ok, I have heard that if you think you are going insane, then you are not. Is that true? I'm afraid to go to my doctor with my concerns for fear that he will get me locked away or something. So opinions on symptoms would be appreciated.
my symptoms:
1. chronic unexplained headaches. (2 doctors have tested me and said that the headaches are my imagination) but they are not. They are sometime immobilizing. I eat ibuprophen like candy.
2. very irritable-little things set me off
3. paranoid and very untrusting.--I find myself hunting for clues that my husband is cheating or conspiring against me. This sometimes consumes hours of my time.
4. my sleep sways from one extreme to the next. Sometimes I suffer from insomnia. While other times, all I can do is sleep.
5. thoughts of suicide. I do not want or desire to be dead. But, thoughts of suicide CONSTANTLY run through my mind. it would be safe to say at least 20 times per day. I have had these thoughts since a very early age. Recently, I have noticed that they are quite often and this is beginning to frighten me.
6. feelings of worthlessnes and hopelessness
7. I'm very reclusive and find it extremely hard to make friends because I feel that most people do not like me or that I can not trust them. I have ended many relationships because of this. I don't have any friends at all. I'm beginning to think that this is unusual not to have even 1 friend. People try to become my friend but I resist until they give up.
8.constant feelings of unhappiness. Even though I am utterly and completely in love with my husband I find reasons to argue and to cling on to everything negative.
9. lately I have been feeling light headed/dizzy and am experiencing nausea
10. I feel lathargic. I don't feel like doing or going anywhere. I don't even want to take pictures and I absolutely love photography.
11. unsure of decisions I make. I am constantly 2nd guessing myself. And wondering if the decisions I make or plan to make or right or wrong.
I was taking paxil but found that I still had suicidal thoughts and I still have a headache. I felt like it was making me not care about important issues. So, I stopped. I took it for about month. and have been off of it for about 3 weeks. I feel so depressed, suspicious of everything, and anxious. The suicidal pictures are worrying me. I used to think that everyone had these thoughts. But, I'm finding that most people do not. That is truly worrying me. I'm afraid to go to my doctor and tell him this. I don't want to end up in a mental institution or something. Do I sound nuts or is there a name for what I am experiencing?
2006-12-13 16:35:39 · 8 answers · asked by stop_staring_please 4 in Health ➔ Women's Health
one more thing. I am past the age of pregnancy and both of us are fixed. so that is not possibility. Just thought I would throw that in there.
2006-12-13 16:40:06 · update #1
All the worrying and fearing you are doing (the fear of being locked
up in an institution is a fear in itself, and is another part of your
problem) prevents you from making good choices, and living a
life that will make you feel safe and happy. Your husband does not seem to be paying any attention to your anxiety and fear, so
maybe he is not even aware of it. Where is the source of love to come from that will enable you to break away from this circle
you are going around in? The source could be the source of ALL
love in the universe. Jesus said the healthy dont need the physician, but sick do. He said that if you save your life (as it is),
you will die (like everybody else), but if you lose your life (the way it is now), you will GAIN it to everlasting life. If you ask him for the
love you need to live, he will tell you, he was only waiting for you
to ask. He always knew you needed him, but YOU didnt know it.
Until now. God bless.
2006-12-13 17:01:15 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
Sounds like you are depressed. Maybe you need to go on something else. There are alot of other things you can try other than Paxil. They can combine your medication with something else like an anxiety medication to help. Also you may want to talk to a therapist to see if you are Bipolar. Some of the worries and concerns you have sound bipolar like. It would be helpful to go see Psychologist/Psychiatrist. They are NOT gonna lock you away but diagnose you properly and put you on the right meds. When I started seeing one actually both I had just about all the things you mentioned. I stopped enjoying all the things I once enjoyed, couldn't make friends, I was suspiscious of people instead, all that you said was me as well.
Remember when you start a treatment for any psychological disorder to give it time. It can take some time to work. You are not nuts, just depressed. You seriously need to seek treatment. I am on Lexapro now and feel great. You need to feel that way too, you deserve to feel that way too. Call a doctor ASAP!
2006-12-13 16:54:38 · answer #2 · answered by egomezz007 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
DOn't be afraid to talk to a doctor about what's going on. Tens of thousands of people suffer from depressive illness and you will not be locked up for it-not even for suicidal thoughts.
You are definitely suffering from a mental illness, and if you are not comfortable speaking to your doctor about it, then find another doctor. Make an appointment with a psychiatrist. See someone who specializes in mental illness, because so many primary care physicians either misdiagnose the disorder or have a "favorite" medication they prescribe to patients with complaints like yours.
Just because Paxil did not work for you doesn't mean that another medication won't make you feel better. It may be trial and error, because every medication is not a "one size fits all" drug. Just don't give up!
2006-12-13 16:59:42 · answer #3 · answered by dragonlady 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I think you should go back to the dr. who gave you paxil. I think that was the wrong medicine.I think you are depressed and possibly you have a bit more mental illness going on than normal (we are all mentally ill). it could also be a chemical imbalance from menopause. Either way, you know, and I know, you need to get to a psychologist. You need medication to level out the chemical problems and then help getting past the depressive thoughts you are going through. Truthfully, I think with the proper doctor you can feel like a million bucks, and in a fairly quick amount of time. Truely, you know something is medically wrong, remind yourself when you feel like dog do do. This is not who I am this is a chemical situation. Get to the doc, go in peace, and take care of yourself.
2006-12-13 16:46:01 · answer #4 · answered by batwanda 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Yours is definitely a psychiatric problem. It looks like depression and more. Go to a psychiatrist and explain to him everything you said here, not just the head ache. There are several dozen Psychiatric medications. If one does not work, he will give you another one, or a third one. Keep going to him and never give up.
2006-12-14 02:38:00 · answer #5 · answered by kenneth h 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Whats the most absolutely thing you have to do now is go to your doctor as soon as possible this things you enumerated are not simple things. Don't be afraid to see your doctor he can help you a lot. You know and i know you need a psychologist, this is for your self and for your family. Go now and take care.
2006-12-13 16:59:21 · answer #6 · answered by aleish 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Major depressive disorder with possible Bi-polar 2....GO TO YOUR DOCTOR before it's too late!!
2006-12-14 11:24:46 · answer #7 · answered by tanyaah38 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Honey, you are going through a depression stage. Please get help immediately. You need to get under some kind treatment so you can feel better. Best wishes for you always. I'll have you in my prayers.
2006-12-13 17:02:56 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