ok i have a serious problem with being a control freak. not like i want to control other people, but i go insane when i can't control my own life. i get very insecure and i really don't like it. i'm going through a lot of emotional drama per say right now and i can't control anything going on. what do i do?
2006-12-04 09:35:24 · 6 answers · asked by Rockstar Jersey 2 in Society & Culture ➔ Other - Society & Culture
lately i've come to find i feel very empty. like everything i do has no meaning. i've come so far in life but i feel like i'm getting nowhere right now. like i'm just spinning my wheels. i've realized i don't really care for the person i am. the front that everyone sees. no one knows the real me. i've always been the down to earth, crazy, rockstar party girl. and i hate every second of it. i don't want to be the life of the party. i don't want to be the one who is always upbeat and happy. it's not me. i'm not always happy. and for a while i fooled even myself into thinking i was happy. (damn i'm good hah) but something will always eventually remind me that i'm a ******* mess and that what i'm doing is not making me happy, but merely dulling the pain for a moment.
2006-12-04 09:39:41 · update #1
the good thing is i don't have a gun to shoot myself. lol. that was a joke. i'm not suicidal. just empty and lonely. i have the same routine everyday...be spontaineous. and i want a routine that people will be like what did you do today the same thing you did yesterday. and i'll just be like yup. i love be adventurous but i want some familiarity in my life for once.
i tend to be a major control freak. not with other people but with my own life. i hate not being in control of what's going to happen. i hate not knowing. it makes me insane and insecure. and i don't deal with it very well. i know you can't control everything but i'm so stuck on that i can, when i see i have no control i loose it. i become an emotional mess and all i want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. ugh.....
2006-12-04 09:40:05 · update #2
i'm at a loss right now. stuck between passion and fear. not sure where life is going to take me at this particular time and if i'll agree with it or be able to deal with it. i hate not being strong. i hate being confused. what's going to happen next?
these last 3 additional details were from the latest blog i posted
2006-12-04 09:40:55 · update #3
let me tell a little about myself to clear some things up. i just turned 20 2 weeks ago. i'm a mortgage broker and an equestrian. i ride 7 days a week and take 4 lessons a week. i'm leaving in feb for germany for a year to a world renouned private barn where i get to train with olympic gold medalists. when i get back i plan on working to be a part of the US olympic team. i have my own car, cell, and 2 credit cards.
as you can see i've accomplished alot for my age but i still feel empty and that i have nothing to show.
2006-12-05 11:05:26 · update #4
Get a piece of paper. Divide it in two.
In the left hand column "Things I can control"
In the right hand column "Things I cannot control"
Don't get the two mixed up.
Lord, give me the courage to change the things I can, the tolerance to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to know the difference
2006-12-04 09:38:52 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋
Song: God Is In Control
Album: (by Twila Paris)
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This is no time for fear
This is a time for faith and determination
Don't lose the vision here
Carried away by emotion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together
God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside Him, we know
God is in control, oh God is in control
History marches on
There is a bottom line drawn across the ages
Culture can make its plan
Oh, but the line never changes
No matter how the deception may fly
There is one thing that has always been true
It will be true forever
He has never let you down
Why start to worry now?
He is still the Lord of all we see
And He is still the loving Father
Watching over you and me
watching over you...watching over me..
watching over every things..
watching over you..watching over me..
every little sparrow..every little things...
2006-12-04 17:51:47 · answer #2 · answered by Buff 6 · 0⤊ 1⤋
I can understand what your saying. Sometimes its like you have no idea and no control of whats going on. I think that maybe you could embrace the moment. I know you like being in control but think about it... you are living in a mysterious world right now.. isnt it kind of thrilling. just try it out.
If it turns out that you trully do need to be in control than take back the control. Be organized.. make goals and plans. Write them on paper. And than just do it!
2006-12-04 18:19:07 · answer #3 · answered by Kismet 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Sounds like you might have obsessive compulsive disorder (ocd) or depression. You should speak to a doctor about your concerns, they can't read your mind.
2006-12-04 17:40:27 · answer #4 · answered by germaine_87313 7 · 1⤊ 1⤋
There are some really good answers to this on ask.com aske your question and it'll give you some answers.
2006-12-04 17:37:40 · answer #5 · answered by I lOVE CATS 1 · 0⤊ 1⤋
find ways to relax. relax a lot til u get use to it. relaxation is the cure for everything.
2006-12-04 17:39:25 · answer #6 · answered by art major student 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