I feel so empty inside?

Question

noone likes me. That's the first thought I get when I walk into the class room. Perhaps it's Autism.I'm a little 8th grader who always feels so empty and lonely. I was always abused
I was called "fatty" when I was 7. I wasn't even that fat when I was then.When I was 10, I was kicked in the stomach during recess by a boy in same grade as me. I kept crying. When recess was over, I went back to the class crying. I couldn't even see. I was mad.. my teacher walked in the room and assigned a page work to do. I didn't do it. Then she started to push me and kick me. She stepped on my head with her high heels.In 4th grade, I came to U.S. People made fun of me because I couldn't speak English.In 6th grade, People made fun of me because I have accents. Now in 8th grade, the asian girls in my school hates me because they think asian guys in my school like me. They stare at me alot don't mean they like me.. I never had a boyfriend bfore. I want one now. what can I do to make myself feel better?

Answer 1

OK, I am going to speak plain with you. You have come here for some emotional support, perhaps some consolation and for others to jump on the bandwagon of your selfpity and pity and feel sorry for you. I am not going to insult you or be mean to you, however, I am not going to lie to you either or encourage you to feel powerless by acting the victem.

Listen, if you want to grow self esteem, self respect, the first thing you need to do is take your personal power back by stopping this victem stuff, stopping this feeling sorry for yourself. You are as deserving as the next person of happiness and good treatment. I don't care what your race is, what language you speak natively, or what type or how bad your accent is, what your weight is, how tall you are, the shape of your eyes, or nose, or butt either. You are a hunam with rights the same as anyone else.

With that said, I want you to listen very carefully here. WE TEACH OTHERS HOW TO TREAT US!!! If you allow yourself to feel like a victem, then you will be a victem. Do victems have personal power? Do victems have self esteem? Do victems have self respect? No to all of the above. However, nobody can make you a victem except YOU. You are choosing to view these events as a victem, rather than stand up for yourself and demand proper treatment.

Why did you not go to the principles office and report these incidents? Why are you allowing these people to treat you poorly? There are things you can do to stop this sort of treatment and you are the only one who can do it. Nobody is going to do anything to gain you proper treatment, nobody is going to step in and say, "hey, you need to treat this young girl right!". As sad as I am to say that, it is the truth. The reason nobody will do this is because you have isolated yourself, have not made friends, have not nurtured your life here in this country. You have allowed yourself to be trampled on and become downtrodden and that is not attractive to others. Nobody wants to be friends with victems, or with those who allow themselves to be treated poorly. That is a sad fact of life. People want to be friends with the popular kids, with those with self esteem and self respect. People always love the winners, not the losers. It is a sad fact of life, especially for the younger crowd.

Listen, kids are the cruelest animals on the face of the earth. They know when another kid is weak and vulnerable and they, like wolves, go for the soft underbelly of those who are weaker and rip and tear them apart. As you have not stood up for yourself, have not placed bounderies around yourself which tell others what you will tolerate and what you will not tolerate, they see a person easy to taunt and take things out on. Kids are under a great deal of pressure and they will find those weaker than themselves to degrade and beat up on in order to release the presure they are feeling. Sad fact of life for a kid. Even adults will act like this sometimes.

You need to start gaining self esteem by setting bounderies on how you will tolerate treatment. You need to take back your power by going to the proper authorities and reporting those who abuse you. You need to report anyone who lays a hand on you, who so much as touches a single hair on your head.

Start holding your head up when you walk around. Stop looking at the ground, and allow yourself to look others straight in the eyes. This is America and in America we look others in the eyes, not keep our eyes on the ground. You need to learn how to fake it tell you make it. In other words, if you pretend you are happy, if you pretend you are not miserable, find stuff to do, and look happy and look content with life, soon you will discover you actually are.

I use to hate having to push a shopping cart home from the store. I felt embarressed due to it seeming to signel to others my poor status. I was ashamed and always looked at the ground so not to see the contempt I imagined in the eyes of others. Yes, imagined, not real, imagined!! I made myself miserable by thinking up ways other people viewed me, not based on anything real, just my own imagination. So, I decided I would hold my head up and pretend I was not embarressed to walk home pushing that shopping cart full of groceries. After a while I realized I no longer felt embarressed at all. I found I was not longer thinking about what anyone else may be thinking when they saw me, that I was actually whistling as I walked home. I was amazed at the power of thoughts, of the power to "fake it till I make it". My father taught me about that, fake it till you make it, deal. It works so try it.

