was short leaving behind four young girl to raise them self in this crazzy world. Our family is not close and driffed apart when she die at 39 years of age.That was 18 years ago and it hurt and feel like she left today. I learned from my grandfather before he pass away. My mother lived with him and her stepmother. She had a good life and every thing.MY mother never spoked about her childhood or about her family. She was close to her younger sister Jaunita.Their love was pure and enveying one another do to family issue. I no longer keep in touch with my mother or my father family scince both died. My father was killed when I was ten years. I never understood his death till this day I wonder why. My mother shooted up drug and contact aids. My three sister and I lived the life on the edge and found our life back on track. Now I fear to have sex and live with a man who would cut my life short

Answer 1

You probably feel like it may be your destiny because she was your mother. But I strongly believe that the person chooses their destiny. Make the right choices and you will be fine. If this bugs you too much, I advise you seek medical help. Talk to someone, a family member, a friend, a therapist, a stranger. Just get it off your chest and you will feel better. Please seek help. You will do fine. If you need to talk feel free to e-mail me @ [e-mail]

Hope this helps!

Answer 2

this was your mom's doing not a man , or her family or you girls it was all her you can't blame any one else but her i am sorry my mom died of alchol poisoning so i know what it's like to live with a parent that has severe drug/alchol problems. on one hand it's good your scared of aids you should be just take precuation when your ready to have sex, sex when your with someone you love is wonderful and don't be scared just use condoms as far as worring if a man will control your life and make you do something you don't want to do .. only you can make this happen do not put your self in a situation with people who do this sort of activities just being aware of all these things should make you and your sisters aware of just how horrific drugs really are you can try alanon meetings they will help alot they are for children,siblings,spouces of people who have drug and alchol problems ... and i do understamd i am terrified of becoming an alcholic i rarely drink (one a week on friday if we go out to eat) but even so i worrie that one day i might not be able to control it... i am so sorry for you and your sisters (i have 3 sisters also) stick together love and help each other and you'll be fine the only person who can make you do something you should not is you and you seem stronger than that.....

Answer 3

Well..
its no wonder why you dont want to die like her.
even though she had a good life,
her childhood was probably ubearable for her.

maybe she just never got the negatives off of her mind,
so she turned to drugs.

dont be terrified of having sex.
just make sure you trust him.
make sure you're safe.

Again, dont live with a guy you dont trust.
make sure you're safe.
dont be too insecure about every man that walks by,
or every person you talk to.
live your life to the fullest, too.
just dont turn to drugs, it wont help anything.
depend on your friends.
if they're really your friends,
they'll be there for you no matter what

Answer 4

Dont fear that you will end up like her. You are your own person and make your own decisions. The life she chose is not the one you have to chose for yourself. If you live your life never letting someone in, never trusting, you will end up worse than her. You might want to seek some sort of counceling for this issue. Best of luck

Answer 5

Dear, I can see why you would be feaful. But, that doesnt mean you shouldnt have a loving and caring relationship with your husband. Choose a good man and he will love you. Your not responsible for your moms mistakes. Good luck.

Answer 6

maybe try writing fiction that is upbeat. at least then, your always thinking positive as that's the way the storyline goes.

Answer 7

seek help