Weird Perceptions?

Question

I don't know what is wrong with me, but I can't seem to decide what is really Real and what is not. I don't really see a point to life, I don't really feel like doing anything. I just want to sleep, but sometimes I will feel different and really anxious and scared of this world. I don't know what is wrong with me, or if there is something wrong with me. Sometimes people don't understand things I write, but they make sense to me...I try to be extra clear. And also sometimes I like thinking about bizarre things, but my parents tell me to be 'normal' and I just don't get it. I feel like such a stranger, and I have no idea what to do with myself. And then other people tell me I'm random or I keep talking about thing to another...I'm just excited with my ideas, I have so many.I also feel like I'm maybe making this up, maybe I'm causing myself to feel like this and think like this, and I don't know what to think! How about if everything is in my head! And I see halos around people's heads if I look for it, and white lights on borders of things.

But the problem is I see no future for myself. My grades are not good at all. I'm failing math, getting an A in English, and Cs in just about everything else. Pretty revolting? I have no motivation for certain things.

But the problem is I see no future for myself. My grades are not good at all. I'm failing math, getting an A in English, and Cs in just about everything else. Pretty revolting? I have no motivation for certain things.

Answer 1

if your a teenager,, alot of what your feeling is probably very normal,,,, as you mature,,, you question things,,,,, develop your own deep feelings and views of things (which may not be the same as those around you) and you wonder about your place in life,,,,, it may just be your personality to jump from subject to subject, i and my daughter have a tendency to do that also,,,,,,,and she talks very fast and in depth when she is excited about something (she is 19, but has always been like this) she rambles on sometimes so much i feel like my eyes are going to roll back in my head , lol,,,, as to the seeing halos around peoples heads,,, do you mean colors? or something else?,,,,,,,, the last two things you mention could either be some sort of esp type thing, or else could represent an eye problem, its always best to have things checked out physically,,,,,,, if your feelings and being anxious start to get to the point of interfering with your daily/normal life (keep in mind that the teen years are moody, contemplative times when your mind and body are changing a great deal ) then you should see a psychologist or counselor and discuss what is going on with you ,,,,,(i personally wouldnt at any point in life see a psychiatrist until i have seen a psychologist, as the first i feel to often tend to pass out pills without asking enough questions )

Answer 2

You sound like you're working up a lovely case of adolescent angst. Relax. Get a little perspective here.

You put this in philosophy, not psychology, so apparently you do not take too seriously any theories that you are losing your mind, out of control, etc. Believe it or not, such angst can have a healthy outcome if you use it to research and learn what it is that can create meaning for you.

For many, it is philosophy as an academic discipline. I went that route back in the early 1970s at the University of Michigan, which at that time was an extremely good school for philosophy. You would be amazed at how little I remember now of all that, but it was very intense and interesting and mind-expanding at the time.

For many, it is a religious or spiritual quest in some form. I did that one both before and after my time in academia, and to some extent during. There are many approaches which sidestep the academic world if you would rather, although remember that some religions are sufficiently into proselytizing that you cannot take what they tell you at face value. You must evaluated for yourself, and keep your BS filters at high gain.

And for some, the plunge into the muggle world of money-making and consumer rewards is the way to go. If it works for you . . . not something I could manage, myself, but then I am old and fat.

The bottom line, I suppose, is that you need to do the adolescent self-evaluation that results in your having moral values and a self-image you can live with, and then get on with living them.

Answer 3

You certainly sound like an interesting person. You should speak to a doctor/counsellor or psychiatrist about your feelings. You need to relax! It sounds like you think (& worry) too much. You may be delusional or you may be highly sensitive & perceptive. If you see halos you may be able to see people's "auras". I've heard of people with extrasensory perception that can see the energy that living things give off. This could be a beautiful thing. It's all in how you label it. It sounds like you may have social phobia & anxiety disorder if you feel anxious & nervous out in the world. It is ok to be different. If you are unique then you are special & that's not something to be ashamed of.

Try to use your imagination and unique perception in a positive way. Write a book. Write a fantasy or sci-fi novel or just write about your own life. Writing is great therapy & you may have a gift for it. When it comes to fiction, the weirder the better so write all these strange feelings & thoughts down & turn it into a story.