Hold your head up, look others in the eyes, smile at them and say hello to them. When you walk into the classroom keep your head high, find something to keep busy at, ask questions of the teacher, and stop being the victem. It will take some work, but you can do this if you trully wish it bad enough. If you want to keep being a victem, nothing anyone says here will help you. It is within you, it is within your own personal power to make a change from negitivity to a happy life with friends and a boyfriend.

You should not even be thinking of a boyfriend right now. The condition you have allowed yourself to get into does not have anything to really offer another person right now. Work on holding your head up, finding your personal power, find your own happiness, take care of yourself, report anyone who abuses you, and then when you have confidence, self esteem and self respect, then you will have boys lined up to date you. Boys want to date girls who are happy and self confident. They do not want to date girls who are miserable and sad all of the time. Also, DO NOT GIVE OUT SEX TO BE WITH A BOY AS HE WILL ONLY USE YOU AND YOU WILL LOSE MORE POWER IF YOU DO THIS!! OK? Any boy who will date you just for sex is going to reduce your self esteem, because as soon as he gets what he wants he will stop seeing you and will go to the next girl who will give out sex and you will look for a boy who wants sex to have another boy in your life. This is dangerous and damaging to your self eseem and it will hinder your growth to self esteem and self respect and real happiness. Boys who only want sex are not what you are looking for, right? You are wanting a friend and companion, and if you don't first take care of yourself you will not be attractive to any boy except those who want only sex. You have been warned, so don't say nobody tried to help you in this department. Been there, done that, and it don't work dear.

Listen, all you need do is reclaim your personal power by standing up for yourself and setting bounderies on how you will allow yourself to be treated. Go to the proper authorities and stop feeling so sorry for yourself. Life is too short for feeling sorry for oursleves. You will not find any happiness while feeling sorry for yorself. Trust me dear, you are not the only girl who is having these types of problems. We all have our simular periods of troubles and we all have to understand we are in control of how happy or miserable we will be. If you decide life is horrid, then life will be horrid, if you decide life is good and it has lots to offer you and that you can be happy, then all of those things will become yours.

It is a matter of attitude my dear. If you change your attitude you will be amazed at how life will change for you.FAke it till you make it, put on a happy face, place bounderies and report physica abuse to the proper authorities.

I wish you much happiness and much joy in life. It IS within your own power to acheive those things, you should not wait for anyone to bring them to you or you will be waiting a very long time indeed. It is up to each individual to find our own happiness, and not expect others to fullfill us when we won't fullfill ourselves.

Answer 2

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Answer 3

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I feel so empty inside?
noone likes me. That's the first thought I get when I walk into the class room. Perhaps it's Autism.I'm a little 8th grader who always feels so empty and lonely. I was always abused
I was called "fatty" when I was 7. I wasn't even that fat when I was then.When I was 10, I...

Answer 4

If you were my daughter you would break my heart.

First of all you just need "ONE GOOD" friend, not "boy friends" just some one you can trust and share your life with out side your parents.

Second I would find thing I can do well. I discover at your age I was pretty good at drawing. I began to join art contest and focuses on art and judo. I still miss those days. It was fun.

You should find what your good at and find some one to share your life and have fun. Life is not always that hard. I am the first generation Asian immigrant like you. We all went through hard time but you'll see how much "FUN" life can be too if you start trying new things

Good luck

Answer 5

Sweetheart, love ur self first because no one will do that 4 u. It does'nt matter what other people think of you because people always criticise they never appreciate. Dress yourself to kill not 4 people but 4 yourself. You're beautiful, maybe that is the reason they are jelousy of u. Enjoy yourself 4 yourself not 4 people. Don't want a b/friend he'll come to u when the right time comes.

Answer 6

The very first thing to do is to build in yourself a high level of sel confidence. Disregard any negative comments from your friends. Interact with a guy that you know is very respectful and loving-hearted. Then start a friendship with him - if you love each other. Those who are your opponents today will soon celebrate your success tomorrow - trust me. Contact me through my profile for further discussions. cya soonest.

Answer 7

You need to see a counselor or a psychologist to help you get past your childhood issues and to help you work on your self esteem. Before thinking about a boyfriend, you should try working on getting past those unresolved issues that took place in your past. Otherwise, all your relationships will just fall apart. Get help for yourself first.

