i cut. alot. all over my body. i tell people that i get in four-wheeler accidents and get cat scratches. i make an art out of it. you cannot see me underneath the scars that haunt my body like lost loves, lost memories of the past. i am smothered underneath my art, i cannot and do not want to escape from this hell i have created. i am not satisfied until i see the blood rush to the surface and spill over my pale skin. only then can i smile. then the smile is gone until the next time. there will always be a next time. my scars protect me. i will never die. never. all my loves have left, yet i will always be here. alone. deadly. waiting. waiting to kill. waiting to kill again.
2006-11-18 12:53:52 · 8 answers · asked by Anonymous in Social Science ➔ Psychology
I have the same problem, so when I read this I can compare to your experience a lot! I got red pens, red crayons, red pencils, red oil pastels, red paint, red gel and red water colors with some pale or cream paper and maybe art. It really is a nice way to express and keep you busy. You also find that talent you have not seen before or hardly do. Like Van Gough, he had his blue periods, and red periods and all of them in between. So try trading your razor blade and/or scissors for some paintbrushes.
Good luck, God bless you! :)
2006-11-18 13:01:10 · answer #1 · answered by Golden Ivy 7 · 0⤊ 1⤋
There is help available for you, all you have to do is want to seek it. There are many good therapists that can help you. If you don't want to look for one yourself, the staff at any emergency room can refer you to someone who can help you stop this destructive behavior. Listening to you describe what you are going through, is heartbreaking. Life is short, and simply existing in this state is not the way to live. Seek help, and start living again.
2006-11-18 21:07:58 · answer #2 · answered by Cynthia 5 · 1⤊ 1⤋
Get a straight razor and start with your throat. That is the stupidest thing I have ever heard of. If you are serious get help immediately. You have a demon and need Jesus Christ as your savior and follow his teachings.You are destroying the temple of the Holy Spirit. I would recommend a Christian counselor, but get help. I will pray for you, and hope every Christian will do the same, and have faith that God Can do it.
2006-11-18 21:10:12 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 4⤋
You made me cry.... I hate to see someone in such pain. If you are really serious about what you are saying.You really need to find someone to talk to . Counselors are great. Pastors are great. If you need someome to talk to until you find someone contact me. If you are really serious about what you are saying.
2006-11-18 22:00:18 · answer #4 · answered by kelsmo1971 2 · 0⤊ 1⤋
god loves everyone even you m8,so dont damage the beautiful body that he gave you..get some help..peace
2006-11-18 21:07:18 · answer #5 · answered by roobeng.indahouse 3 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Look up 'borderline personality disorder' and see if this sounds like you.
2006-11-18 21:39:34 · answer #6 · answered by nursesr4evr 7 · 0⤊ 1⤋
you are in need of some serious help. this thing that you are doing is not coming from a sound mind. this is a disease you have and can be treated if you seek the help you truly need, and yes, you truly do need the help.....................
2006-11-18 20:58:18 · answer #7 · answered by Help Me Help You 3 · 2⤊ 1⤋
Aftershave must smart.
2006-11-18 20:55:19 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