well im 19 and dropped out of college with a 3.8 gpa, i have no talents,goals,cares,purpose in life. I have some friends I do my best to push people away and not show any feelings or emotions so they dont get involved with me and my personal issues. I convinced myself it would be better if I never existed so I wouldn't be such a huge disappointment not only to my parents and family, but to other people as well which seems to be the only thing im good at in life is failure. I am a really nice person and easy to get along with and some attractive girls have thought i was cute. For some reason I cant gather enough strenght to to kill myself, I know how pathetic i am and it would seem like an easy task but I just cant do it for some reason just being alive brings me happiness and contempt even though i have nothing. Im not one of those emo people infact you would have no idea I was like this because Im a master at hiding who I truly am.(sry about that other Question I posted it was a joke)
2006-12-06 17:17:59 · 22 answers · asked by Shiz M 1 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
Because deep inside you know there is something else out there for you to discover, to feel the magnificence when you climb to the top of the mountain, to love and get love returned.
Because deep inside you also know how much it will hurt emotionally and physically when you try to kill yourself, and that you will regret of doing so but it will be too late. Deep inside, you still care about other people and you just can't do it because of that.
You only live once, you can gather the strength and courage to think about committing suicide next life, but this life, give it a try and focus on other positive things. If you have no goals, travel a bit around the world, you can work while traveling to earn your living, you will find there will be so many other good things to live for, and to breath in the air when you climb to the top of a mountain.
Show some feelings and emotions, believe me, some people want to get pass that ''wall'' you built, give them a chance to, in this life at least.
Wish you well, and think positive :)
2006-12-06 17:26:01 · answer #1 · answered by Sade 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It sounds like you have all the classic symptoms of acute depression. Believe me, I know. I suffered from it for almost a year before my regular doctor talked me into seeing a therapist and going on medication. That did the trick for me. I worked through some stuff, and about 8 months later was able to go off the meds. However, everyone is different; some take more time to recover, and others can take less.
Depression is a PHYSICAL condition, usually caused by an emotional trigger. There is no way you can "snap out of it" or will yourself to feel better as long as some chemicals in your body are wonky.
Please, for your sake, and your family's, make an appointment to see a therapist. You have all of life ahead of you. You are intelligent and compassionate. You can have a great life if you give yourself a chance.
Someone once said that "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I'd hate to see you make that choice.
2006-12-06 17:37:25 · answer #2 · answered by freedomnow1950 5 · 1⤊ 1⤋
Hi....please let up on yourself. You are NOT pathetic or a failure. You do have talents and a purpose...you just haven't found it yet. There isn't a rule that states we all know our path at 20. You are right where you need to be, for reasons unknown to us. This should be a time of self-discovery not self-mutilation. You do not lack strength and the reason you hesitate to take you life is because your soul knows that it isn't your time. Your soul wants to move forward even though your ego (not in a negative definition..but in the broad sense)wants to call it quits.
A good % of the population has been where you are. You are not alone in your feelings. You are an important part of this universe, an important past of this puzzle of life. You have a place you fit and belong and where others belong and fit in with you. Even if tomorrow seems too far away and today seems unbearable, take one minute at a time if you need to and remember that it only takes that very minute for life to change....in a good way.
Walls never did anyone any good. Please try to reach out to those who have been in similar shoes because they will light your lantern with the flame of hope. Good luck. XO
2006-12-06 17:37:41 · answer #3 · answered by ******** 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You want to kill yourself? That is STUPID man! It is greatest stupidity you could ever make. You should do something good for the others, at least if you are still bothered by this thought try to help your society by enlisting in the army, fight the damn Bin Laden. That at least you would do something good for the world. Your life is no meaningless. OK you cannot do much of things good, but at least you can try it to improve it that. Do not be stupid, you do not have why to kill yourself. No-one really have. It ain't gonna be easy in army, but at least you would have an purpose to take your mind off, and you will see as you are not quite so bad after all. You will be the pride of your own by fighting for good, rather loose your life like an stupid, because if you loose it like that you are a reason for shame. Be a Fighter not a Quit-er, only one of that kind is an Looser, and if you continue to think like that you will loose what you have the most precious, your own life. Do you think mankind put so much effort into saving it, improve it or create it even taking your parents as example to give birth to you, just for you to end it in such a shameful way?
