I don't know what to do...Can you help?

Question

Well i will make it as short as possible
1) i have sufferd from social phobia and derpression for a long time and now sucidal thoughts.
2) i seem to not be getting any better seen many thearpist
3) i am now seeing quite a good thearpist started about a month ago ( and on medication )but i am afriad to tell her things, feared of being judged
4) i feel like i need to go in to hospital, or a retreat, but dont know how to go about it, and worried about telling thearpist that i think i should.
5) but worried about hospital as have had a bad experinces before in hospital and i have responsbiltys at home as i am a carrer.
but i really want to get better.
what would you do ?
can anyone give me some advice etc?

Answer 1

I dont blame you for not wanting to be judged by your therapist. But that is not why she/he is ther they want to try to help you. Tell your therapist how you feel and think of her as your friend. Build some sort of trust with your therapist treat them like they are your friends. Just relax and take it a step at the time . In the end though you need to tell your therapist what you think about going to a hospital or retreat.

Answer 2

You can't care for others and ignore your own needs. If you need to go to the hospital, then do it. If you have children at home and no one to care for them Social Services can place them in a temporary foster home. Not the best situation, but much better than a child comming home to find out you tried to kill yourself.

If you have insurance, you can probably go to a private psychiatric hospital for the same cost as going to a county hospital. You will probably be treated better there.

Your therapist is no good to you if you don't trust her. You have to be able to tell your therapist everything so she can help you. Your therapist can help you arrainge for someone to take care of your responsibilities at home while you are in the hospital.

Depression sucks, but maybe you have bipolar disorder. It is often misdiagnosed as depression. Talk to your psychiatrist about that. Try keeping a mood diary - most of the psych med manufacturers have a downloadable program that can help you to track your moods.

http://moodtracker.com/
http://www.apollolight.com/mood.html

Answer 3

I would recommend that you talk to you therapist about you feelings about being judged. That you talk about you fears of going in the hospital. It may be that you can better your relationship with your therapist, maybe change medications or something and possible avoid going into the hospital or go in for only a short time. Wish you well, Good Luck.

Answer 4

I have known lots of people who suffer from these things, and you know what? It gets better, however much it might feel like it wont and your pain will last forever, it really doesn't. Keep going through the days and it will get better i promise you, in 10 years time you may be able to look back on this as just a dark period of your life. You should not be afraid of being judged by your therapist, you need to let out your feelings somewhere and with her/him is the best place. If you need anymore help then your welcome to email me.

It gets better, i promise.

xoxo

Answer 5

I promise you your therapist will not judge they are professionally trained and thats not the kind of thing they would do its their job to understand and be there.

Try focusing on one positive thing in your life a pet or a band you want to see their next album anything to give you a ancor a reason to want to live trust me everyone has one.

Medicine is not what you need you need time to gather your thoughts ask about the retreat and see about the therapist getting a nurse in to help with the caring duties whilest you are away.

It will be okay.

Answer 6

O.K. u have my attention.
u need to keep asking questions.
u need to discuss ur feelings with someone 1 on 1
my ex fiancee has a history of self abuse and suicide attempts.
i have been there and know enough.
u must trust ur therapist more. at the moment only she can bring about the change u need.
u may be on the wrong medication.
i am not sure this is the right medium to go thru to ask but i am pleased that u have. we don't want to lose u.
can u talk to ur therapist now? try to talk to her at the earliest opportunity.
otherwise look thru the answers here and i hope and pray that someone will be able to help u real soon.
I have seen enough suicidal girls/women for one lifetime really and i am sad that u feel as u do.
Try to remember that there is always someone who loves u and is prepared to help u.
sometimes u have to wait just a little.
where are u and who do u care for?

Answer 7

your therapist is there to help you not judge you, if you tell them everything it gives them more ability to help you and keeping things bottled up is definately not the way to go. remember whatever you tell them is confidential, and whatever you tell them will probably not be shocked (they probably studied freud now he was weird!).

if you are a carer there are nursing homes ect.. that can offer respite care for a few weeks at a time, that should help to lighten the load and give you some time and space to get a break, i'm sure the person you are caring for will understand, it's better you get this problem sorted out rather than carry on as you are.

good luck with everything and you can e-mail me if you want someone to talk to.

