I am bipolar and would really like to kill myself because I absolutely hate myself. How can I change thoughts

Question

I dont want to go through with it because my family loves me but I truly hate myself and how can I live with myself !? Every single day is a battle just to face people......I have been through everything...meds....therapists....nothing helps.....I dont know what to do

Answer 1

Have you been in therapy long? Sometimes it takes years before you can see the results of your meds/therapy etc,I have a friend that is bipolar and her quality of life is very good but it took her years of trying.Please don't give up, keep trying, have patience things will improve,you are too precious to your family and your family is precious to you.You don't know how many people will be affected by you not being around.

Answer 2

Girl take it easy and just breathe. Life is way too short and your trying to make it shorter. I dont know how it feels to be bipolar but I know what its like to live with someone who has it. Just take one day at a time. My aunt use to always tell me this when times were hard for me, "A journey of 1,000 miles begins with 1 single step." You have so much to live for and so little to gian by harming your self. You can be happy but you have to find some sort of happiness for you. What ever youwant in life it truly is obtainable you just have to be determined and willing to face tough battles but in the end everything will be okay.
My mother killed herself when I was 8 years old, all my life I had to live without her in my life, I am now 24. I have grown but not having a mother has been very hard. I have been through a very rough life and every day it is hard just to get out of bed: but I do. It takes me a while but I get off my a*s and do something that will satisfy whatever it is that I need for that minute or whatever. Just know that you are not alone and people love you. No one wants to be without someone that they love no matter who they are to you. We all have bad days and good days just try to focus on being happy more than having your disorder I know it is hard I have P.T.S.D. and live with it every day but I have to push past that and not let my illness overcome ME!!!

Keep on going and I dont know if you believe in God but whenever it seems you have come to a stone wall just say the serenity prayer..

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Good luck keep your head up high..

****May the wind always be at your back and the sun upon your face.
And may the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars****
-----Quote from Fred Jung

Answer 3

Find a great friend (I'm an option, if you've got nowhere else) and talk with them. Ask them what they like about you and why they're your friend.
Why do you hate yourself? Ask this to yourself and see if you can come up with 10 reasons. I've got anger management problems, and I've got the same problems. I still do want to kill myself sometimes, but I'm still alive right now.
Think of the effect that this would have on those you love (sounds like you already did that, but keep doing it. This is the last resort, because it's better to really believe that you should live than to guilt-trip yourself into living). Also, try a different therapist. My first one was awful, but my second one was great. Lucky me, he died of luchemia. Just my freakin' luck.
Try diferent meds. Some meds work differently than others, and you'll want to try several.
Please don't kill yourself. Talk with me. I'll try and help. [e-mail] Don't do anything stupid. Killing yourself is a perminent solution to a temporary problem. The phase will pass.

Answer 4

I'm going to take this one seriously, and therefore not give a glib, or smart *** answer. Get out of yourself! By that, I mean think of only others, and their problems. Try to help others with the grief they are facing. I know for a fact, that it did much for me to do this. It may seem crazy to get involved with the tragedies of others, but you WILL discover two imperatives. First of all, you will find out that there are many people out there more "screwed up" than you. I promise you that you'll meet many that no amount of money would make you change places with them. Secondly, and most importantly, you will come in contact with people that will rely upon you as a life saver. They actually believe that you have it "together", and will look to you for guidance. Don't be afraid to provide it. You might think yourself useless, but you actually provide a perspective they don't have about their life. You observe their lives from a secondary standpoint. As you get more deeply involved in helping them cope, a feeling of usefulness, and purpose will come to you. You will want to live, because SOMEONE ELSE is counting on you. You are NEEDED! Good luck!

Answer 5

I can identify with this a lot. I'm on meds and in therapy, and yet, there are many days when I so hate myself I want to do away with myself. To be honest, the only reason I haven't is because I'm too much of a wuss to do it. I don't want to hurt my family either, but there are many, many times when I stop worrying about my family and friends and how they may feel, and just want to end it anyway. I had a neighbor here who hanged herself, and to be honest, I talk to her sometimes, assuming she's up there somewhere and can here me, and I ask her how she had the courage to end it. I don't know about you, but there are times when I find myself talking to myself in my mirror, yelling at myself, about being such a loser. Maybe what we both need is just someone who is like us to talk to when we get on the "bottom end" of things. What do you think? Answer me, will you? I don't know the answers, but I think we could hash out things together, maybe. And yes, I'm bipolar too.

Answer 6

You need to let your physician/psychiatrist/therapist know that so far the medications and therapy have not helped. There is help out there for you so don't give up. Keep seeking help until you find the right intervention for you. Life is precious even when it is hard. Things can get better so keep trying. You have great worth both to your family and to yourself. You can win so keep trying!

Answer 7

Did you tell your therapist. Ask to switch med. I had a friend who is bipolar. I got her to stop thinking about suicide for months, because I reminded her people care about her. Try to concentrate on your parents. Keep yourself occupied. If you are thinking about something else, the suicide thought is not there. If you sit at home and twiddle your thumb, the suicidal thoughts will fill the empty space. I know what I said is not easy, and please ignore those who said just don't think about it. They don't know what you are going through.

Answer 8

Have you ever considered Personal Meditation. Using meditation on a daily basis, taught by a perfesional, will definately control depression and bring you too a positive state of mind.

Answer 9

why would you hate yourself. honey your on earth for a reason.
when you get out of bed look in the Miro and say to yourself.
Today I am beauty full and I love myself. Buy a new dress, shoe of your favored co lour and wear it. put on makeup and listen to the type of music you like. it Help me try it.

Answer 10

i go throungh this kind of stuff every day....the best way to love yourself is to discover you....i bet you have lots of talents .....just look deep inside you.....and if you want to talk more about this stuff contact me on my messenger id miruna_lilith_duracell