Answer 8

First of all, to get rid of ur bad memories do this, its a bit foolish but it works. U write down ur bad memories on a sheet of paper and after writin them down, read them once and then burn the paper off. It really worked for me. Then about everybody hating u, forget them, by ur question itself i can recognise u r good and dont deserve this but its fate, so get on with it. Find somebody around probabaly in ur neighbourhood r ur school r anywhere near by who wud b good to u and u r happy with them. Now, i m sorry i cannot help u coz i stay in India, but if u really want u can mail me at [e-mail]. And introduce urself first and if u really want it. I'm a 11th grader and wud be a nice friend to u. Best of luck in ur work and ur academics.

Answer 9

hello dear... whatever u have written is awful...
contact me and we'll talk... if u cant then pls dont feel discouraged... I am sure u have qualities and talents within u... Dont care about what the world tell u... U have to be confident and be independent and progress in life... If u feel u cant talk gd english then learn to become better and in fact better than those who can do it now... u have described ur problem in such a gd english... dont give up dear... u r a courageous girl and dont let others decide for u or make fun of u...
we are all with u... gd luck and i'll pray u have a great future and career ...

Answer 10

Don't let people bully you, and quit worrying about what people think of you. Your young, I am sure you will have lots of friends through the years.

Answer 11

you are not the only one who goes through these feelings. i too have been there and to this day still go through it. find an outlet that relieves your stress. like paiting, coloring singing, listening to music, doing a craft or just writing it all out. not necessarily a diary but maybe short stories and poems, heres some i wrote.

Continuous Disappointment by: Jessica Martinez 11/3/06

I’m spinning around and around, out of control.
My mind is not all there and nobody knows
I try to stop and get off of this ride.
As soon as I get off I’m hit by the ocean’s tide.

I pull and I pull trying to get to the top.
This flow of flowing water, when will it stop.
I swim and I swim til I get to the beach.
But when I’m there my world is out of reach.

I walk and I walk trying to find the town.
When I arrive no one can be found.
I’m searching for familiar voice or face.
There doesn’t seem to be any in this place.

I just want a voice that can express in any way.
That things will be alright and everything’s okay.
I’m looking for someone whose heart is pure.
That can hold me and make me feel secure.

I search and don’t find but still I resume.
I see something move in a small dark room.
My heart starts to race with hopes of affection
To my surprise it’s a mirror and just my reflection.

ALONE BY: Jessica Martinez 11/6/06

I feel like I am the main character in a timeless dream.
A place where no one is still on my defending team.
I feel nothing but the hollow emptiness deep inside.
I try so hard, but the tears I shed I can’t seem to hide.

I search and I strive for some sort of piece of mind.
I’m afraid to admit that I am not ready for this ride.
My mind is making up fake scenarios and scenes.
Do I honestly want to know what it all really means.

The voice in my head tells me that no one even cares.
It says that my world means nothing compared to theirs.
As I look out at them I come to realize that it’s true.
In this time of confusion I don’t know who to run to.

Over and over again I ask myself why I feel so low.
The more I ask myself, the more I want to know.
Have I just happen to trip into a mental black hole?
How else can I explain the way I have lost control?

Though I am screaming and shouting for someone to help me
No one can hear me, no one knows, no one can see.
HE, he told me that I could tell him anything in my mind.
I guess that statement should have been well defined.

I told him everything that I could possibly explain.
About how my mental health I just can’t maintain.
The response “ I don’t know what to tell you”
From you that wasn’t something I was used to.

This is why I didn’t tell you the last time about it.
I knew you wouldn’t understand not the least bit.
I wanted you to say “I love you, it’ll be okay.”
But instead I managed to scare you away.

You told me to tell you everything I go through.
You couldn’t handle it, or you didn’t want to.
Long ago I said you’re the lighter to my cigarette
Now the cigarette is out, how could you forget?

Pain just overflows in my emotional chest of drawers
‘Cause like the saying goes, when it rains it pours.
my loneliness is still here, but why wouldn’t it be.
No one can hear me, no one knows, no one can see.

it just doesn’t seem right, and it doesn’t seem fair
this isn’t just a timeless dream, it’s a nightmare.
No one to listen, no one to hold, no one is here.
No one to notice or miss me when I disappear.

That voice is still talking, it’s getting harder to ignore.
“You know that you don’t want to hurt anymore.”
“They don’t know you like I do, and neither do you.”
“No more being alone, you know what it’s time to do.”