How often do you think about death, how do you think you are going t o die, what kind of death ...?

Question

...do you wish for if you have the choice and how old do you wish to die?

I ponder about this since I was kid; I grew up surrounded by death and people dying for different reasons at different ages. Many people think of death as a morbid thing, I grew up thinking it was my best ally, it made me look at the world as a "transit bus" where at some point, each one of us will reach our destiny and get off.
I see people racing their cars on the city streets 100 m/h, skateboarding down the hills into incoming traffic with not hamlet, I saw a guy with sharp pointy scissors trimming his beard while changing lanes on the highway… I call these people the IMMORTALS; I am convinced that they think they are. I’ve known many; I have accompanied them to the cemetery, I’ve seen at the cold morgue and funeral homes and on the streets surrounded by ambulances and fire trucks and curious people like me, and "Death" presenting them to me as an example of my own end.
Is it strange to think that way?

Oh please do not get this wrong! I enjoy life and I am not depressed, I have a lot of friend and I do take risk, this is about what you think. As a matter of fact knowing the presence of death life is easier for me and I don’t take thing too seriously (it is paradox), I am not asking for advice but opinions or point of view about it, and I will choose the best answer to the thoughtful writer., Thank you!

Sorry for misspelling, I write too careless sometimes. Personally I don’t like when people misspell words… my apologies.

Answer 1

1. Not very often.
2. Statistics say heart problems or a car accident
3. Something quick
4. Before I get to the age where I become an embarrassment to myself.

No, you're not strange. Everyone has personality quirks, yours just happens to be on that makes people go "ew."

Answer 2

Unfortunately, there's really no easy way to end your life without feeling extreme pain first. If you attempt, there is a 99% chance you'll just hurt yourself really really bad and you'll just end up in the hospital where the doctors will be upset with you and could refuse to give you any morphing for the extreme pain you're in, to teach you a lesson, just so you won't be tempted to harm yourself again. And then, you'll end up in a mental institution where you'll never get out and will be watched like a hawk, you'll never get any privacy. You'll eventually go mad because of lack of human contact after being in the institution for a while. Trust me, kid, I've had a friend whose tried to attempt and failed and it just made him even more miserable, plus agonizing pain. If you don't want to that to happen, then you should get help, while there is still time to get help. Talk to your parents, school counselor and/or teacher. One of them will get you the help you need to get back on the right track. I know being in this situation sucks. We've all been there and I know you're tired of hearing that we've all been there, but it's true. You're still very young and this cruel world needs you, if only for you to help make this cruel world a better place. The world can't get better on its own. Believe me, there's a lot of people out there that needs your help, too, just like you need others. Volunteer for a charity, any type of charity that is near you. Take care of the ill, do arts and crafts for/with kids, become a role model. You were born to do great things. Being a person whose destiny to do great things doesn't come so easy most of the time, that's why most people doesn't do it. But you, starting with you, you can be the world newest generation of people that will change things around here, even if it's only a little bit. P.S. Some people believe that when people commits suicide, it is said that those people that commits end ups suffering and feeling the exact same pain and sorrow they've been feeling when they were still alive; the only difference is, it's 10 times worst and it is for an eternity, so there's no way to get out of it. Think about it, there is still time to make you feel better. If you end your life now and if what those people believe is true, you'll end up feeling worst then ever and it'll be too late to change it. I hope you feel better.

Answer 3

I mean, it's not that profound, really. Everyone knows they're going to die, so what's the point of thinking when, where and how. It just takes up valuable time away from you that you can't get back. Your thinking is quite morbid and I don't know if you're suffering from some sort of depression, but you may need to talk to someone because it is not normal for you to obsess about death like this.

Good luck.