What would you do>?

Question

Okay, I've always kind of frowned upon people who commit suicide. I automatically put a label on these people, but that is because I did not truly understand "pain." I've been depressed since about the fifth grade, but it got a WHOLE lot worse when I went to highschool. I realized who my friends were (and that I had none) and I realized how people truly felt about me. It was heartbreaking, and while I'm not a perfect person, I can be a good friend. I just really wish that someone would want to my friend, and that someone would pay attention to me. At school I feel invisible, no one ever talks to me. I remember the first day of school I almost cried because I had absolutely no one to sit by. I felt like everyone was looking at me. Well, anyway these emotions have really escalated. Now I feel like, what's the point? Yeah, I might be smart and get a good job and all... but so what. That's not going to make me happy, its just going to make me focus on other things besides my true feelings

Its not fun to feel unwanted... so why not end it all now? What reason does anyone really have to live when it get to this point? What do you do when you feel like you honestly do not want to live anymore?

Answer 1

NO. Do NOT let those kind of thoughts rule you. Please please give life another chance. I know that there's a perfect friend out there for you, and you don't want to miss that. What you wrote almost made me cry. Because I have a friend like that. She was diagnosed with depression a year ago, and I cared a lot; what you said really hit home, because I think that that's how she feels every day. Don't think that no one cares. Please, go talk to someone about it. Your parents can help you. Maybe you should even go and see a doctor (you might possibly have depression as well). It's nothing to be ashamed of, and it will help you a lot! My friend recently stopped taking her medication, on purpose, and I'm terrified! You may not realize it, but there are many people who will be affected (and heartbroken) if you decide to take your life. You being smart, and being a good person is what you should focus on. The friends will come soon, as well. Even though you don't know me, and no matter how cheesy it sounds, I care. Really and truly, I do. ^__^

Answer 2

I can really see where you are coming from, being born hearing impaired and being the only deaf person in both elementary and high school was rather quite hard.
But you know what I have learned? People will judge you no matter how good or bad you are, but they will have a harder time to ignore a person who is full of confidence and shows that they do not let hurtful words bother them.
Depression is very hard to fight, I still suffer with it to this day, but I also tell myself when I feel that there is no point in living, that God put me on this earth to accomplish something, and since He hasn't taken me home yet, I haven't accomplished it yet.
High School is hard, life in general is hard, but you really need to build your self confidence up and truly believe that you are a good person and when you believe that, people will see your confidence and will see that you are not a weak person, but rather someone who is strong.
Strong people have a tendency to gain friends, have a tendency to be the ones everyone wants to be like, while the ones who are weak and struggling, they're treated like puppets.
Just keep in mind that you are worth more than ending your life, that you will become a someone regardless what your fellow peers may feel.

Answer 3

I think that if this is how you really feel then you should get some help. You don't have to feel this way... tell your parents how you are feeling and have them take you to the doctor and get some counseling.
If you want to meet new people at school or out of school then you should join some clubs or do some volunteer work or, you can meet new people at that job you talked about.
You have to reach out to people in order to make friends. Maybe your depression is getting in the way of forming friendships.
I recommend getting some counseling, get off of the computer and go talk to your parents.

Answer 4

I use to feel the same, here is my story: in 4th grade i got depressed because i had no friends, it was horrible!!! but in 5 grade i forgot about all my old poser friends and made a bunch of new ones. im in 7th grade now and im happy, somtimes things go wrong but then everything goes good after a couple of days. since u been depressed since 5 grade u should probably transfer to a new school 2 start fresh

Answer 5

i felt like that wen i got to highskool and well yeah i thought the same way you do what i did was talk to more people went to games and yes lowered my expectations of my friends but it all worked out i got a million friends and a total hottie as a boyfriend

Answer 6

Committing suicide is extremely selfish and you should be ashamed of yourself just for considering it. Don't expect me to sympathize with you. All you'll be doing hurting those around you to try to escape from petty high school problems. It's ridiculous.