What's wrong with me :( advice please?

Question

I have been really depressed for over a month ago, in the beginning I thought it was just holiday stress and depression, but even afterwards right now, I am so depressed it has gotten worse since then, I feel worthless, hopeless, get nothing accomplished, am not eating and just wanting to sleep, but sometimes I get a mixture of this weird feeling of wanting to do things, wanting to just wear all black, change my hair to black, make all kind of changes, and do things that aren't good. I even go out and spennd all my money knowing my bills are due, and then I go back to the feeling of hopelessness being depressed so bad that it hurts physically. I have lost interest in all kinfs of things and am performing very poorly with my customers at my job because of it. I have had customers complaining to my boss when I wait on them because they say I am just a very unhappy, seeming undedicated to them and my job. Yesterday I went to work and couldn't even smile cause I feel so bad. I have been d

I feel so depressed at work, I have been drinking yself sick. I am thinking I could be bipolar, my mom was and I also have OCD and anxiety. I can't afford to go to a doctor cause I don't make enough and I have no medication. This is very unhealthy.

Thanks everybody, the only choice I have is a doctor. I am 23 by the way, to the last answer, Lord I am not ready for menapause, but it may be, it isn't unheard of for someone at the age of 23 to go through it. LOL

Thanks everybody, the only choice I have is a doctor. I am 23 by the way, to the last answer, Lord I am not ready for menapause, but it may be, it isn't unheard of for someone at the age of 23 to go through it. LOL

Answer 1

Go the the mental health department in your area. They can help you get the help you need for little or no cost to you, depending on your income. Or, if you aren't in an area where they are easily accessible to you, go to the hospital. They can assist you in getting affordable treatment.

You do need treatment. Don't suffer any more. Get the help you need.............it will make a world of difference for you.

Best wishes to you. I really hope you get feeling better. :)

Answer 2

The good news is you've already taken a step in the right directon whether you realize it or not... You've Identified the problem, or at least the symptoms. Now you need to realize that most depression comes about from a connection betwixed the tri fold nature of the human being. Body Soul and Spirit. If one is disconnected there can be dire consequences. Now the only way to relieve yourself of this problem of erratic depression and acute temporal behavioral disorder is to quicken your spirit and bring balnce to your entirety. To do this you must enter into a personal relationship with the Most High. By recieving the Holy Ghost through a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ you will find healing in all 3 areas of your being and also find that God will provide for all you need. Do you want to get better? Accept Jesus. Don't hesitate. And No. You are not bi polar and ocd is more than meets the eye.

Answer 3

I want to add my voice to those urging you to get medical care as soon as possible.
I am bipolar and have been for years. I went through years of periodic depressions. I went to counseling with my then wife, and mentioned that I had highs and lows. I called my highs my "manic phase." The counselor urged me to go see a psychiatrist and get a "medical evaluation." I did. He tried me on Lithium, and after one week the depressions went away (along with the "manic" highs) and have never returned. That was about 18 years ago. What a great life it's been without those scary depressions, when I didn't feel like facing people.
I can't say for sure that you are bipolar. But, you need to find out if it is that or is something else. There are wonderful medications available that can really help and quickly.
When you're depressed a self-pep-talk can help some, but not completely, and it takes a tremendous exertion of willpower to "buck yourself up.".
So beg or borrow the money or find a cheap clinic, like the health department. They're there; it just takes a little detective work.
I hope this helps and that you get some.

Answer 4

I feel like I know what youre going through. About 2 months ago I too was feeling very depressed, stressed, and very unhappy. I thought it was because I wasnt working at the time. Weeks kept passing by and I felt lonely, even more depressed, actually to the point where I was thinking about suicide. I kept ditching my classes and lied to people saying that I was in class but all I would do is drive around crying to myself. I wasnt eating, I sometimes went the whole day without eating. All I would do is sleep and cry. My boyfriend was getting so worried, he said that I needed to talk to a psychologist. At the time I didnt have insurance so I couldnt afford any medical attention. My boyfriend got a number for a free clinic where you can also talk to a psychologist. Its [phone] ask for an operator if the operator itself doesnt answer and let them know that you need to talk to someone. They'll get someone near your area. I never got to go to my appointment however, after finding another job, I managed to pick myself up and start getting better.

I hope you find a way to also make yourself feel better. Remember to get any kind of help, dont just ignore it. And try to start eating even if its just a little bit. I hope this helps you in anyway. If you need anyone to talk to you can email me at [e-mail].

take care.

Answer 5

Honey, I have no idea how old you are and by it's self it doesn't really matter. I just wonder if you are still living at home or out on your own. PLEASE take some action!!! Whether it means calling you parents and telling them you have a serious problem and need help, or calling a friend and letting them in on your "secret". Your other choice is to call a depression or suicide line. These people that answer the phone are familair with your symptoms and can let you know what to do that won't cost you anything. I tried to commit suicide 14 years ago and trust me, you DON'T WANT TO GET TO THAT PLACE!!!!! Admit you need some help in your life. You are not alone. EVERYONE need help at some time or the other. Please pick up the phone and call someone, OK? I am praying for you! Things are not as bad as you might think. You need someone to help you figure this out.

Answer 6

First off don't drink. The problem with depression is you are unable to feel and if I read you right you are drinking yourself sick on top of that. So you are just adding more depression to the depression you are already in.

"Lord Jesus take me out of this dark place and give my hope back." That is what I would pray if I were in your situation.

