how depressed am I?

Question

I've been depressed for a long time. I cry a lot, I always look upset, always anxious. I can't sleep and i eat too much. I even attempted to commit suicide, luckily i can't becuase I love my family.Because of those, I can't focus on my studies. I tried to ask help from my friends but they dont seem to understand, or maybe they dont want to.

I dont know whats wrong with me, but i know that i just need someone to talk to. But the problem is, no one would want to talk to me. "Who would want to talk about crazy stuff?" Thats probably what they say in their heads. I took some depression tests, and guess what? I got perfect score!

But here's the worse part. It may sound crazy, but I would always tell myself that im satan's son. That i should call him "father" and that I'm destined to come back home to hell. It may sound crazy but that's how I describe myself now.

There are still a lot more but I wish you could help me, what should I do? Please... I really need your help, Thanks..

Answer 1

Go to a medical professional today if possible.

Answer 2

Hopefully, there will be some qualified people who answer your question. But, I want to offer my unqualified input.
First, if you know you are depressed and are looking for help it seems you may be much closer to a solution than you think. I'm not sure that all depressed people are aware of their own emotional status; they just feel sad etc. So the fact that you know why you feel sad, etc. is a big help.

Most peoples friends don't really know how to help their friends with real problems like this. I don't know your age but I assume you are a teen or early twenties by what you did right. If that is the case and you are in school then talk to a school nurse, college health clinic, counselor or something and they will be able to assist you with the help you need.
If you have medical insurance...go to your doctor and tell him/her about your problem. It is a medical issue and they should help you or refer you to someone who can help.
If you have no resources to mainstream medical help there are suicide hotlines and many free resources to call upon. I will put links to some I find on the internet but you can browse for them yourself and I know there is local help for you where ever you are.
Here is a suicide hotline phone number. Use it now or in a crisis they will be a good source of support and help. 1800 suicide (1800-784-2433)

Lastly, the part about feeling that you are satans son. There are some who would say that is impossible because there is no satan. Others would say "maybe you are satan's son". and still others would say we all are satan's sons and daughters. I think this issue is just a question of your ideology and beliefs. Possibly your sadness makes you feel "evil" and you associate evil with satan. The fact that you tell yourself you are satan's son is possibly a symptom of clinical depression. The fact that you seem to think it is a bad thing is probably good for you. Getting professional help to learn why you feel that way is likely your best bet to feeling better about yourself.

I hope this is helpful to you. And most of all I hope some actual qualified people answer your question. If not, use one of the sources in the links to get some help.

Answer 3

I'm so sorry that you are feeling like this. I have been in the same place as well, and you are in a place where all seems lost, life has no meaning anymore (except for maybe your family), and physically you just don't want to move. It wasn't until I sought help through therapy and got onto some medications that I was able to lift myself out of that cloud and start working on how to stay out of it. You have a LONG road ahead of you, but once you seek the help you need, you'll be glad that you did.

Look at it like this: if you have diabetes, would you take a pill to make it better, or just die slowly? That's how depression is: it's a disease, and it needs treatment just like cancer or anything else.

Email me if you have specific questions. I've been there, and still go there from time to time my friend. You said that people don't want to listen, and that's mostly true, becase they can't identify with what you're going through. A therapist or support group can, and that's where you need to look, and again, I'd be more than willing to email with you.

Hang in there. I don't even know you, but I care greatly about you and your stuggle.

Answer 4

I consider myself a writer (at least, I write) and I'm not depressed. But frustration and even sadness is something that comes from writing, because, as someone else said before me, you're not just feeling your own ups and downs, but your characters as well. I'm a very emotional person, I will admit, and I get worked up over stuff that maybe I shouldn't. Does how writing is going for me effect my mood? I think so. Writing is, for people who are passionate about it, a form of release of their innermost self, and when all of a sudden something happens and that release gets up on hold, it gets all bottled up. I guess that's why I call Writer's Block a disease. You're being slowly tormented to death by the ideas that you can't write. Haha, so yeah. Are all writers emotional people? I think so. Are they all depressed? I'm going to have to disagree with that one, although they certainly all can be depressed at different times.

