What do you think about this...?

Question

This is how i feel right now. does it make sense to you?

there's someone at school who takes away ALL that i want.

apparently, with ease. i like her, but hate her. she is all that i want (in a non sexual way, aka her achievements and stuff) i am jealous. i hate feeling jealous, so i try to tell myself

"hey, the only thing you can change is the way you do or think things. you can't change the way she does stuff. so make it better by bettering yourself, not dragging her down."

it seems logical, moral, whatever. but it's so hard to do. sooooo hard. it seems easier to just make her worse, not make me better. but that would be mean. but i'm mean. she's mean.

but i can't let that happen. all that i can do right now is better myself, possibly passing her standards. but i shouldn't aim for that! i should aim for the highest possible for me.

i'd feel comfortable with making myself better than her (in aspects which can be measured, like test grades).

i should not be complacent with making myself 'as good'. i have to be 'my best'. ugh, this is so hard.

having zero friends doesn't help this, really.

:(

Answer 1

I know this is very hard, I've been in quite similar situations myself. My best freind was the class topper and aced every test! I did feel lower than her at times.... then i got some confidence (always remember she's not deciding what your future will be... she won't be there when you've left school and are in trouble because you never tried to excel.)
What i discovered was that there were somethings that my best friend could not do but i could. look for your strengths and don't let anyone come in your way. look for music, art, fashion, technology...etc. there has to be something that she's not good at and you are. this will bring a balance in your friendship. and she'll feel just like you do right now.
I hope this helps! tell me if you find this useful!
good luck ☺(never underestimate yourself! you're awesome!)

Answer 2

It's human nature to always look at the negative. When she gets something instead of you, of course that's what sticks in your mind. What you don't remember is anytime something goes well for you. Be careful of that, or you will spend your whole life being unhappy because things could have been better "if only". What you have to always remember is that things could have been worse, too. No matter how good or how crappy things go for that girl, it doesn't impact YOUR life at all, and thinking that it does just wastes energy you could be spending on something productive.

Of course, if you just want to feel better, realize that those of us that face more difficulties when in youth are often more successful in life! People who sail through high school often have a rude awakening when they get out into the real world.

Answer 3

sounds to me like you are trying to hard. relax and be yourself and you will find you will soon have several friends. i am sure you are a smart person. do not try to impress others. that will never happen because you will be doing it for the rest of your life. it stops here. take a deep breath and stay away from this mean girl. even if that means hanging out by yourself for a while. you will be ok.

Answer 4

aawww...i'm sorry you feel like this...it sucks!!

you should just stick to bettering yourself..so that way you could feel good about yourself....and dont think about her and everything she has......because comparing is never going to help anything.....