When I was about 11, year 2000 (now 17) I moved to a bad place, met two of the wrong people and they started me on marijuana. The three of us became best friends. One of them started earlier and had a big time supplier and we stayed high all the time. We stuffed and smoked abot 5 blunts (swisher sweets) every day. We never ran out and none of us had to pay. We are no longer friends.
So I was a heavy smoker for about 4 years (until 2004) when I quit. I was 15. I was already enduring so much pain beacacuse I moved to the US from Ethiopia with my dad and I was ripped from my mother, siblings and friends at 9.
I started getting better since I quit but I feel like I lost my soul. I feel so empty, I forgot everything about my past time. The loss of my memories is what hurts me most. I feel lifeless souless. Sometimes I wonder if I am really alive. But it seems like I do a good job at covering up my true state of mind.
I just want my life back, my memories, my sanity.
2006-11-21 19:16:03 · 5 answers · asked by Anonymous in Social Science ➔ Psychology
Hang in there.
You might consider seeing a therapist - it may help you figure out why you were willing to do so much weed. If it was just to kill time, you will just need to find some things which engage your brain - find something that matters to you. And then live your life.
You will feel better now that you aren't using, but it takes awhile.
Best of luck.
2006-11-21 19:26:38 · answer #1 · answered by tigglys 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
than u must be very happy man
2006-11-21 19:38:06 · answer #2 · answered by macman 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Read this. it'll help i promise u
http://www.carm.org/seek/empty.htm
2006-11-21 19:38:49 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Purpose
http://everystudent.com/wires/greatest.html
This will help
2006-11-21 19:20:41 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋
welcome to life...............
2006-11-21 19:29:04 · answer #5 · answered by likeablerabbit_loose 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