Why is it so hard to kill yourself?

Question

I mean.. I want to get potassium cyanide but no i can get any without a licence. where is the democracy? where is the freedom? Why cant i eat potassium cyanide? because i can't get any... I mean i am, scared of death.. So, i want an easier way out... Do i have to go on a mass murder rampage or rape 50 people, so they would give the death penilty? I mean i am going to die anyway, eventually of old age... I don't feel like casuing a disturbence and wating my time playing this stupid game called "Life"... so give me viable and easier ways to kill myself. With as little pain as possible.

*yes thankyou...i know i am coward... i am stupid, i only have a 3.6 gpa, so i am going to go to some fu***** up collage like ECU .. i am ugly.... i am fat... 200 pounds .... I play video games 2o-4-7 so that i dont have to deal with all this stupid ****. Words do not mean anything, if you dont belive in them.

I never seen a psychiatrist but I have read numerous books on psychology and sociology.

I dont ever wish to see a psychiatrist because there are many implications. for example- your job opportunities in ceratin professions will be limited~~ i am thinking of becoming a Professor of Finanace... I am 18

I never understood how a psychiatrist would help you. They can only find the problem but you eould have to change to fix it.

Attention:
Yes, i am an attention seeker. I have no friends- i dont get along. I don't have any relatives. And i met my parents when i was 9 because they left me in another contry with my grandparents, When i ment them for the first time in my life they were apathetic and now they are the same.. the are very preoccupied with their florishing careers.

Answer 1

First, let me say this. Ignore those who "know" you are trying to get attention or that if you really wanted to do it bad enough you would or any other people who don't suffer the horrible life of depression who think they are helping you...that said...I just got home from a hospital stay (where I have been many times) from being suicidal). before I was admitted, I was looking up how to buy cyanide, rat poison, and any other poison I could think of..please don't get any ideas from that. I have tried overdosing, cutting throat, wrist, arteries, breathing poisons (I now have permanent lung damage), injecting air bubbles to cause embolisms...I have done most all of it...I can tell you..it's all painful..I will be the first one to tell you that life sucks completely and totally. The thought of living another year sucks..another day sucks..another hour sucks...but .hey...what are you going to do....If I could I would go to bed and sleep FOREVER but unfortunately the person who built this apt built the dang bathroom too far from the bedroom and the kitchen...come on...where is the artichect..I want to complain..SMILE***I won't tell you that tomorrow will be better because I don't know that but I can tell you that you are not alone and I hope you know that...Therapy helps but it's an instant cure..don't expect to go to therapy 1 or 2 weeks and be cured... it's not that simple and for someone to tell you it is would be wrong. good luck

Answer 2

Anyone that yelling they want to die or anything like that is looking for attention. If you really wanted to kill yourself you would have done so already. Cyanide is not the only way, but you want to believe it would be the easier way out, chances are it would not be. A lot of people while attempting suicide usually end up with a prolonged death. I had a cousin who drank a chemical pesticide in attempt to kill himself, he failed to get an instant death and suffered for days in the hospital before finally dying. He unfortunately got to feel the suffering that a failed attempt brings the person who tries. You say you want a painless death, remember there is a good chance it will never be painless and you will suffer. That is the cold hard facts. Even if you decide to use a gun, you could miss and end up in the same situation. Do you really want this?
Go and help the needy, see what suffering people who want to live go though, then compare how good your life really is... and then ask why do you want to kill yourself.

Answer 3

I know it seems hard, and I know sucks. I’ve been there. You’re 18 now, you have more control over your life than ever before. You have no idea how well a change of scenery can change your perspective on life. Do what you most, but fearing a horrible death doesn’t make death any less scary by trying to speed it up. We all go in our due time, you might as well enjoy it while you have it.

Answer 4

F you I have to work 40 hours a week, my back hurts, and i shovel rock all day. I know I need a chiropractor visit but I can"t afford it, come back when you have real problems. Quit complaining, get some exercise, leave the house once in a while, and maybe you'll meet someone half as pathetic as you to hang out with. p.s. don't take over the counter sleeping pills in the bath, you may drown painlessly, or maybe we'd be better off without you.

Answer 5

if you decide you want to kill yourself that is your choice- I suggest you make sure this is the right choice. you have family and friends to think of- as well as aquantices like teachers, co-workers, ect. there is also hope for the future. life is always changing- for better and then for worse.

you can't 'eat' potassium cloride. it will only kill you if an iv bag (about a liter) is intreveinously injected.
I suggest you think about your descision more- you don't seem prepared for this choice in my opinion. you have anger- anger can be a drive to live. perhaps you should try to use it for that reason.
I know many ways to kill oneself and I am pro-choice suicide, but I don't feel comfortalbe telling you any.

Answer 6

It is very difficult to kill yourself becaiuse of your own innate will to live. Very few are successful attempts at suicide occur because there is always a last minute way out.

It is just part of the human condition to want to live. That is why many patients in comas survive for many years.

Potassium cyanide will give you a nasty death any way.

Think about staying with us a little longer.

Answer 7

You are depressed! You need to see a psychologist NOW! I can see why you think life sucks, but there is a lot you can do to improve it...you just need to work on your self image and motivation to get better.

Killing yourself basically takes away ANY future options for you! Why not at least try therapy? And think of the grief and pain you'll leave behind with those who love you. I had a friend in high school who killed himself and the family never got over it. People say it's the hardest kind of grief to deal with. Why do that to those you love?

GET HELP! And, btw, probably everyone here has had feelings like yours at one point or another...however briefly.

Answer 8

If you wanted to kill yourself, you would have already done it. What you're doing on here is reaching out for help. So, you should get help. You stated that you would eventually die of old age anyway. You should give that a try. It's amazing how short a whole lifetime is anyway. Everyone has there breaking point. what that point is, is something different for everyone. But you haven't reached yours, or you wouldn't be here. Get some help. Life can be a bit*h. You just need to learn to put things in the proper perceptive.

Answer 9

Go to some 3rd world country as a volunteer aid worker for 6 months. That will completely turn your life around and bring your weight back to normal as well.

Answer 10

its hard to kill yourself because you dont know whats going to happen afterwards. i suggest you dont kill yourself and rather enjoy it with better and loving people. and if you are afraid to die, why do it. you shouldnt think of it as getting over your fear because it is an act of foolishness in some and most cases. do you know why you want to kill yourself. do you know how it is going to effect the people around you. by doing this you're generally killing the people around you by emotions. they die with sadness and grief. dont do it. its not worth it.

if this is your way of leaving behind the pains and disturbances of life..its not going to work. because after your suicide. i'd say about twice of the nuisances you leave behind in life will come to taunt you. otherwise thats all i have to say. and do not think that no one loves you. because you got me and Jesus.


(note: i dont know if one of these reasons are the cause of this halfmade decision. or even if they are alike for your reasons to suicide. but i know it should have helped. those "bumps" in life, some hard to cross over, are there to keep you strong with the world that you live in.)