should I focus more on doing evil?

Question

every time I try to do something good, it gets all twisted up and comes out wrong and ends up either harming me or someone else. When I undertake actions based on anger or cruelty then somehow everybody ends up smiling and things work out great.
the problem then is that I start to feel good and then I want to undertake good actions again, so unfortunately I end up feeling dissapointed most of the time and causing more harm than good. When I feel neutral I want to do good, so it turns out bad. When I feel bad I try to stay positive and do good, but it comes out all wrong and does harm. When I feel good I want to do good, and it always backfires. Now I'm thinking I should just try to do horrible things all the time and when good things happen I just need to stay focused on trying to create evil things in this world. I suppose that as I twist and rot my heart in order to stay focused on cruelty then I will sicken and die, but it will get me out of this miserable existence all the sooner

Answer 1

Ummmm. I'm actually wondering if your views of "good" and "evil" are backwards.

Answer 2

You should buy a copy (DVD) of "The Secret". It has the answer that you are looking for.

There is no excuse for being evil and it sounds like you are trying to rationalize evil for good and in the process you have mind-****** yourself by accident.

Being a decent and kind and loving person does not require trying. Just be the person you truly want to be. Evil people never expand the thoughts that you have in your question.

And by the way, you can change your miserable existence into a beautiful experience any time you want.

Answer 3

Your problem is one of expectation. Allow me to explain.

You do things that are good, and you are expecting good results. Instead you are observing that people are being harmed and this disheartens you.

You do things that are bad, and you are expecting bad results. Instead you are observing that people seem to be better off. This also disheartens you.

Your frustration, therefore, can only be coming from one source - your expectations are out of line with what you observe. Perhaps I can help by telling you what -I- would expect from such things.

I expect good actions to be of benefit to all of humanity, but often in a way that is imperceptible to me. I also expect good actions to generally be not easy and require a cost. Some good actions may even be harmful to others, in spite of being good. For example, if I give stuff to a charity, I have obviously harmed myself (I have less stuff!) but usually I do not get to see anyone who actually is helped out. Further, it's a pretty sure bet that some merchant who otherwise might have made a profit selling stuff to the people I give stuff to will now also be harmed. That is unfortunately the way it works sometimes. The key is to try and minimize harm as much as possible.

Conversely, I expect bad stuff to usually feel really good, though only for a very short while. In that sense I can see how doing a lot of bad stuff may make many people happy, though usually in a self-destructive way. For example, I'm sure a person who sells drugs makes a lot of addicts happy for a little bit, but again in the long term (when the addicts aren't seen) they die.

So I can see how you might percieve that doing bad stuff SEEMS to make people happy and doing good stuff SEEMS to harm people. But I think that if what you are doing is actually good and actually bad, then benefits and penalties are being accrued out of sight that line up better with what you expect to happen. The problem is that you're not likely to witness such things. You just have to do your best and take it on faith.

Answer 4

Let see, I think I know exactly what you are trying to say, when you try to do well it flips on you and when you lie and do the other way, every body just seems happy. Right? I have something like this happend to me once in a while~but you know what? I still keep trying, because If I don't it gets even worst. So my suggestion to you is keep going in the straight line because if you turn once at least, you just might fall out of place~ Good Luck~

Answer 5

Perhaps what you think to be good is wrong, and what you call evil is actually correct. Your definitions of good and evil may be based off a sensual nature (i.e. what makes you feel good, and what doesn't). That is the wrong way to define good and evil.

Justice is not the will of the stronger, nor is it doing good unto good men and evil unto the wicked. It is not as simple as giving each man his just deserts, for do evil men not deserve evil in return? Justice is good, and once you can figure out what justice is, you will not err if you always work for it. People may not like it, for not all people want justice.

Justice, in my opinion, is acting in your best (i.e. true, long-term) interest. It is also doing God's will, which in turn is in your best interest to do. But your definition may be more complex. Look within yourself to find your definition of justice, or, better yet, look to the great men of the past (Plato, Aristotle, Jesus, in exemplis) and to God and find guidance therein.

Answer 6

What you are describing is characteristic of antisocial behavior. You should probably see a therapist and/or post this question in the psychology forum.

"Antisocial" does not mean "loner" or "hermit" to psychologists. It means someone whose concepts of good and evil behaviour are skewed to the point where the person eventually loses control and performs actions harmful to society (as in evil) with no concept that he/she is doing anything wrong.

Answer 7

Doing good is way better than doing evil, even though doing good things might cause some troubles. Doing evil will only make things worse, and will get you into a lot of trouble, and it's not worth it.

Answer 8

Maybe you should look at things differently. Were your really trying to do good, and good for who? Try to look at the glass 1/2 full instead of empty! Be more optimistic!

Answer 9

Maybe you trying too hard ! Just Chill.
Your description of both good & Evil would prompt me to only say - Abstain or moderate both.. dude..

Answer 10

i would LOVE to hear an actual instance when you tried to do good and it became twisted and backfired. there is of course the old maxim that no good deed goes unpunished, but its referring to more trivial actions and i dont sense trivialness in your description. are you sure you arent paranoid?

Answer 11

I think that instead of trying to do good things, you should just be yourself. If you happen to do good things in the process of being you, then good on you.