I feel really.. different?

Question

I don't know I guess everyone is different, but sometimes I just feel like I can't relate to anyone. My mom has had a severe bipolar disorder all her life, and there have been times when i was a kid that I sort of took care of her while my dad went to work. She's walked outside in her underwear before, she's seen "people" in my closet before, she's accused my dad of sexually harrassing me (which he would NEVER do), she's forgotten who I was before, she's driven on the wrong side of the road at 90 mph when I was young, I was almost adopted in when I was two, she's been to a mental hospital many times, we spend lots of our money on medical bills.. she has a weird obsession with her exdoctor and thinks he wants to have an affair with her ,which caused him to finally drop her as a patient. My dad always likes to pretend like everythings fine.. I'm an only child and I just feel like there's no one to really talk to, I feel like my life revolves around her a lot. I'm constantly worried

Answer 1

Maybe you can find some kind of support group in your area. It would be easier for you to talk to people with the same problems as you. People who can relate.
Good Luck, sweety. hugs!

Answer 2

You need to take care of yourself first and foremost hon. Your mother well, you need to accept her as she is. It's not like she can help it right, so there's no sense in beating yourself up for it.

Pamper yourself, do something for you.... perhaps your mother needs to be committed at a place for 24/7 treatment, have you ever considered that possibility? You don't have to make a decision right away though! Just take your time, shop around places..... see if there's an institution she could benefit the most from.

The internet is a great place for support for people in all types of circumstances.

Answer 3

Try to focus more on your life. Your mom's the way she is and it's probably going to be that way always.

You must find time to do stuff that you like or else you might burn out with the stress of looking after someone else.

Are you in school? Make some friends over there or talk to the counsellor.

Answer 4

i hear you...loud and clear.

you've come some way on that row you are hoeing! you have developed tools from your experiences. as young as you seem to be, your tenacity is to be commended!

it all works out somehow and you'll find in the future somewhere that you'll be so thankful for having your experience because it will be your claim to fame at the craziest time and will put you in awe.

if i were to wish for the power of prayer to show its self to somebody, i would wish it for you.

if you think it would sooth you some .....please look up "desiderata" on the internet and happy landings in your future endeavours.