about two men in my life?

Question

my name is caris 28 years old and an english teacher who works in a korean company in my country philippines. for 8 years i had a loving boyfriend he's not so rich and handsome but he loves me truly. but i don't understand why i didn't feel that love for 8 years i just stayed with him for the reason that i need him to survive in life. after then i met one man whom i fell inlove with i broke up with my 8 years boyfriend and choose him. we were happy and i love him, he loves me too coz he choose to stay in my country and work here to be with me each day. he became my manager in a company that i worked for about 4 years. our relationship is not illegal so we choose to keep it from other people except close friends who also works there i let them know. after each day, i always hear so many rumors about him and the other people outside and inside the company. and it began to have so many more problems after that.though there's no proof i had a mistake that i believe those people instead of him because of that i didn't notice that i forgot to care about him i took him for granted by telling those people about his background which is just a make up story. when he got to know about that he feels betrayed from me. then he decided to stop our relationship. i can't accept that so i tried so hard to explain and do him good things each day in the company. but he regect it all. but i didn't give up so i still serve and run over him everday to win him back. but, there's was a time that i decided to sacrifice that job to start my relatioship with him again in legal without those people aroud us who tried to destroy us. i resigned from that company knowing that he will be there for me after. but that thing didn't happen. until now im still trying to win him back but he became so tough and so strong his heart became like a stone so hard/no feelings. i asked God for so many times please give me signs if i should continue this feeling or not anymore coz my heart keeps beating and its only him who i want to be with. last night i saw my 8 years boyfriend suddenly i saw him with a new one whom he wants to marry at that time? i felt so weak i ask God did i made a big mistake of choosing him with my 8 years boyfriend? did i choose a wrong man? before that I ask God if this new man is really for me and you want him for me? please let him stay and work here with me. that's the sign i asked and it did happen but what is this? what's happening now? im infront of my 8 years bf which i knew that i didn't love at all but why am i hurting? and seems like regretting what i did? now that i saw my 8 years bf happy with someone unlike me alone and despair.i tried to talk to my 8 years boyfreind and ask him if he still love me? he said maybe that love will stay there and cannot change anymore but, we have our own life now. For God Sake! suddenly I told my x bf i love you choose to marry me than that girl. and he said what? but i still said, were destiny not that girl. he said give me two weeks to think about that if i still love you after that? i got confused and ask God again what is this? he's already happy with someone why i did that? God please if you're real give a sign again that before that two weeks fix my relationship with my second bf which i really love but if i wouldnt it means i will try to love my 8 years bf again. please ms hallie help me to answer all my questions i fel so heavy, confused and starting to hate life please help me...thanks~

Answer 1

I am so sorry for you. You really have time for all these?

Answer 2

you are 28 stop acting like a school girl, act like a growing woman, meaning GROW UP
you did not make a mistake you had an affair with a guy at work that did not work out, you were in a relationship that was going no where the guy that you were with for 8 years also know that it was not working out because he never asked you to married him
so let them both go
and this time take your time get to know you
and let God do his work
you ask him for help but you listen to the Devil
if the Guy at your work is for you he will come back on his own
so take it one day at the time
Good luck

Answer 3

look hun if you asked god for a sign you need to sit still and let him work it out for you. get yourself together and stop running after those guys let god work this out for you. you can't rush god you need to be of good courage and wait patiently on god. you need to become busy when your busy and not worrying about a man one will come to you when god thinks that you are ready. give the other guy time to heal he may come back to you if it's meant to be. let him call you leave him alone. if it's meant to be you will no it just right now leave he alone he knows how you feel good luck

Answer 4

thats a story NS WOULD OF KEPT YOU BUSY IN THE LAST 8 YEARS PLUS MORE,oops caps on,anyway i believe the best thing for you to do is start looking for another job you have the credentials dont let any one know about it just start looking and when you get another job then leave where you are and i think you need to leave your current realtionship and move on with a totally new person you need to find true love in your life and it will come your way start fresh if you dont your life will continue to leave you in dismay

Answer 5

You're very confused. Hope you get your problem worked out. Be alone for a while and figure things out?

Answer 6

wish you good luck! i think god will help you but how he will help you i am also not sure..but they say that whatever happens in our life it is for our good to wake us up from all these kind of illusions and realities.

Answer 7

If you are an English teacher I am quite disappointed.

Answer 8

Man!.. this is too much to read....you need to ask Dr. Phil for this...