I don't know which piece of the puzzle I am?

Question

I do it every year, I chose a different major, drop out & try again next semester. I don't know where I'm going and I feel like I don't care, which is worrying me. I want to do it, but I was raised as the second bit brother of Jen Augustin, the one that talked a big talk but couldn't back it up. I never saw my parents a lot after my sis left for college when I was 10, I was always compared to her & the only times my parents talked to me was when they would say how Horrible I was compared to her. I grew up in a good nieghborhood, but the only kids there were 5 years younger than me & I never really connected with anyone. I felt lonly, lost, dispaired and just hated the world. My high school counceller thought I had drepression, but I never checked it out. After I left hom e I felt better about myself, but I still doubt myself. When I'm about to finish my major, I drop out. Basiclly I half *** it. I want to do better & have asteedy future, but I always compare myself to my sis, lil' help

Answer 1

go back to counselling. you are deliberately sabotaging yourself and you need to work out why (yeah, i know, it's because of your sis, but you need to know more about the complexities of it). once you work out why, you can change your patterns of behaviour.

Answer 2

your lost you should know what to finish your what i call a pcs professional college student u dont want to finish and you want to use u sis as a fault shame on you get real reality check and memory dump