Why am I like this?

Question

I get mad so easily and I stay mad for a little while. I hate the world for an amount of days then I'm happy. A friend might joke around with me and I might take that person too seriously. I slip out everytime someone jokes around. I like to boss people around and make them feel bad if they did something wrong. I want to hurt those people really bad sometimes and I have the urge to hurt them, but I somehow restrain I feel like being a powerful ruler sometimes. I just am power hungry sometimes. I like to be lonely and I have no intention of getting married. I view love as pathetic and I have never loved anyone in my life. I'm also afraid I might hurt or beat up my wife if I ever had one, which i won't. Am I bipolar or psychotic?

I also admire tyrants like Napoleon, Stalin, and Mussolini.

Answer 1

From the way you pose your question it seems to me that you are not satisfied with the way you are; This is especially evident in the line "Why am I like this? "

You realize that your attitude towards life is not generally speaking socially acceptable. However it seems to me that you are pre-disposed to anti-social, sociopathic behaviour.

I don't know what to tell you other than to seek professional help. Perhaps they can suggest some behaviour modification treatments, or drugs that can help you.

Good Luck

Answer 2

You remind me of what I'm becoming if I'm not too careful.

Essentially, the world has corrupted you.

Rather than stand true to virtue and love, you've slipped into anger and desire.

Your lust for power may give you a commanding presence and even threaten others into being subservient to you, but in the long run it will only lead you to future conflicts with people and may escalate to a physical altercation between you and someone else who has the same feelings as you.

As far a the loneliness, and the loving of it, this is due to the fact that so many people have let you down that your refuse to be close to them. You realize that in the end the only person you can count on is yourself. And while, to some extent, that may be true, that's no reason to give up on everyone, let alone love.

No my friend, there is nothing psychologically wrong with you, you're simply a victim of your environment but at the same time, your environment can only shape you, it can't make you. You ultimately decide who you are, how you'll act, and what you'll do with the people around you.

Trust and believe that there's a better way to live than you are living now.

Don't be afraid to love, even if it means getting hurt.

Answer 3

Hmm you could be bipolar. That would be an interesting thought wouldn't it?

OMG! Do you seriously think that? Do you seriously think you have some kind of "PROBLEM"?!

Yes, you do seem to have two sides, right? So your question is, which one is the mask, and which one is the REAL YOU!

hmm..lets see, do you really want to hurt people? You never loved anyone? Not even your parents? Why don't you just get a grip?! and stop think that there is something wrong with you. JUST CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE!

Or tell me WHY you act the way you do? There has to be a reason for everything RIGHT? It can't be on a sudden impulse, or else there IS something wrong with you.

Stop acting like that, why is that so hard? After all, what do YOU want? YOU are the only one who can change yourself

Answer 4

Probably wold not be a bad idea for you to see a therapist. You have already admited you have a problem and that's good. I congratulate you. Bipolar - don't know. Psychotic - maybe in time, sounds like you might be developing some sort of pshchosis. Nothing wrong with getting help. Everyone should at some point should get a mental check up as well as a physical one.
Good luck.

Answer 5

Sounds like you're actually afraid of being hurt, so you figure that if you lash out first, then no one can 'rule' you. You shy away from love because then you have to give yourself over to someone, whereas you think that at that point you wouldn't have complete control.
You admire the strong qualities of the meglomaniacal leaders that you list, because you think they were strong and didn't take **** from anyone.
You're neither bipolar nor psychotic, but you probably could benefit from therapy, which might help you find the root of your pain...good luck.

Answer 6

It seems you have a controlling personality:

Controlling Personalities
MEANING: People who exert extreme control over different aspects of their lives. Some people control other people, others control their homes, for example. Most extreme control is doomed to failure as something will always go wrong and cannot be controlled.
Known as 'control freaks' in common speech, such people are often trying to make up for a deep insecurity, i.e. something that they cannot control. Controlling people can be quite abusive as they want to run everything their own way.
Of course some kind of control is essential; a lack of control can be worse than too much control. As in all things, the ideal is to find a balance.
RELEVANCE TO ABUSE: Abusive people are controlling; in fact the point of abusive behavior is to control another individual. Understanding why such people need control may provide insight to their abusive nature.
RELATED WORDS AND PHRASES: dominating, ruling, authoritarian

Below is a test where you could find out if you are really a "control freak" http://www.queendom.com/tests/fx/control_freak.html

Answer 7

I think you have a personality disorder and may be bipolar too.. You have a little of both Antisocial and Narcissistic personality disorders.
Description of Antisocial would be someone who is extremely manipulative, deceitful, impulsive and totally lacking empathy or remorse. you basically have an inability to conform to social norms.
Description for narcissistic would be: inflated self-image, pattern of grandiosity, need for admiration and lack of empathy.

I would definitely see a psychologist or a psychiatrist for intervention. Good luck to you!

Answer 8

You need to put yourself in others shoes and ask yourself, what someone told you the same. Do you love your parents? If not, god help you. Seek professional help.
Take up Yoga and do meditation. Hopefully, it will help.
Take a deep breath before you say something nasty.
Until, you change your behavior, don't think of getting married. You will be ruining her life and your children, in case you make her pregnant.

Answer 9

a lot of times, when you meet a girl it helps your attitude, when you really love her. i would try some medicine for depression b/c buddy you are full on depressed. your not bi polar, a lot of people mistake depression for bi polar, you feel great one day then mad the next. your missing something in your life. you just have to find it. in the meantime, to supress your anger, try a depression pill, go to the doctor, tell him ALL of your symptoms, dont suggest a certain drug, let him to you! good luck

Answer 10

i cant know, but it sounds like you are a typical modern american teen. if i had to guess, i would suppose that you have never had to work for anything and have had no real hardship in you life yet.
you are a brooding, spoiled self loathing teen. pretty normal. it all changes as you mature.