I have suffered from ptsd,ocd,bipolar disorder and manic depression?

Question

for 25 years now, Ive been through every drug on the market,lost my job,my house and now I have diabetis.diabetis affects lots of my treatment options( I have also had a heart attack) so I must watch what medicines I take. I have survived 1 suicide attempt my wife came home early and found me hanging from the rafters in th basement , it crushed my wind pipe but didnt break my spinal cord
I was on a ventilater for 3 weaks was the sent to a mental hospital
Ive been trying for my disabilaty for 4 years now does any one out there have any Idea what I should do Am I ever going to have a life or am I always going to suffer?

Answer 1

I'm sorry for your troubles darling...

You need to locate your local non profit organization that can help you with your mental health.

There are many and since you have the Internet at your fingertips. Spend a little less time in here with the chuckle heads and a little more time being proactive in your own health and happiness. Medications are not always the answer. Digging to the root of your hurts and troubles and then learning how to live with them as a result through guided therapy and professional assistance is the best answer but you have got to want to get better.

We share a lot of scenario, a lot of similar hurt and certain disabilities as well. If you want to get well... you will find a way.

I know that this may seem harsh. But I began to heal myself, when I woke up one day and realized that those people that I were born to... were not necessarily what the word family means.
I removed myself from the negative and harmfull people in my life no matter what ties I had to them in blood or obligation. This is, after all YOUR life. Why make room for the very same people who helped put you into this state to begin with?

Chose your battles... always. Sometimes you just need to remove yourself from the source and root of your problems without guilt or fear of social stigma...

Fixing those two seemingly small issues (Fear and guilt.) heals a lot of anxiety and mental disturbance all on it's own... Remove them, and you're half way home!

"Guilt is like a sack of bricks... all you gotta do is set it down."

Al Pacino in: The Devils Advocate.

Answer 2

Over the last five years I had begun to have increasingly withdraw into a downward spiral of depression..

But now with the method I can fully focus my energy and thoughts into a decisive line on how to make my life better constantly. And it works like magic! I'm beginning to attract people to me once again and things have just been looking up since then.

Helping you eliminate depression?

Answer 3

Be thankful. Find something everyday, even if it just one thing, that you can be thankful for. Here's a starter. My brother has suffered from mental problems most of his life. He's now in a 6' by 10" cell in a maximum security prison in isolation behind a steel door 24 hours a day. He had been in mental hospitals before ever going to prison where he was diagnosed with psychosis and bipolar depression. Those places had to strap him to a gurney and shoot him up with Haldol until he couldn't raise his head off his pillow.

I visit him every weekend in prison and he tells me it is like living in hell. He's not talking about prison, he's talking about living with the mental illness in isolation. He tells me that the inmate in the cell next to his hung himself just the other day. My brother talks of hanging himself all the time. He just found out he has liver disease, and good luck with getting the proper treatment in a timely manner in prison.

Have you ever seen the movie "Saw?" I don't know who plays in the movie but it sums up what I am going to say to you. Once you lose your life for real, you find out how very precious it all was.

My answer is not some kind of guilt trip I'm putting on you. But sometimes it takes something horribly shocking to your world to break you free from the cycle of defeatism that goes along with sickness. Psychiatric medication is just guess work on guinea pigs in my opinion. Psychiatric drugs on the market only slow down the "acting out" part of your illness. I wish my brother would have taken them, obviously for his own good. But they do not get at the root of what is causing the unrest in your soul.

You can only take one step at a time. Just start with being thankful for one thing everyday. One day at a time. Be thankful that your mental illness didn't distort your perception in life to such a degree that you got trapped in the criminal justice system because of delusional thinking. There are so many mentally men behind bars that are there only because society doesn't know what to do with them. They need to be in an institutional setting but taxpayers just don't want to spend the money to nurture problematic people in mental hospitals. Most people who suffer with serious mental problems are not going to be able to afford long term mental health treatment, especially if they can't hold a job.

And also, distance yourself completely from those around you who see you as defeated. You are not defeated as long as you have breath. Your life has meaning, it is up to you to find it. Suffering is a state of mind!

Answer 4

im willing to be here for you. to talk to etc.
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p.s i also have type 1 diabetes