Why can’t I get fulfilled?

Question

i have been traveling for the last 7 weeks in my small car around the southern tip of the Sinai.
I suppose I am here to RELAX and REFLECT to my self.
Clear enough to know my Dos and Don’ts!

I so often stayed outdoors in nature and also in few of the travelers’ hotels and camps, I also camped on my own and sometimes with my family too…, cooking, washing, swimming, playing and looking after one another, etc.
…I personally shared a wonderful time with my son and my wife, while they were around, we did much of hiking and cooking in the valleys and mountains along side with both Dahab and between Dahab to Taba.
We collected lots of herbs and made much of different teas and felt so healthy and well being.
we enjoyed 2 full moons and few tens of shooting stars..
we enjoyed tens of hours watching stars in silence... and content

We, enjoyed wonderful solitude and a magnificent scenery, besides all the good kind locals we met, I mean, … wow!
The tea , the bread, the fire smell and the breath of the mornings , ..
We also made hundreds of good pictures of us all :)

Many many of what I used to do always and repeatedly the last 22 years of my life; once in summer and another in winter.
Part of the fact that this time I had to introduce my son to the wild.
Not the first time, yet this was a dramatic time as of all things casted together to go that way, ..
This time I really did WoW , that much of things, …

The question is a bit confusing, yet, and if you know what I mean, ..
I must go back to my life in few days ..
The more I get the picture of me driving back to Cairo, is the same one of some one is been driven to a “pandemonium” .. excuse my language!

would you tell me why should I feel that way?
And why I still can’t get fulfilled after all that wonderful time.
:|

ps
thanks for ignoring my typo and structuring problems!
I supposed I said enough :)

Answer 1

Maybe you have a highter calling that you're ignoring.

Answer 2

Faith is the truth. My friend, I have spent all my young
life hoping to do what you did. See up close the Holy lands. In
this short life, we need to offer good prayer, and I will try to say
something to offer. This is the best. His kingdom, is the true
canvas, the eternal picture of safety and love offered to the
children of all life. Your home must be a place to preserve a
piece for peace. Perhaps read about great philosophy and
collect some news of what part you can contribute. Yes it is
written that when we go to heaven, we will never forget that.
You cannot take on the world's peace, that is your garden of eden. To this love of your world, take a small duty to start with
such as the Peace corps reports. Try to invest in the children.
http://www.peacecorps.com Please have a fun, koolaid,
blessed year of 2007 for all your friends and families with you.

Answer 3

Well..I know what you feel because i ve been there. i lived this life twice, one time in Russian woods and forests and one time in Sinai.
The only difference is that i was younger than i am now, wasn't married, don't have kids. and i think this makes a big difference with your perspective and how you see and evaluate things.
All i can tell you, is that you are right about the Pandemonuim thing..Try to make it a habit every year..you and your family, it will make the bonds between you and your family stronger and It can get very spiritual too..