Answer 8

I have seen a counsellor. I was able to open up to him because I felt all I said was in confidence and I wouldn't be judged. I was able to tell him things that I buried deep inside myself which made me suicidally depressed.Guilts about things I had done which had hurt people,guilts just about my own thoughts-some sexual. Also resentments against people and fears too. As I gradually emptied out to him it felt as if a terrific weight had been lifted from my shoulders and my depression lifted. This was done over several weeks.
So I know it is hard to open up to someone but it pays dividends. Try a prayer to your creator before you make your decision.You can do it. God bless you.

Answer 9

DO NOT DISREGARD THIS POST!!!! UNDERSTAND THAT MEDICATIONS AND THERAPY CAN BE USEFUL, BUT THEY ARE A SHORT TERM ANSWER TO A LONG TERM PROBLEM. DO YOU REALLY WANT TO TAKE MEDS AND SEE A THERAPIST FOR YOUR WHOLE LIFE. PROBABLY NOT. SO A CHANGE IN SELF MUST BEGIN FROM WITHIN, AND YOU CANNOT CHANGE THE WAY YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF UNTIL YOU CAN EITHER, ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE AND DO THE THINGS THAT BRING PLEASURE TO YOU AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE, OR MAKE THE CHANGES IN YOUR LIFE THAT WILL END THE HABITS AND/OR ACTIONS THAT BRING ABOUT NEGATIVE FEELINGS WITHIN. REMEMBER, LIKE ATTRACTS LIKE, AND IF YOU ARE CONSTANTLY DWELLING ON NEGATIVITY YOU ARE FURTHER ATTRACTING NEGATIVE SITUATIONS UPON YOURSELF. THIS IS HOW THE UNIVERSE WORKS. IF YOU THINK POSITIVELY ABOUT YOURSELF AND YOUR WORLD, THEN POSTIVE PEOPLE AND SITUATIONS WILL COME TO YOU NATURALLY. TRY IT FOR A MONTH AND WATCH YOUR LIFE CHANGE. YOU WILL BE AMAZED.

IN ADDITION YOU NEED TO GET MORE EXERCISE, EAT HEALTHY AND GET PLENTY OF REST. YOU WILL BE SHOCKED AT THE DIFFERENCES THESE SIMPLE ACTIVITIES CAN CREATE IN YOUR OVERALL WELL-BEING. IT MAY SOUND TOO SIMPLE, BUT IT IS THE TRUTH. EXCERCISING BOTH RELIEVES STRESS AND RELEASES ENDORPHINS THAT CREATE A EUPHORIC SENSE OF HAPPINESS. FOR YEARS SCIENTISTS HAVE ATTRIBUTED EATING A NUTRITIOUS DIET WITH A DIRECT LINK TO A PERSONS OVERALL ABILITY TO FEEL GOOD. AND WITHOUT ENOUGH SLEEP A PERSON TENDS TO FEEL LETHARGIC AND DRAINED THROUGHOUT THE DAY, LEADING TO FEELINGS OF GENERAL TIREDNESS WITH LIFE AND THE PROBLEMS ONE IS CHALLENGED WITH ON A DAILY BASIS. ALSO YOU MUST LEARN TO APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS IN LIFE THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY, AND BE GENUINELY GRATEFUL FOR THESE THINGS.

Answer 10

Well your therapist would understand what you have to say they have to train for it, don't be scared to tell them what you have to say. It doesn't necessarily mean you have to only tell therapist you can tell anyone it always feel better to get things off of your chest you can tell anyone that you feel like talking to. Your probably scared to tell your therapist, because you have to see that person in person and maybe scared what they will think of you.

Well this is the internet no one knows who you are you could write a online blog if you want. No one knows it is you unless you post your name or anyone elses name so maybe use code words for those people. Trust me it works I've tryed it and I really feel like its a whloe new me.