I dont know why i did it?

Question

i used to be a self harmer... but i havent for 4 months... which is good for me. i threw out my blades so i wouldnt be tempted anymore. i have counselling and am on antidpressants, but i recently went out to find more blades. and for some reason i cant seem to get rid of them again. i feel stupid. i dont know why i feel like this again.
please dont respond sarcastically... i only want people to respond who understand.

Answer 1

Sum thing that you havent properly delt with has had to resurface in some way or another, talk to your counselor about it, dont keep it a secret, Okay??? Luv Ya, Kelle*(A mom whos daughter is a cutter)

Answer 2

You must have some problems that you want to heal. Ask yourself repeatly what problems do you have, and what you can do to make it better.

It is evitably that sometimes in our life, things can not be perfect, therefore, you must find some way to heal your emotional problems throught self-treatment, some people rely on religion, actually there are some phsycological books which teach people to self-healing.

I would recommend you read a book called the "The law of attraction", it is a book which helps people to conduct positive thinking. and it does help me a lot, at least, those things that used to harm me painfully are not so strong, even sometimes it is gone.

I hope it helps you, please read it, and practice those steps the book teaches.

Answer 3

Perhaps the medication isnt working for you, or you need your dosage changed. I would call my doctor asap and ask them to help. Please dont hurt yourself, ask a doctor for help and if you arent satisfied with the treatment, go somewhere else. I have had medications work great, not work at all, and also make me really crazy. They affect everyone differently. I dont know your story, but I do think you should try to find a way to ease the pain that wont hurt you.

Answer 4

Its something like,,when you leave a kid in a room with something he aint suppose to touch,,he does.You are in conflict with yourself.Do you really want to get better? Go to the trash & throw them out NOW.I care.You are better than that & deserve so much more!Do it for me pleaseeee,,I dont want to have to worry about you.Now go do it & go get some sleep & when you wake up,,call your doctor.When you do this,,you will be ahead of the turmoil & that much closer to getting better.I think you have anxiety & I know that lack of sleep can cause that.Its true.

Answer 5

i think u hav to boost ur self confidence...i kno it...i can under stand u....as i hav gone through the same situation..i am now completely alrite...not bcaz of any counselling...but with the help of my best frnd...i told her all about my feeling...she was very considerate and helped me by getiing rid of everything... she knew my abilities and disabilities...same way u can seek help from a frnd ....if u dont hav any frnds then go for an effective counseling i thing that wud do better..cheer up........try to under stand ur abilities....be confident...god has given each and every one many abilities...u tooo will hav many...
hope that every thing will be fyn,
all the best!!!

Answer 6

~I don't know why you did it either. I think you have some idea of why you did it.
Please see your doctor, maybe you need your meds adjusted.~

Answer 7

This is a VERY long answer from a website and my views are included. Self mutilation/self-harming behaviours are of serious concern.

Please read this carefully. Depression may be linked to what you describe, as well, it is also, in terms of your compulsion as described, thought to be linked to obsessive-compulsive behaviours. It would however, be wrong of me to try to diagnose you simply based upon what you have written. I was happy to read that you have a therapist and I urge you to seek counsel from that person.

I urge you to speak to your therapist about the new purchase you have made and to seek assistance beyond what you have done here though this is a start and I hope that you find the info I have included below of some assistance.


One thing you should be clear on and that is that many people working with those whom self harm have great difficulty doing so and find the action revolting. There are however excellent therapists with good success rates for ending the pain and for helping self harming individuals such as yourself to find other ways to feel.

I hope the following info will help you understand yourself more or lead you to seek assistance. Perhaps you will see yourself in some of the information. Good luck:

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Self-harm is the deliberate injuring of oneself in an attempt to cope with strong feelings such as anger, despair or self-hatred.

Someone who self-harms may inflict physical injuries in a variety of ways such as cutting, piercing, burning or biting themselves. This is known as direct self-harm.

Generally speaking, someone who self-harms isn’t trying to commit suicide. A person who is suicidal is desperate to never feel anything again, whereas the person who self-harms is only trying to make themselves feel better. In some cases, a person may self-harm in an attempt to drive away suicidal feelings.