We don't all have to "fit in" & be "normal." Anyone that I've ever admired stood out rather than fit in. People who are special are extraordinary as opposed to "ordinary." Don't feel bad if you're not like everyone else. Celebrate it! You are a fascinating person.
You do have to be more kind to yourself though. Don't worry so much. Take deep breaths. Try to relax. Learn to meditate or do yoga. Get enough exercise to burn off some of that manic energy. Get enough rest so that your mind can recharge. Have you been losing sleep? Sleep deprivation can cause you to have delusions & imagine things.

You are ok. Love yourself. Be happy to be you. Talk to someone about your feelings. Someone that you can trust. Someone who won't judge you. See a doctor & perhaps they can recommend someone for you to speak with. They may be able to diagnose you if there is a psychological issue. Or you may just be very sensitive & neurotic.

Good luck. Take care.

Answer 4

Honestly, the people who are telling you there is something wrong with you were probably too dumb as teenagers to ever question anything and these types invariably make very booring adults.

Don't worry. Certainly don't panic. You are going to grow up to be just fine. Life gets allot better from here I promise.

My teenage angst years were absolute hell for me, I cant lie to you. But at the end of it, with what I have learned and how much better I know myself for it I am truely the happiest person I know. By the sounds of things you have allot of potential and not just as an potential employee or graduate, as a person. Try some new things, completely new things, and see if you can figure out what it is that makes you happy, what makes your heart sing. If you can figure that out you are doing better than most people and well on your way to happiness and understanding all the questions you asked. But that angst still comes, it still fills your head, as it does mine from time to time. Learning how to clear your head, through a little dicipline of the mind is the last trick and that one is the greatest trick of all.

Good luck

Now as for what you see arround things. Its called an Aura, my brother see's them all the time, I see them very rarely. I don't know what this means as there are so many theories, most of them spiritual. I supose its more about what it means to you?

Answer 5

I wrote you an answer to this question. Look at your past questions.
Hating school it's ok. Maybe it doesn't respond to your needs and passions. We are different, but school is not. It fits some, but it doesn't fit others.
Look for the positives in it. Find there something to fit you.
Grades are the effect of your performance, but also the interpretations of your teachers. I read some of your questions and answers. You're smart.
It would be helpful that you read about study skills or speed learning also so you increase your speed and self-confidence when it comes to tasks that you don't like.

Peace

Answer 6

You sound major depressed. Your brain chemistry is off. Are you doing any illegal drugs to add to these feelings?

I would suggest your mom take you to the doctor and discuss depression. Also, get some vigiorous exercise, and find a passion in life. Do something to help other people. Eat healthy. Drink more water and no sodas.

You might be eating and drinking your self in to a depression.
Don't worry about being "normal" worry about being yourself and find what will motivate you in life

Answer 7

You can see a psychiatrist and tell him about your feelings. Maybe these things has to do something with an illness. I mean, you don't sound like you're happy or peaceful. Everyone needs to see an expert few times a year so why wouldn't you? You can fix these things.

Answer 8

Would it help if you could find a way to slow down the input and focus on a single thought, or on no thought at all? It is best to learn to walk before you start flying. Find a way to get grounded to bring about balance.

Answer 9

wow!!! cool!!! you see halos around ppls heads?!?! well, i dont see stuff like that, but i totally see what youre getting at. you are not alone in this world. you just gotta realize that many ppl just dont understand. (*cough* ignorant *cough*) its totally cool. theres nothing wrong with you.

but about the part of not seeing a point to life, its enjoying yourself as much as you can. everybody suffers and stuff, but the porpose is basically just trying to make the most of what youve got, and youve certainly got something special. a unique perception.

my thesis: there is no truth until there you die, when all will be revealed. (but dont kill yourself, cuz youll go to hell)

so what? im spiritual.

basically, dont worry about the truth for now, cuz truth in this world is only a matter of what you believe in.

get it?

Answer 10

It's called Depression. If you're American it's because you're American.

Get a passport and call me in the morning!