I just wanna die already, I hate how my life is?

Question

I know I'm complaining again, but I just can't take it, why did my parents have to have me at an old age?, my dad was 41 & my mom was 39 or 40. I'm 18, gonna be 19 in a month, & I haven't had a girlfriend yet, not even a date, not even a one night stand, I'm still a virgin, just kissed. I haven't partied yet like typical teens do & i'm in my first year of college, I've only been to ghetto parties where only wabby mexicans go, & ghetto black people go, or just ghetto people overall, I regret going to those type of parties, I live in a boring city where theres nothing to do, only wabby mexicans live here, man I was better off living somewhere else, c'mon, my parents make good money, they have an eduacation, they have their masters & instead they choose to live in a city where the people are of lower class than them & me, well I live in the non-ghetto part of the city, but that doesn't mean I could avoid the wabby mexicans, they are boring, they are ghetto, & they don't party like others.

also, I was born with Asperger Syndrome, a mild form of Autism, thats a reason why I have trouble with girls & making a lot of friends. It's like I have to let friends come to me, I can't make friends out of other people, I have a hard starting a conversation if I don't know the person, but If I know him or her a lot, than it's easy, well something like that, I made a big mistake by going to a ghetto wabby mexican school in the first place, well I've been going to public school my whole life or private schools that had nothing to do with religion. I went to public middle school, which was also mostly mexican, & lot of my friends were gonna go to the wabby school which I went so thats why I went. I didn't realize how the ghetto was back then but now I do & regret it. Well I went to a private Catholic school for my senior year & it went well, I made better friends who were non-ghetto, but it was hard because the school was far from my house & I could rarely hang out with them.

Answer 1

lol i agree with all of these people... and stop bashin other ethnicities. its not nice. but yeah there are many teens like you.. some guidelines if you cant get a girlfriend. If you want the typical shallow girl :
lose weight if your fat
get acne creme if ur face is pimply
get hip clothes if you got geeky clothes
get off the computer and start mingling with people in college and go to the parties :P there you go

Answer 2

Ok! now that was what WAS. This moment is what is, and Tomorrow isn't here yet. So if your favorite antique teacup fell off the the table and broke into a million pieces, then all of the complaining, and crying, and wishing, would not put it up on the table and back together. So What? It is gone, I must forget it and move on because what was is gone, and there is nothing I can do about the past. if I want things to be different in the future I have to change something. What? Everything. Mostly the way I see things. I do not have to let anything negative go with me beyond the moment I am in. The only way possible for anything negative from my past to get into my future is for me to allow it. Even the most negative of experiences can be turned to positives before going forward.
Look at everything you have experienced up until this moment as educational. You have experienced different cultures, and not classes of people, that is a false reality. You have lived in an area that most people with your financial background would never get to experience. Now if you are ever in a position to make changes for others, you have seen what that group of humans needs.
If you are bored then you are not doing all you can. There are at least one zillion things you could do with your spare time if you desired to do it. Go help feed some homeless people. Try to learn spanish so you can help some displaced hispanic humans get their ducks in a row in a foreign country.
Your parents may have a ton of good money, as you discribe it. What they do with THEIR money is their business. You must be nearly 18 so you should be thinking about getting your own money. I am sure you could get a Christmas job in about any mall
USA. It would keep you busy and you would be around people that might inspire you as to how well you really have it. Remember one mans floor is another mans ceiling. There are equally as many people that have a lot less then you do as those that have more. Do not covet anothers path. Yours is the one for you. The healthy mind will enjoy whatever it is doing as a way of learning more. It is usually when things are going good and you are satisfyed that things will change. Surrender all of your cares and come to the Now moment and just dwell in the present for a while. It is restful and you just might meet the creator of it all, because it is in the NOW that God lives. Peace.