Loss of hope is life threatening. You have a chemical and/or spiritual problem of the first order. Even if you can pray you still need to communicate one on one with somebody that is skilled enough to let you talk things through. Please seek some help.

Make a list of all those things you have lost interest in. Did you drop them in any particular order. Does anything on the list still interest you just a little bit? Whatever is going on started for a reason at some point in the past.

You got through the "holidays" and that is rough, so I'm sure you can pull out of this terrible slump with a little help. Hang in there Weather Girl. Somebody cares for you.

Answer 7

I have been where you are. I can't stress this enough... find a way to tell this to a doctor. You need medical attention. This is an illness, not an attitude choice. What you need to do is talk with somebody who can help you find the source of this anxiety and depression, then help you to find ways of overcoming it. You are worth it! Look into you city, town or state. There are usually programs to help the uninsured. It also sounds like your job may be causing you some stress. Maybe try to find another job? You really need some help though.

Answer 8

First of all you are seeking advice from the wrong place, sweety...

Let me encourage you to seek the proper medical advice.

I work in the medical field, was pre-med prior to becoming a R.T. My advice would be DO NOT take any anti-depressants, at all. Most doctors try not to resort to that right away anymore. So, ask for alternatives if anti-depressants are pushed.

Let me encourage you to do a few things...(along with seeing a doctor or counselor)

1) get a journal, write down your thoughts and feelings
2) spend more time outdoors...go for long walks, get as much sunshine as possible.
3) maybe you need a vacation, even if it is for only 2 or 3 days, and even if it is just spending a weekend with a girlfriend watching girly movies
4) make a budget!
5) change your diet...cut back on caffeine and sugar and eat plenty of fruits and veggies...and drink plenty of water
6) exercise, even if it is a brisk walk around the block

If this depression is due to bills...you are not alone. Most folks are in debt at this time of the year. Being diagnosed with depression or Bi-polar won't make the bills go away...work on those right away, as much as you can.

1) call up those that you owe and see if any arrangements can be made to defer payments
2) if you have a car payment, sometimes a payment can be attached to the end of your term so you can skip a payment
3) for utilites...seek public assistance, churches, and other organizations to see of they can help. Your power company can provide you with a list of contacts.

DON'T BORROW MONEY! That will only put you in over your head in a few months down the road. Instead, eliminate things you can live without until you are back on your feet (cable, phone, new clothes, new shoes).

It is much easier to live without those luxuries than it is to deal with the stress of being in debt.

IF you can not live without the cable or phone, call the service provder and notify them you are having financial difficulty and are considering stopping your service. Ask if they can work with you or provide you with a less expensive plan to suit your needs...most places will comply. They would rather keep you as a customer than lose you.

And, if you feel the need to make a change, go for it. I wouldn't suggest going to extremes, maybe get a new do...or get your nails done in a different, perhaps even a "loud" color. Sometimes just rearranging your furniture helps, as this is what most women do. Do some research on Feng Shui (*spelling) and arrange the room accordingly.

Also, take up a hobby. Writing, drawing and painting are good outlets. Go by the local bookstore or library and sit a while, enjoy the peace and quiet...read a magazine while you are there.

And take a daily multi-vitamin. This will do wonders. And at night, take something like "Relacore PM" or "melatonin"...it reduces stress and helps you get a good nights sleep without your brain buzzing with all the problems from the day. It is not neccessarily a weight loss pill.

Lay off the alcohol, you don't want to become dependent on that. Over indulgence will only lead to more serious problems in the future.

One thing that helps me...
Play your favorite upbeat song...as loud as possible, and dance and sing to it. Dancing also helps to reduce stress and it just plain makes you feel good.

About your job...
Maybe a new job might make you feel better...???

Get online and apply for jobs that you would like to have...even if you think you might not have a chance of getting it. Create a resume and just send it to all the places that you want to work. You might surprise yourself. Kelly Services also offers computer training programs and typing lessons for those interested in entry level jobs..expand your horizons~ you may find that it is just your job that has you in a rut!~

Good luck!

Answer 9

First of all dont compair your self to you your mom or your family members. worrying that you might get something because your mom or someone else in your family had it does not help anything it only adds to your depression.

Try to pin point when the depression started and why.
do not allow people, or things get you down. do not take things personal because if you do you could become very depressed.
No matter what happens in your life whether good or bad choose to be happy and have a good atitude about it!

I use to slit my wrist because I was depressed as a way of punishment to myself but I stopped.
I was depressed about everything, my lif, the fact that I never had a bf , to the fact that I suck in math. Everything in my life seemed like it took a turn for the worst. But I chose to believe that God would take care of me. I rolled my cares off on Jesus and stopped worrying about life because there is nothing I can do to change the future or the past.

Live your life to the fullest!

Answer 10

You have tons of options for help? Medicaide through social services. Getting a job with Health insurance. THere is also the Department of Mental health they have a sliding scale. They may even have free samples of medication. I would ask a friend, family member, pastor, minister, sibling anyone for help. You are in Crisis from the Sounds of things. I too have suffered from Depression, anxiety, PTSD, panic disorder extra. I am greatful for a great doctor and medications. I now have my life back. My family was very supportive. There may also be help at religious groups like catholic charities etc for counceling etc. You dont have to be catholic to get counceling there. They usually work on a sliding scale according to your income. Please get help. You deserve it and need it. hugs. Your worth it. You can make it through this I did.