Answer 5

Simple solution. The fact is this world is called Maya(illusion) it is not our real home. It is temporary and full of misery. You are at a turning point if you continue convincing yourself you are satins son you will stay in misery. If you choose to accept you are eternal spirit soul, part and parcel of the Supreme Soul also known as Krishna, Allah, Jehovah, Vishnu, etc. Then you can get out of your miserable condition. The quickest and easiest way to get out of illusion and misery is to chant the Maha mantra The great mantra for deliverance from suffering and illusion. Go to krishnaculture. for complete details Read Bhagavad Gita As it is By Bhaktivedanta Prabhupada also go to steplhen-knapp. for e-books -the Key to Real Happiness. We have a choice to choose Maya (illusion) or Reality One just needs the knowledge then make the choice, no one can do it for us. Write me if you need more help or more questions. Meds are a temporary fix and don't solve the problem and Suiside only increases our misery (one has to become a miserable ghost). So that's not the answer.

Answer 6

Before you read my response, understand that I'm not a psychologist, only a concerned person, and I can't diagnose you with anything.

I think there may be an underlying problem to all of this. Your past inevitably affects your present state. Has anything happened in your past that you think holds enough significance to you that caused you to think this, or to feel depressed? Why do you think you're feeling/thinking this way? I think you should try to think about this and answer these questions to the best you can, and write them down, because writing things down helps almost anything make a lot more sense than if you just let it float around in your head.

As a teacher once told me, "You have more support than you realize." Try to look closely at the people around you. If your family's not there for you, that's okay, look around for a trustworthy friend. Make yourself available to others, and eventually others will make themselves available to you. Are you a student in public school? Maybe you could talk with a teacher? I know I've done that a lot and each teacher I've talked with has helped a ton, in their own ways. They really do help, and most of the time it's just because they care so much, and maybe because they have experience.

In the end, however, you have to make the decision yourself. No one can do it for you because it's for yourself. A few years back, when my teachers used to tell me that they can't decide for me, I always wondered why. I thought it was because they didn't care or something, but now I can see clearly that they did care -- that's why they pushed me to make my own decisions. You can't rely on others to make decisions for you because no one person is going to be in your life forever -- you are the only person you'll have to live with 100% of the time, so make sure you're making the best decisions for YOU.

I hope I've been able to help. There are two quotes I'm thinking of right now, from two special teachers, that I think might help, and they are:

"Anyone can be negative, that's easy. But it takes effort to be positive." -- Mr. P

"If you have a challenge, deal with it, learn from it, grow stronger for it, and move on..." -- Mr. S

I hope you get through this, just remember: God only places challenges on those who he knows will get through them. I wish you all the best, and happy new year! (maybe your new year's resolution could be to reach out to others) ^_^

Answer 7

I would have told you to go to a psychatrist but you started mentioning feeling like Satan's son and this is something that a Christian phsychologist or phsychiatrist would fully comprehend. I don't think you are crazy, but this isn't something that your friends will understand if they aren't trained or if they aren't going through the same thing. You have to seek professional help and because of the Satan stuff, you need to seek Christian counsel.

Answer 8

You need to find someone to talk to about it. That's some serious stuff. Never think that people won't listen. Look on the internet for some depression help groups. Just get help as fast as you can. There's also the suicide hotline: [phone]

Answer 9

Honestly babe I think you should seek professional help. It sounds like you have a lot going on and that you need to restore faith in yourself and who you are. You're not crazy, you're just a little off track right now. You can get right back on you just have to work on it a bit. You're not Satan's son, you're too good for that. If you don't want professional help, then try to list out the things that are making you feel this way. See if you can narrow down some things that cause the reaction of anxiety/insomnia///etc... if you can point them out to yourself, then you're well on your way to fixing them. you're not hopeless, I have faith that you can do it. Good luck :)

Answer 10

You are pretty depressed. Plus it has been a long time. It is too bad that the people you love wont help you when you need it most. You need to go to a theropist, it is their job to help people while listening to their problems. You can find one in the phone book. You can tell the theropist everything it is confidential. I wish you the best.

Answer 11

http://www.removingemotionalpain.com/

This site is good. They have a book called removing emotional pain. It is not very long but it has a lot of ways to deal with problems. It has helped me out tremendously. It gives steps on how emotional pain occurs and how to prevent it in the future.

I hope you look into it its really good and it helps.