Jelous, Depressed, Lonley, & Suicidal, HELP!!!?

Question

Okay when I was a freshman in HS, I was so happy, I was crazy at times and i met alot of people and hanged with alot of people. Now i'm a Sophmore and my cousin is a freshman and she gets alot of attention from everybody and everyone thinks my cousin is cool and stuff, I feel left out because my friends from last year don't seem to care about me alot, so i just been bored and depressed lately and I can't stop thinking about suicide. I HATE my cousin, ever sense we were little kids people would always like her over me for some reason. I wish she died or something......GOSH do I have a problem???

Answer 1

Straight but not narrow is exactly righ..and besides if your cousin was your friend she would realize how this makes you feel and try to include you more. Have you tried talking to her? Don't let this bother you so bad. My fiance' killed himsef almost five years ago and I still think about it everyday wondering what I could do different and your parents will do the same. They wil never get over it and they will always blame themselves. And besides that would be letting her win. Don;t take the easy way out Make some new friends and invite all the cool kids to your house for a party and not her then maybe she'll get the hint.

Answer 2

It does sound like you are jealous of your cousin at the moment. Since I don't know either of you I can only guess from what you have mentioned, but it sounds to me like they might be taking your friendship for granted. You were a good friend so they expect you will be there no matter what. Your cousin may be trying to hang out with your friends and get their attention because you are her older cousin and she looks up to you. In that way, as annoying as it may be, it should also be flattering. While you have felt like she has always been getting more attention, it may be that she feels the same way about you and therefore you two are in this odd competition that stems from other issues. I suggest talking to your cousin and talking to your friends, but not all together, meet with each one and one to tell them your feelings and your worries. It is said that you are never truly friends until after you've had a fight. Well, maybe this is the fight and afterwards you will grow into the friendships that are meant to blossom and you will remember the others as memories. If in the end you feel like your friendships have really shifted and changed... don't worry, sometimes it can be hard to understand and accept, but while they settle into new friendships, you will also have the opportunity to settle into new friendships.

Also, sometimes sophomore year is less exciting of a year than freshman is.. Freshman, you have just started highschool! You are probably in a new school... there may be new students.. you are eager to meet your teachers, other students, the upperclassmen, you might even have a schedule that's very different than you had before.. you are nervous, excited, and learning about a new school environment. When you arrive sophomore year, you know the drill, you know the students you will be in classes with, you know the teachers, you have the schedule down pat... it is a calmer and while it still can be good, I think for many students it is a less exciting year... so that might be part of the issue....

Answer 3

right NO U SHOULD NOT KILL URSELF!!! my guess is at school every one elsi is just as nervous as you, just say hi to them, what ever their skin colour,it doesn't matter f you cant think of any thing to say after hello, its a start,some great friendships come from just saying hello.talk to ur teacher and ask her to move you closer to other kids in your class,that shouldn't be a problem,in what way are the friends you are hanging out with not real friends, give every one a chance,because if you say you are going to only speak or make white friends, people will take offence at that attitude,whether you mean it or not a lunch time stop messing on the ipod, because if you do things like that ppl wil think you just want to be left alone,and do just that are there any school groups you can join? is there a school counsellor who you can have a quiet word with, if you feel suicidal its imperative that you seek help straight away, whether you c all a helpline, or a dr or even go to an emergency room, if the depression continues see a dr

Answer 4

Yes, but I do not think that you are truly suicidal---just jealous as all get out. Is your cousin really worth dying over? Puhleeze!

You need to grow up, and I suspect that the reason you have lost friends is because of this hateful attitude that you have. Do you tell people about his hate that you feel towards your cousin? If so, it has become a poison in you that is spilling out into your relationships with other people. You may not even have to say anything, this hate and resentment is probably written all over your face and in your attitude.

Instead of hating your cousin, work on improving your own self-esteem and sense of worth. This has NOTHING to do with her, but everything to do with you. Get over it.

Answer 5

if i was u i would feel the same way but think about it if u killed yourself the people that cared about u and that u cared about would be sad and also if u died then your cousin would have everyone and still live her happy life and you are only a sophmore... during your senior year thres so much to do prom,sniorfildtrips etc.. and youd get to it first.... and your cousin will have to watch u do it... hahaha

Answer 6

You need to seek professional help. You are finding rage in something that is so little. You need to talk to your cousin, and 'old friends', tell them how you are feeling. Start writing in a journal to help your rage. Your life is too great to be thinking of wasting just because some people dont want to talk to you any more. Your TRUE friends will always be around you, remember that ;)

Answer 7

i think that you are probly dipressed and feel lonley and maybe need a doctors help. the worst thing to do would be to commit suicide, i mean you DO want things to get better? right? and how can they get better if your dead? dying wont help anything..its just the easy way out, and life isnt supposed to be easy. Maybe you should talk to your cousin? but dont do anything stupid. killing HER would only make things worse and you would end up in prison. Thier is so much to live in life! and why just ruin it becasue you dont like your cousin. i know how you feel about your friends not caring about you. my friends do the same thing sometimes and it feels like you dont fit in because they all have their little cluques. You could do something like invite THEM to the mall or over to your house, make a situation so its just you and them. o you guys can talk...well there you go! hope i could help. =) oh yea, and the best thing to do s smile! thats what i do to make myself feel better, or write in a journal to get all of your anger out i do that too, and it helps. this sounds really weird, but, another thing i do is i talk to myself in the mirror like im talking to someone else, like ill pretend im talking to Oprah orsomething! it really does help.

Answer 8

Ignore your cousin. The problem is you think that everyone is supposed to act a certain way toward you and you are supposed to act a certain way towards everyone else. Reward those that treat you with respect with your attention and your friendship. Ignore and avoid those who don't. This is not a competition between you and your cousin. Don't throw away your life making it that way.

Answer 9

Look in your phone book for a suicide hot line. Someone there will listen to your problems and direct you to a source where you can get counseling.

Answer 10

yes and no ar eyou really think about killing yourself or do you just want attention it seems liek to me that you are fine when people talk to you but messed up when they dont try gettin a counslor