Corruption?

Question

sighs*, ok, I have been in a rut and I can't figure out why. I'm a artist, open-minded, multi-cultural,and impartial. I can't figure why this darkside is coming from. Lately, I have been feeling very sexist towards men but I'm against sexism. I have been feeling disgusted at whites because of my past experiences and history but I don't hate them. I don't understand why I feel like this. I was raised in a perfect home and taught to love everyone from all walks of life. What could be corrupting me? I'm so young and I shouldn't be feeling like this.

Answer 1

Its interesting that you chose to use the word, "corruption", because that would make it seem you're around someone or something you feel has corrupted you.

If you've been around men and/or white people who have done something negative (or worse) you may naturally "lump" them into whatever their category is and start to kind of think "all men" or "all white people" are like that. Whatever someone is doing or has done, though, as you know, is because of some rotten thing they are on the inside and not what their gender or race is.

You say you have been disgusted at white people because of your past experiences, so you probably have a legitimate right to be disgusted at these particular people. Maybe you do need to let yourself be disgusted at them and process whatever it is you experienced with them; and maybe once you process it you'll come around to really feeling (not just knowing in your head) that they did not represent all white people.

You say you're young: Young people do have to think things out in life. There was a PBS special on the brain, and they said how young people's pre-frontal cortex isn't finished until sometimes as late the mid-twenties. This can cause people to misinterpret some things or feel depressed. Maybe you're going through something that is just related to your age.

If you have things in your life adding up to a general frustration and/or unhappiness it can also make you kind of hate everybody (and in your case, maybe the easiest people to feel negative toward are the men and white people).

Sometimes, too, we can know things in our head; but how we feel (particularly after a bad experience) is a whole separate thing. Again, though, your "head" will most likely come around to realizing that not all men and not all white people are like the ones you've run into.

Its possible, too, you're hanging around with or listening to people who are spouting off negativity towards men or white people, and such negativity can rub off sometimes.

Sometimes, too, if we live in our own little area (whatever type of area it happens to be) we are surrounded by a certain type of thinking from a lot of people; and after a while, it can cause us to either believe some of what they say or else start to question ourselves for what we, ourselves, honestly believe.

One thing, though, is that it isn't enough to have been raised to believe something or "love" everyone from all walks of life. People need to come around to believing and feeling those things for themselves. (You mentioned "history". I was wondering if you meant your own personal history or the history of Black people in our country. If you meant the latter, believe me, most white people are equally disgusted and horrified at what went on in the our country's history.)

If you came from "the perfect family" I'm wondering if they are religious people and if they have made you feel that negative feelings are "corrupt". If you've had bad experiences with men or white people, as I said, you have a right to some negative feelings that could seem like a "dark side"; but you'll just have to process them and come around to putting them (and the people involved) in perspective.

Think about whether you're hanging around with negative people who are pointing out all kinds of "horrible" things about men and/or white people. Sort out who you have a right to be disgusted with and who has nothing to do with whatever someone did to you.

I'm sure the phrase, "judged by the content of their character and not by the color of their skin" is very familiar to you. These days I think too often people place too much emphasis on "multi-cultural" and not enough on "content of their character".

I don't know - it seems to me we can only truly love the people who are in our lives, and we can only truly dislike or hate people who are or have been in our lives and who have done something bad to us. We have to reserve judgment on everybody who isn't in our own personal lives because we just don't know them.

Of course, I have no way to know this for sure; but I have a feeling you're going through a phase related to the fact that you're young and have things to work out in your mind and heart. The fact that you don't like the things you're feeling says you're a very decent and reasonable person. Hang in there. Unless you're hanging out with too many negative people (or listening to too much negative stuff from someone/something else in some way); you'll probably work through this and find yourself in some place you are comfortable with. If you're listening to too much negativity consider finding some positive people to at least balance it out some. Too much negativity is bad for anyone.

One final note: I wanted to take the time to try to offer something in terms of guesses or ideas about what could be going on for you because I have a daughter who is also young and would want someone to try to offer her something if she posted such a question. Your question is a sincere one and it deserves a thoughtful answer.

Answer 2

You can't help how you feel. It will pass eventually. There are a lot of white people out there though that are pretty cool- like me!, you just haven't met them yet ;)

As far as the sexist towards men thing goes, I'm sure you'll eventually come around to see the positive things that men help us do. What do you do when there's a spider on the wall? Ask a boy to kill it. What to do when you really don't feel like taking out the garbage? Who do you go to when you want some time away from the girls? Who's there for ya when you need something fixed?

So you get my point... I wouldn't worry about becoming corrupt or anything and I'm 100% positive you'll come around and be back to "normal" in no time!

Answer 3

The stupidity of others can rub off on you making you soop down to there level. Remember your smarter than that. Whites and blacks can be very racist towards each other and it can get you frustrated especially when you are young. If a black person starts talking bad about whites they are just as much as a nazi as the whites are. ingnore it. As for hating men well remember your brother or your father is a good person so not all are bad. If you don't know any good men well your going to have to have some good experiences. I don't think you hate men your just sick of *ss*oles that some are. I'm a white man thats a double negative lol and I'm a good person. Calm down be better than that.

Answer 4

Yeah totally I see where you're coming from. If you're an artist than obviously you're super creative and unique, and this new outlook of yours could either be damaging or useful to your craft. You gotta simplify and just face your problem which, by the way, seems to me like a little bit of depression. Depression seems dark and gloomy and all that junk you described. If it IS you'd definately need to get treatment ASAP.
As to what's corrupting you, I have to wonder what TV shows you watch. What music do you listen to? Are any of them sending a hate-filled message to you against men, or whites? Find the answer in this lifetime because you only get one.

Answer 5

Rather than judging people on what you hear from other people...

Make your judgement on your personal experiences.

People are taught to hate by other people.
Right now... we have millions of people hating muslims and most of them have never been in contact with a muslim.

Terrorists are breed by being taught to hate every white men.

Answer 6

stop listening to rap music

should clear up in about a week or so

Answer 7

you are just a sad little person who should start looking
into lesbianism.