Drink Problem?

Question

I am Eighteen and am haunted by past demons......I can easily and do drink half a bottle of Whisky a night.....I am at College and it is affecting my life....I have loved Drink since I was Fifteen and come froma well educated and in no way impoverished background

My Mother used to be violent towards me but never to an extent of which you hear about i.e scars, burns etc. However I never felt truly loved and used to urinate on my bedroom floor because I was scared of going to the toilet as she always thought I should be asleep.
I realise I am jeapordising my future but I cant help it. I have so many secrets. I am into Porn and at the age of Seventeen I got myself into debt which I clawed my way back out. I am also Gay and not out the closet. I have these fantasies about having sex with my friends and now I am Eighteen I feel like I am becoming a monster....I am becoming cold hearted and am noticing the effects of heavy drinking such as puffy eyes, liver hurts and I am always looking

Answer 1

I'm an alcoholic. Dry for a good many years.

Sounds like you need to stop. There is some help available, but count on doing the hardest parts of it yourself. And it is hard.

The alternative is worse. Lots worse. Believe me. Quit feeling sorry for yourself and suck it up.

Or you can just let it take you down. And it will. Will it ever.

Good luck.

Answer 2

My wife and I have recently been going from one church to another searching for a place to be. We finally found one. I don't know if you're religous and I'm not trying to get religous on you. The most talked about message in the sermons we have heard is about how tough life is and it not ever getting easier until you die. You obviously want to make a change for your self otherwise you wouldn't be writing about it. The only thing left to do is for you to make a choice. And keep making that choice every day. If it means you have to get into a support group for alcoholics then do it. You have to let go of your past abuse you suffered. Nothing you can say or hear from your mom is going to make it go away. It happened sadly and you must let it go or you will spend your whole life feeling sorry for your self. Being gay you must decide if you will be happier out of the closet or keeping it secrete. Depending on where you live it could be a real tough thing, but I promise you the sun will still come up no matter what you do. Don't waist another minute feeling down about your past get busy living your life with joy.

Answer 3

Well, first off you sound like a normal 18 year old with some extremes. So, don't fret too much. It is good that you recognize your problems and want to do something about them. Drinking sounds like the major issue here. Porn and dept are VERY normal at your age. Once the drinking is controlled, I think everything will be more controlled. Alcohol will exaggerate EVERYTHING. So, find some help in that. I don't know what resources you have around you, but find hobbies. My husband used to drink a lot. I encouraged his hobbies heavily. Astronomy, fishing, camping, hiking, dogs ... All of these are his life now and he actually hates alcohol. Positive hobbies will always win over the negative ones. Good luck!!!!!

Answer 4

My friend you shouldn't want to destroy yourself at such a young age. My first husband lived with lots of demons and used drugs and alcohol to cope. His father and mother were very abusive to him. For instance he was chained to a dog house for a few days as punishment. Needless to say it was not a good life for either of us. You are away from your mother now. Life is different. don't keep living in the past. Accept that you are gay and go talk to a professional who can help you through this! You have to get your feelings out in the open to someone who can give you guidance. You are too young. Please seek help.

Answer 5

i'm able to in basic terms talk from my very own very own journey, yet eating conduct have honestly replaced in this small Welsh village, the place i've got lived all of my life. interior the previous 2 a protracted time drunken fights are in many circumstances occurring and a brilliant style of human beings are disturbing to bypass out at nights, for worry of being attacked with the aid of drunken gangs. I stay a quick distance faraway from 2 pubs - that are located adjacent to a minimum of one yet another - and the noise could be horrendous. Drunken clientele generally stagger out onto the main perfect highway and a brilliant style of urinate as quickly as there - woman and male alike. I savor a drink and likewise used to known the community pub, yet i does not bypass there now.

Answer 6

Sir, you sound totally suicidal to me. Confide in a firend whom you really trust. all those things you mentioned can be fixed.