I don't know what's wrong...?

Question

I don't know what is wrong with me, but I can't seem to decide what is really Real and what is not. I don't really see a point to life, I don't really feel like doing anything. I just want to sleep, but sometimes I will feel different and really anxious and scared of this world. I don't know what is wrong with me, or if there is something wrong with me. Sometimes people don't understand things I write, but they make sense to me...I try to be extra clear. And also sometimes I like thinking about bizarre things, but my parents tell me to be 'normal' and I just don't get it. I feel like such a stranger, and I have no idea what to do with myself. And then other people tell me I'm random or I keep talking about thing to another...I'm just excited with my ideas, I have so many.

I also feel like I'm maybe making this up, maybe I'm causing myself to feel like this and think like this, and I don't know what to think! How about if everything is in my head! And I see halos around people's heads if I look for it, and white lights on borders of things.

Answer 1

It seems to me like you have a dreamer personality adaptation (in terms of Taibi Kahler’s theory). I have a dreamer personality adaptation and for many years I thaught that it’s something wrong with me because I had different preoccupations than other people. But every person has a type of pers. ad. and that’s normal. I am creative, and in the same time I am reserved. I don’t talk much, I dream a lot. I am more in my mind than in contact with the exterior and, if you do this to, than maybe it’s why you ask yourself what is reality. Later you will turn this into an advantage, because you have the ability to take different perspectives much better than other people. I believe this is allready one of your best skills.
Contact with people gives you energy, and if you’re a dreamer you get energy more form your imaginations than from contact. Depression might be a result of lack of energy. I view depression as a natural way to regain energy. You get depressed, you start to dream, and then you feel good.
I found Stephen Johnsson’s (in the book Personality Styles, pg. 73-99) description of Schizoid experience really helpful. It seems to me quite similar to Taibi Kahler description and it was amazingly similar to my experience. Try to get that book.
Stephen Johnsson recommends for this type of personality (this is a quick review, I left out a lot of good ideas):
- reconnect with yourself (by movement, internal focusing, physical expression etc.).
- increase your sensory contact with the environment: to food, work, nature, home and later to people around you.
- get more awareness on your day-dreaming behavior. Learn to do that deliberately.
- increase your tolerance for expression and feeling by maintaining contact with people (as eye contact) as an exercise first.

However, I disagree with the connection Schizoid experience – hated child that S. J. makes. I guess we are born this personality type.

If it happends that this doesn’t fit you, I apologize and I still hope you will find something useful. Anyway, keep searching! There are a lot of cookies along the way.

Answer 2

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Answer 3

I think your only problem is that you're still a teenager, a time when you're trying to put everything together and understand yourself. I also think you're making it rougher than it has to be. Obviously, you are very intelligent, with an impressive command of the English language. Unlike many of your generation, you can even spell! Indications are that, with your communications skills, many careers are open to you. I could suggest a degree in journalism/communications, followed by a law degree, and then a career in politics. I believe you can go far and achieve goals you haven't even dreamed of yet. How does the White House sound? Could it be in your future?

Answer 4

You sound very unsure of yourself indeed. If you wander about aimlessly, you will go nowhere; I advise you to choose a direction and run with it. Judging by the mention of your parents, I'd guess you're still in school: maybe you can try to get your grades as high as possible. If you don't know what to do with yourself, decide what subject you like best, and talk to your teacher about what sort of things you'd need to do to get a job there. If you don't really like any of your subjects, maybe you can talk to a counselor and see if he/she has any suggestions. Hopefully you can find a good path to take, and once you find a path, follow it!

Good luck!

Answer 5

It sounds like you have a gift to be able to sense and discern things from the spiritual world. I wouldn't want to just try to be "normal" if I were you. It sounds like from how you write and the ideas you have that maybe you're trying to communicate things that come to you that we don't fully understand in this mortal world.

Answer 6

Are we talking cartoons here huh? Some people call cucumbers pickles