Research is scarce, but it seems that between 1986 and 1991, about five per cent of public hospital injury-related admissions in The US, CANADA and AUSTRALIA were self-inflicted. (However, this estimate includes cases of failed suicide attempts.) Other terms for self-harm include self-injury and self-mutilation.

Reasons for self-harming behaviour

Some of the many reasons why a person might self-harm could include:

Low self-esteem

Poor body image

Self-hatred

Post traumatic stress disorder

The belief that punishment is deserved

Strong feelings of anxiety or depression

Emotional numbness (feeling physical pain is ‘better’ than feeling nothing)

A response to physical, sexual or emotional abuse.

Other forms of self-harm
Indirect self-harm involves inflicting physical injury in a more roundabout way, such as neglecting to manage an illness or failing to seek help for a disorder or alcoholism.

Direct and indirect self-harm is generally different from socially acceptable forms of ‘self-harm’, such as tattooing and body piercing, because the reason for doing it is different. Tattoos and body piercing may be done for spiritual, aesthetic or cultural reasons, whereas self-harm is a destructive coping mechanism for dealing with psychological problems, such as severe anxiety.

Severity of self-harm

Direct self-harm can be categorised by the severity of the injuries, for example:

Moderate self-harm - such as cutting, burning, piercing, biting and hair pulling.

Stereotypic self-harm - such as head banging.

Stereotypic self-harm may be associated with other disabilities..

Major self-harm - such as amputation and castration.
Major self-harm is often associated with some form of psychosis.

Regularity of the self-harming behaviour

Direct and moderate self-harm can also be categorised by the amount of times the behaviour is repeated, for example:

Compulsive - this type of self-harm is thought to be linked to obsessive-compulsive disorder. The person may be overwhelmed by anxiety, and so self-harms to relieve the tension.

Impulsive - the person may occasionally self-harm, but injuring themselves isn’t used on a regular basis as a means of coping. The person may not even consider themselves to be a self-harmer.

The response from the medical profession
Anecdotal evidence from people who self-harm suggests that many workers in the medical and health professions don’t understand and often react in negative ways.

This may include:
Showing horror or revulsion.
‘Talking down’ to the person, ridiculing them or trying to shame them.

Resentment that the person is ‘wasting’ hospital time and resources that could be given to people who are in ‘genuine’ need.

The mistaken belief that the person has a form of Munchausen syndrome (the desire to inflict injuries or induce symptoms to get medical attention).

Deliberately delaying treatment or giving them inadequate treatment, such as little or no pain medication.

Instructing the person on where to cut their wrist (for example) so that their next ‘suicide attempt’ will be successful.

Treatment options

Treatment could include:

Psychological intervention and/or counselling.
Psychiatric treatment.

Learning other forms of effective coping techniques.

Understanding and support from family members, friends and doctors. '

Medical treatment for the physical injuries.

Until the self-harming behaviour is under control, advice on harm minimisation techniques; for example, how to keep piercing and cutting implements sterile.

Until the self-harming behaviour is under control, first aid training and adequate supplies of first aid equipment in the home (such as bandages and antiseptic solution).

Other forms of coping
Self-harming behaviour may be destructive, but it seems to help the person to manage their strong feelings. This is why it is so important to introduce other, more positive coping strategies before attempting to stop. Otherwise, the self-harming will continue, despite the person’s best intentions or their promises to loved ones.

Different coping strategies that could be helpful include:
Regular exercise
Stress management
Counselling
Forms of personal expression, such as writing or painting
Relaxation therapy
Yoga and meditation.

HERE ARE TIPS FOR YOUR LOVED ONES:
How to help during an incident
If you witness a loved one self-harming, try hard to control your emotional response. Yelling, crying or becoming hysterical will only make your loved one more stressed, which can reinforce their self-harming behaviour. Suggestions include:
Try to act in a neutral way.
If necessary, take them to a more private place.
Help them to administer first aid to their injuries.
If their injuries are severe, take them to the nearest hospital emergency department for treatment.
If this is the first time you discovered their self-harming behaviour, ask your doctor for referral to appropriate mental health services