give up and give in.?

Question

damnit.

I was thinking today on alot of stuff. On what I want in life and what I might become. I thougth about my future and what my life will mean in the next 20 or so years. What will I do, what wont I do. so here it is.
I dont know if I wanna have kids, I dont know if its worthwhile.
I dont know if I want to get married.
I dont know what Im studying in this college, but I do know Im having a damn good time in and out of school.
I dont know ,
and It makes me angry.

I know im a product of my conditions. I know I am who I am today because of how I was raised and the values, thoughts, beliefs instilled in me. So i cant escape that. At least, no one will help me.
And thats okay, because im the one not really reaching out
no really, its okay
really.....

Maybe if I cave in to the influences, I can find a way to make it work. Make things worthwhile for myself. As an ordinary person,
make it happen. Hell, If I marry someone famous, I can still be rich and if I get pregnant, Im pretty set
And the security, the money, my needs may be met. Not my wants but who cares again? I dont know,

I just dont know.

ANSWER ANY WAY YOU WANT

Answer 1

Strive to meet the values you FEEL deep down inside are important to you. Maybe all people's values are only what they were programmed with at a young age. But, we are designed that way, and what good can come of worrying about it?

If you are to get married, you will eventually meet the right man. It will happen when it happens, and you should relax and wait for him to come around. It will happen naturally and without confusion if you find the right one. Freaking out and trying to push a marriage or shove anyone away isn't good. If you do wind up in a good marriage, I'm sure that once you are at that stage, it will be obvious to you and your husband whether you want to raise children.

Your college degree is not the most important or defining thing of your life. Get a degree because many jobs want to hire people who have ANY college degree; it increases your options overall. There are many interesting jobs out there, and it's nice not to be tied down by your specialized degree in one tiny little field.

Life is an insecure, uncertain thing. You could marry a wonderful rich man and think you are set for life, but then there's a war or an accident or a natural disaster or a serial killer and everything is senselessly ripped away. The secret to lifelong security is the ability to be happy in any situation, no matter how "bad" it gets.

Answer 2

I don't know how old you are now, but 20 years is a long ways from now. Why don't you get an education first. Hopefully by graduation you'll know what you want to be career wise. The most important thing a person could do is dedicate their lives to doing God's will. All of us have a hunger for spirituality; that's why there are so many faiths. If you want to get married and have kids, there is nothing wrong with that either, because God is the original creator of marriage. Just make sure that before you take that serious step, that you learn to love yourself first.

Answer 3

well, why not wait until you meet the man of you dreams that you just can't live without before you decide whether or not you want to have children?

you aren't totally a product of your environment-- you choose to follow what is learned. from here on out, you make the choices & therefore, you are responsible for your life.

so, what i suggest, keep doing the college thing & you will probably change your mind at least 3+ times... but as long as you have a degree in the end, that is all that matters.

Answer 4

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what? you said i could answer anyway i wanted.