2006-12-06 17:46:42 · answer #4 · answered by Mircea 2 · 0⤊ 2⤋
You can't get the "courage" to do it because you are not MEANT to do it. It's not really courage...it's WEAKNESS. You should be saying, "Why am I not weak enough to do it? Why is my spirit too strong?".
I felt the way you do when I was about 14-15...I finally realized I was too strong to do it, and that my spirit wouldn't let me, because I AM needed here. And thank god for that, because I went on to become the mother of an amazing little girl.
People who commit suicide are selfish and self-absorbed. They're also weak. I have a friend who commited suicide when we were 18 and to this day I can't understand why such a beautiful spirit would have HURT his family and friends so badly. So selfish.
I urge you to get some help, please! Talk to someone about this...talk to a doctor or a clergyperson or a councelor, etc.
2006-12-06 17:37:00 · answer #5 · answered by Megan V 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
The reason you don't get the courage to kill yourself is because you love yourself.
Hey! There are millions of people like you in this world. Dropped out of College is not a big fault. Even Bill gates was a drop out from school. Education doesn't matter much in life. You must be educated enough to understand the world, to solve your problems, to live your own way. Scoring marks doesn't count anything.
Its true that you love yourself, now all you have to do is to source your capability. Find out your potentials and skills, every person in this world is blessed with a potential. Its in your hands to find it out.
Believe in yourself, love yourself more and more and start developing your potentials, build a career out of it. If you are good at communicating with people, try to build your career in marketing/call center, etc.
All the best!
2006-12-06 17:34:12 · answer #6 · answered by Sara 2 · 2⤊ 0⤋
I had seriously thought about killing myself up until about last month. All I can say is...dude! Hang in there. This too shall pass.
Who has made you feel so worthless? Your parents ? I know it may be hard to look at, but maybe their judgement of you has developed into your own self-contempt.
Maybe you are angry at them?!?! Do an exercise. When you begin to judge yourself harshly ask 'Whose voice is this?'. I would say it is likely one or both of your parent's ideas/voice. Nothing is every good enough. If nothing is ever good enough, you will never be good enough.
Not acceptable right? How could you feel satisfied. Get pissed off at them instead of yourself! When you feel this way, pretend your bed is your parents and kick there a$s! Sounds silly, but believe me its going to feel good and it is better then beating yourself up. That way you are also letting yourself know clearly consciously and sub-consciously that these thoughts, these judgements are no longer acceptable.
Until you are ready to face your parents and tell them the truth of how they have made you feel. Use the bed exercise described above. Try to open up your range of emotions; anger, hate, joy, love, melancholy, everything... start with anger and hate, I bet just under the surface there is a lot pent up in there.
Good luck bro!
2006-12-06 18:20:06 · answer #7 · answered by David M 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hey I can really relate to your story. Just know that MANY MANY MANY people drop out of college and then go back once they get back on their feet (or even not, that might not be what you were 'destined' for in life) So do not get your hopes down.
There are MANY people who are 'unsure' of their goals in life, what they are here for, etc. I would say ....everybody is that way, if anybody is ever completely 'certain' about something they're either arrogant or lying.
You don't want to kill yourself though, because the underlying will to live is strong. As for being directionless and unmotivated? Welcome to about 98% of the human population!
::hugs:: I can relate a lot to your story lol I got called a 'loser' a lot. Want to be friends? You can e-mail me via my profile if you want somebody to talk to. I know when to listen and when to give advice. ;)
2006-12-06 17:25:37 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
It's not a matter of courage when it comes to killing yourself, the real strength comes from making it through hard times and surviving. I know things may seem bad now, but I know they will get better (and if you truly feel that you are at the bottom now, then you know there is no place to go but up.) Believe me, I have known people who did attempt suicide and without fail, they now are all happy that they didn't succeed because they would have missed so much....marriage, children, their entire lives. Try to get someone to talk to and stay strong...I know things will improve. Best of luck!
2006-12-06 17:29:58 · answer #9 · answered by slknspphr3645 3 · 3⤊ 0⤋
Is your present question is a joke as the other one? All said and done, you do have a psychological problem. You are putting yourself in another's shoes and try to imagine things.Even such imagination brings about negative thinking in you. Be careful. Change yourself to positive thinking. You can indulge in the imagination of coming upto the standards of Bill Gates or someone like him. Again be serious and be careful. If you need any other suggestion please send me a message.
2006-12-06 17:29:53 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