I'm depressed..............?

Question

I'm depressed.......it happens each time at this year. My birthday, then christmas, then loosing my son Elijah.
Then I think abvout loosing my son Shane then. Then if I watch The red nosed rudolph. It brings back ME being rudolph. being picked on hated being lonely.

I was doing fine until yesterday. Then something happened , I someone took something away from me (nothing serious) but it upset me. Then when I went to work today kinda dwelling on what happened last night. The I remebered looking at my work schedule yesterday knowing I had to work Saturday for 9 1/2 hours but not remembering when I would start. So I looked at it this morning to see what time I would start----------It was crossed off------- it was changed I wasn't supposed to work NOW!!!.......So I asked our office manager what happed. She said they had too many people working so the elimated a couple people. So I went to go see the sign up sheet I had originally sogned up on and it was crossed off too. But I was

then only one crossed off. Then I tried to look for my cart and it was missing. I am so depressed. I thought I had it all gone. But I guess when something goes bad everything goes bad for me.

What can I do to make me feel normal again?

When I was married to my x husband all his family would buy me sweaters for christmas. Except was was nice and big and prego. So i figuresd I could wear the sweater next chrimas...........no I was Prego again........then my x would forget my birthay and/or anniversery.

letting allk now that i am fine now i had a very slow day at work yesterday. And I had too much time on my hands so i was able to think about all my problems. Then last night i was on yahoo answers for 4 hours and thought about everything else except what was going on with me. So thanks for everyones help. My birthday is today and my hubby and I are going to go to a Holiday party with a foriegn exchange student from the college from Nepal ( we are his only american friends. ... he won't see his family for 5 years --- talk about depressing ) . Then my hubby explains that yesterday he was asked to be santa. This is all going to be fun!!!!


Thanks all:)

Answer 1

you are NOT alone.......increasingly,we live in a world where people can only maintain a sense of self-esteem by having undue influence or power over others,i.e. at someone else's expense.Sad,huh?Do you know that ALL humans have at least one art form that is unique to us?A creative sense that can give us a feeling of accomplishment and self-worth? Alas there is so much turmoil in society,and so many daily distractions,that in most of us,we'll never have the time or incentive to discover that one {or more} creative leaning.As the great philosopher Murti said"it is not a measure of good health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society".Being sensitive is a virtue, so don't be so hard on yourself,OK?Click your heels 3 times and say"I am worthy!".........My best wishes to you,and seek help,you deserve it.

Answer 2

I know where your're comming from. I lost my grandfather & uncle in July,1998 heartadches.Uncle was 42, grandfather was 85, I think. Then we lost my brother in 1999, due to cancer (brain tumor) he was 29.For a couple years I was upset. Then in July 2006, the neighbor's daughter was in a car accident, she was 20. She was shy and I gradually worked with her for 14 years (untili her death), to overcome her shyness, she did overcome some of it. Being disabled I saw her almost everyday. I tried helping her with here shyness by joking with her (getting her to laugh some) and calling her My Little Buddy. However, the Little Buddy name turned into more than helping with shyness, I meant it.Since her death,I'm not the same.I feel very depressed.What can be more precessious than a loved one or close friend? Why can't there be a cure for depression.

Answer 3

Get help. Call a depression hotline. Those people will not judge and you can just talk to them, not even tell them your real name. They can help you find some avenues to seek help.

You can't "un-depress" your self alone. If you do, you will either commit suicide, turn to drugs or booze, or be miserable the rest of your life.

Help is not a bad thing. It's not like the old days when if you mentionned you talked to a shrink you were written off as a loony. Shrinks and Phsycotherapists today work with people who are severely depressed and mental, and with people who just need a little help to sort out some things (like you).

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Depression Hotline: [phone]

Answer 4

Well, doll, take a hot bath, remember all the good in your life, don't dwell on the past, go to sleep and wake up and remember it's a whole new day. Make the most of this day, don't, do not, dwell on the past. Yes, certain things in your life happen for a reason, (I'm still trying to figure mine out my reason why this thing happened to me) Smile, everything might go bad, but it will wake you up to the good stuff.

Answer 5

You seem awfully confused.

I`m having serious problems following & understanding you.

Take a few deep breaths and gather your thoughts & feelings together.

You need time to heal & grieve over your son Elijah.

We all do after major traumas & tragedies in our lives...

You need to be there for your other son Shane.

That`s the most important thing.

Nothing else matters.

All the best in life & love!

Happy Holidays!

Answer 6

Flax oil. Read a Good Book. Telephone a friend. Wow. I'm really sorry to hear about losing your children like that. That is really rough. My condolences.

Answer 7

it really sounds like you need expert help on this, beyond any words we can offer here.

life can be brutal; there's nothing wrong with needing a hand here and there. if you don't have a clergy person you can trust, call your county mental health department for advice on who to see.

best of luck . ((((((hugs))))))

Answer 8

have some pride. im so sorry your son died. but try finding ways to do things you like. life moves on, you've just gotta find a way to go with it

Answer 9

hang in there sister, tomorrow is another day...make it a better one