bet ur story aint worse than mine?

Question

while in college I got pregnant and had a baby I manage to struggle and finish with the help of my ma. I got an internship and the lady was a racist and didnt like me so she made up things and said that i wasnt prepared for my field and i was let go from my internship and graduation was pushed back. I had to wait another semester to complete a whole new intership in which I sucessfully completed then I graduated. then i got a job and my boss hated me, he intentionally singled me out and let it known to my co workers that he intentionally bullied me and gave me a hard time but i stuck it out. It was an at will employment so i couldnt file anything. I got fired after a few yrs I found a new job in a new city and it was a lot better, but I had to leave it because my ma got sick and I choose to help her being that Im an only child and shes not married. Well shes better now and my job that was being held is no longer available to me and when I askd my boss to speak on my behalfto her boss

she wouldnt. Ive lookd for a job for 5 months with no luck, my career has job opportunities in other places not where i live, so now IIm broke, job less, cars gonna ger reposessed, bills are coming in and my baby will not have a christmas, Im beginning to believe there isnt a GOD, y has my life been such a mess

I have no friends or boyfriend, Im all alone, maybe I should die, no insurance either

SUICIDAL HERE!!!!!!!!!

I thought i was doing the right thing by moving in with her and helping her, i completely thought things would work out, and knoxie youre right its my fault Im a loser, i have a degree and cant do anything right

Answer 1

While I was in college I got pregnant & my life changed too. Most of my friends went on to grad school & I could not because my baby was born with some problems & needed surgery so I had to stay home a year with him & could not work. Through my experiences, the ups & downs, I have come to learn that God allows difficulties in our lives so that we realize just how much we need HIm. We can't get through this life alone because it is too too hard & lonely without Him. God never promises us that life will be a bed of roses. He tells us just the opposite, the trials & sufferings will come.

Instead of focusing on everything that is going wrong in your life, try to give thanks for some of the little things. Be thankful that you have a college degree - somewhere, somehow you will get that break & find a job. You may have to take a job that pays less than what you would like to accept but at least you will be able to get your foot in the door somewhere & get some experience. Be thankful that you have a child - do you know how many women want to have a baby so badly & they cannot get pregnant? Be thankful that your ma is better! There is a reason that you have gone through all of these trials - if you come out of them with a different attitude you will be a better person. If you sit there & blame everyone else including God for your problems you will not grow at all. If you are have had problems at work & at your internship you really need to take a moment & step back & check your attitude. I used to have a really bad attitude problem (and still do sometimes!) I used to think that everyone else had the problem & nothing was wrong with me. Well, God enabled me to see things different & has showed me how I could have handled so many relationships & situations in my life differently & avoided a lot of pain in my life. Perhaps He is allowing you this time alone (without a boyfriend or friends) because He wants you to seek Him, with your whole heart - He is the best friend that you could ever want or need. He will never leave you, disappoint you & He says to come to Him just as you are - weary, tired & He will give you rest. I pray that you will not lose hope & that you will put all of your faith hope & trust in the Lord & let Him work your problems out for you. Be patient & wait on the Lord.

Answer 2

I don't know why so many bad things happen to you - but - you can't blame God. He never said life was fair. You think you have it bad then read Job.
There are so many people who really do have it worse than you do. I know that doesn't help but I know you see this.
Many times when a lot of bad things happen to me I can totally see that I played a part in it. Like they say, "I was at the scene of that accident too".
Try not to give up. Your Mom and child need you.
This may sound harsh but maybe you need to take some responsibility for your situation.
Not EVERYONE else is wrong and only you are right.
Pray, for prayer availeth much.

Answer 3

you may have to just get a minimum wage job, it's better than nothing. try getting help from welfare or something, i've been through some hard times, no car, no place to live, i got a fast food job and moved up to manager and made decent money. now everything is fine. things will get better, try joining a group for single mothers in your area. thinking about ending your life is not the answer, think of how your child would feel when they grew up without their mother. if you don't have a car don't you have public transportation? a bus maybe

Answer 4

Kiddo, compared to my life yours is paradise. But, that's not what you wanted to hear. ..

Look, you managed to get a degree in spite of your upbringing and environment, you've sacrificed for your family and you put up with a lot of s*** in your career. Those are ADMIRABLE qualities.

You don't say if you tried the FMLA route with you job when you left to take care of your Mom, but that would have made it easier to find another one.

So - Have you filed for unemployment? You may not get it with these circumstances, but it's worth a shot.

Next - go to a temporary employment agency or two, or three and get a temp job. It will help you make some $ while you look for perm work.

Giving up now is not a option. You keep on fighting!

God bless...

Answer 5

It sounds like you are ready for an attitude make-over. You have a responsibility to your family, but while you are feeling mentally and emotionally unwell, it is a difficult job to fulfill. The first thing you have to do is see the bright side of life. Whatever you concentrate on, is what you will get. So rather than concentrating on the dismal things, start looking at what you have and what you want. Envision where you would like to be 6 months from now, a year from now, 5 years from now, etc.
Please IM me, I would like to talk to you more and perhaps help you to see a way out.

Answer 6

First of all, don't kill yourself or your baby. There are other people who don't even have a home. Maybe, you should move to where you can get the job you want or need. Hopefully you can ask your mom for transportation money. If not, see if you can't find a part time job to get that transportation money. It's unfortunate you are in this situation, but you can still make it. Try to make your daughter's X-mas the best you can. As she gets older, she'll understand. Trust me. She'll even try to help you herself. After all, she'll be like her mom - maybe better!

Answer 7

My story IS worse than yours, but we won't get into it too deep. I would suggest that you take a class in professional writing if you're complaining that your internship failed. I'd be more likely to buy that it was due to racism if you exhibited some basic college-level skills. I work in HR, and wouldn't even consider a resume that looked like what you have written here. And if the resume looked better, but this was the type of worked you handed in, I'd be looking for a way to get rid of you as well - and I'm not the least bit racist. Perhaps you would do yourself a favor by getting some books out of the library on communications and writing, or taking a class at your local Community College or Technical School. I find it difficult to believe that a college graduated you with the skills you have shown here.
My story: 1999 - child born with Stickler's Syndrome. 2000 - second child born with Stickler's Syndrome. 2000 - had to drop out of school to care for sick children. 2001 - husband and mother in law both diagnosed with brain tumors. Surgery on hubby successful, MIL inoperable. Started working for large tax firm seasonally for extra holiday cash. 2002 - Hubby left me for young waitress after our nephew (7 days old) died of heart failure. I had kids, car, apartment and no job but seasonally. He doesn't want to even see the kids regularly. 2003 - Started back to school but had to drop out again after daughter had 3 surgeries in one semester and I had to care for her. 2004 - lost my seasonal position unexpectedly - pretty much at the new boss's whim. 2005 - Finally, finally became employed almost full-time, doing what I love, but have thousands of dollars in debt to repay from both times in school and living on credit cards. I've never gone more than 6 months with a car that runs. We never had cable, internet, or other luxuries. And that's just the tip of my little iceberg. The point of my telling you that is this: You have to keep a positive attitude, take responsibility for your own actions, and just keep going, no matter what life throws at you. Otherwise, your child will grow up with the same attitude you have and will continue the cycle of negativity - which doesn't get you anywhere in life.