Answer 3

I'm sorry your parents had you so latel in their life but at least you have parents, some kids don't.
Being 19 isn't the end of the world. I was shy growing up and it wasn't till I was 22 when things happened to me (kissing/sex etc). I know people even older then that that still haven't had any of it. You mopping around about it isn't going to help you.
So what if your parents make good money and choose to live somewhere lower class. Maybe they have a reason to live there that you don't grasp. I've lived in very lower class places and middle class places and I wouldn't trade my lower class experince. It was an experince, not the best one at times but I learned a lot. I learned a lot about being greatful for I do have. Something you obviously need to get a grasp on because you really sound like a spoild brat.
If you want to make your life better it starts by accepting your life and seeing the good things not just the bad. Everyone has good and bad in their life in some way or another. That's just life, not everything can be perfect. Even if things were different who's to say you still wouldn't be unhappy. Espcially if you are going to see everything in a negative light. Why not try to look at things in a postive way? Like your parents are older but they may be more likely to stay together and they know a lot more about life that they wont make mistakes younger parents might make. Your not dirt poor because of them and you should be thankful for that. You live in a lower class place but it can help to show you other culture. You see how lower class live and that should make you even more thankful for what your parents can give you. So you haven't kissed or had sex but some people who have it at a young age regreat it. You have a disablitly but there are others who suffer much worse and still get by normally.
So stop whining and start accepting. If you want people to accept you it starts by accepting yourself. Which I'm sure might sound corny but it's the truth, I've been there.

Answer 4

Wow! You come off as incredibly racist and immature. Your parents are not exactly senior citizens to start with. They probably had you later in life because they were working their butts off to ensure they were in a good position to have a child and to provide that child with the better things in life.

You are the one that chose to go to those parties with the so called people that you seem to think are far less superior to yourself.

I notice you made a note of saying that you do not live in the ghetto area of your city. Well, arent you fortunate. It seems good fortune has not done you any favors, you have an odd lookout on life, and not a good one.

When you grow up you can move out of that boring city you live in and away from your old parents and find the place that suits you better. Hopefully you can do this with no assistance from your elderly parents. Since you did not really ask a question and just stated your opinions, I am just stating what my opinion is of you from your posting.

Answer 5

Oh you poor, poor baby! I've never heard such a bunch of whining crap in my life. You're young, your parents love you, and you have your whole life ahead of you. Who cares if you're surrounded by a bunch of wabby ... (wtf is "wabby" anyway?) people right now, you're at the front door of the world! Go on to college, you'll make some new friends there, no doubt some of them female and ready to show you a thing or two about fornication. Graduate, get out there, and create your own life. And stop complaining because your parents are older than average and you don't like the parties you've been to, there will be plenty of parties later on and different people to party with, and when your parents are gone you'll figure out just how much they loved you, and you them. It's all about life & living, so stop thinking about dying. Live. You'll love it!

Answer 6

First off, stop feeling sorry for yourself. Maybe you haven't had a girlfriend because you think everyone in your town is of a lower-class than yourself. Grow up... these things happen in time, if you don't like where you live go to college out of state. Life isn't all about partying so who cares that you haven't partied like other kids.

Answer 7

Sounds like your parents may have spoiled you. People who are spoiled, haven't learned to appreciate things in life or be thankful for what they have. Even if it's a can of beans.
You belittle the other people, but I'll bet they are a lot happier than you are. So if you are so frustrated in where you are, than why don't you take off somewhere, and try to live on your own means. Go support yourself, and I guarantee that if you haven't found fulfillment, you'll then go back to your parents and be thankful for what they have given you. A roof over your head.

Answer 8

1. Get off the ghetto ppl,i bet you had fun at those parties.
2. Y are you posting this stuff on here.No wonder you not having fun or w/e.

Answer 9

Well, you don't really think you need to do anything. You're free! Do whatever you want! I'd go to jail and spend a few years there, if you really don't believe in God. I hadn't read your paragraph, but that's because I already have something to say. You mine as well work on your next life, whether you believe in God or not. In your next life you might be black, white, I don't know. But build up some good karma, do something wild for yourself and good deeds for someone else, will 'ya? You could die that way, that would not be considered suicide.

Answer 10

Iagree with you there is NOTHING worse than old parents. Like mine were married at 45 for him and 44 for her. so they were already burnt out and tired and out of touch with reality.

Lucky are those kids whose parents are young and healthy and virile and fresh outlook and aware.

I had the same socially backwards orientation from my aged old burnt out parents who were past their menopause -