why do i chase this high i will never get again? will i ever feel that same high off pain killers that i felt the 1st time? i have been doing pills for 4 years since i was 14..vicodins and methadone..i cant stop and fuuck i dont wanna LOL..this past summer i bought 13 vicodins from a friend and went home and took 8 of them...i swear to god im not lying!! but nothing happend i just got sick and layed on the couch for 3 days feeling like i was gunna die...why wouldnt i get high off 8 vicodins? hell i use to get sooo high of only 2...whats going on with me??
2006-12-05 08:01:54 · 13 answers · asked by kyras_mommy121205 1 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
listen in my heart i want help! i dont want to wake up every morning unable to move until i pop my pills...im just so scared to lose this feeling!..if i could stop and some how lose this love for them i would do it!
2006-12-05 08:06:46 · update #1
your body has built up a tolerance for the pills. and you keep chasing that high because of exactly what you said "I can't stop and f*** i don't wanna"
until you are ready to stop and seek help you will always be chasing that high that you will never get!
2006-12-05 08:04:54 · answer #1 · answered by smomus 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wow! You NEED to stop! Not only is that horrible for your body (you may not feel it now, but you will later), but I'm sure there are side effects that you don't even know about (other than the "high")...physically, socially, etc...
My cousin was addicted to Vicodin and she really got messed up from it. She looked horrible and I never felt like it was really HER. It may be 'fun' now for you, but do you really want to do that when you are married? Have kids? Do you think your employer will like it when you lay on the couch for 3 days?? It's pretty irresponsible, and once you are out of high school and into the real world, you WILL have responsibilities. Abusing pills will only make your responsibilities more difficult to complete.
I'm sure nothing can match the effect you feel from the pills, but try to find something else that makes you feel good that is not harmful. Make yourself a goal to slowly wean yourself off of them. Also, you will save a lot of money!
I suggest you talk to someone. It doesn't even have to be your parents, but even a school counselor or psychologist. They will be able to help you.
Good luck!
2006-12-05 08:18:34 · answer #2 · answered by kelikristina 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Why do you want to screw up your life like this. Here is a little known fact about vicodin you should know...very high doses of vicodin can and has caused sudden and profound irreversible deafness. Start learning American sign laguage now buddy because you may need it soon. You're so stupid though that what your friend gave you was probably something else besides vicodin and you took them anyhow. You are just another statistic waiting to happen.
2006-12-05 08:08:34 · answer #3 · answered by PRS 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hi,
You should write.. like peotry.. because you know how to capture the way you feel..
You actually reminded me quite vividly of my own situation a long time ago.. perhaps as long as 20 years ago now..
I was a hip young teen.. I was a dancer then.. and was exposed to the nightclub scene very young.. I guess I ran wild hung with all the wrong crowd.. and for a few years took hard drugs..
I remember the feeling.. you reminded me.. the euphoric high.. I even wrote a peom whilst I was on LSD..
Luckily for me.. it was only ever an experience.. and i stopped and never went ot a nightclub since! never did heroin or those "major" drugs.. but I think I got into far enough to know what it means ot be hooked..
YOU'RE HOOKED!!
In a nutshell.. when I took drugs.. i had a lot of dreams.. and not a lot of hope.. not a lot of opportunity..
Perhaps you are in this situation.. and drugs make you feel like you are a winner on top of it all.. but the moment you are straight again.. WHAM.. reality hits.. and you need more drugs...
To begin with.. I found in the past mild drugs like pot do the trick.. they have nasty effects like all drugs but nowhere near as damaging as powders and pills.. no where near it!
Secondly.. avoiding all drugs is best.. and you need ot break your cycle of self loathing.. lower your own expectations and devise a plan for your life..
Women in your current position have risen to become wealthy and highly respected..
But don't expect results overnight.. trust and believe in life, in people and in the system too.. it does work in a quirky way.. if you strive and try hard and most importantly LEARN.. get skilled, do some study, get a certificate then a diploma.. then do a degree.. my sister is doing one at age 38.. its never too late..
I think if you replace drugs with other things that give you a natural high.. like being widely respected, having great health and fitness.. and earning your own high income and having a great family around you.. all things you can create yourself.. then you will soon realise drugs are only supplementing what you are missing out on..
BTW the fact drugs are having a lower effect is a bad sign.. your body produces a lot of chemicals naturally but if you take drugs regularly which contain those chemicals.. your body will stop its natural production to avoid you overloading.. the problem is.. when you are no longer on drugs.. your body becomes devoid of those chemicals.. and you start feeling giddy and sick.. and in most cases your body will react by wanting more drugs.. this is called ADDICTION
If you decide to quit.. remember it may take a few weeks before your body reproduces certain chemicals that it once naturally produced.. because prolonged drug use will have those parts switched off and dorment in your body..
They kick into action and re-grow.. and start reproducing the needed chemicals.. but it can take weeks.. so you might feel sweaty and giddy for a few weeks if you stop suddenly.. this is normal and you MUST prove you are a strong WOMAN and fight it and be headstrong.. and simply STOP!!
If you absolutely must.. I give you persmission to smoke a joint.. and that's IT!!
Hope you rise to be a very sucessful woman one day.. who is drug free and with a positive message for other people in your current situation..
Ciao bella..
2006-12-05 08:41:27 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
If you're serious, it's called tolerance. Your body is poisoned. You certainly won't ever feel that same high again unless you get off and totally detox, and trust me, that's not going to be easy. And if you do, you may as well stay clean. You evidently aren't the type who can handle drugs.
2006-12-05 08:06:19 · answer #5 · answered by jonjon418 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I am very concerned about you my dear, I would recommend that you consider a changed attitude. Your way of thinking here will put you in danger and will put your daughter at risk. Get some help quick. There must be someone local that you could ask for help. If not, please contact me and I will do what I can to get you to the right people.
2006-12-05 08:06:18 · answer #6 · answered by davidvario 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
the only cure at this point is to see a drug counselor and rehab... I'm serious because you're at a tolerance level and your body won't feel much of a high unless you take fatal doses... so I suggest stopping rather soon and getting some help... fast
2006-12-05 08:11:43 · answer #7 · answered by mysticaura29 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Are you serious? what do u mean whats wrong with you? They are drugs that are prescribed for a medical reason, not for recreational purposes. You are a mommy..what r u thinking?
2006-12-05 08:05:53 · answer #8 · answered by Chynah D 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Whatever is going on with you will not be going on ever again if you do not knock it off.
2006-12-05 08:05:25 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
DON'T TAKE DRUGS!!! BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!! really, drugs r horrible! do u wana die b4 u turn 30? it is also illegal, so STOP!!! really... don't get high... bcuz then u will get cancer or somethin and take years off ur life!!! really!!!
2006-12-05 08:06:42 · answer #10 · answered by ஐDaniஐ 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