Do you ever feel this way?

Question

There are times when I think like the world would be better off without me. I feel like such an idiotic person- with no future, nothing to keep me going. I recently got in a fairly serious car accident and I’m lucky to be alive in a matter of speaking, yet I almost wish that I wasn’t here. I feel so inadequate, like everything I do is never good enough. One of my biggest challenges I face is the thought that I’m this completely stupid human being. I feel like I’m incapable of using my mind...I would like to believe that I am bright, intelligent, and capable... yet I feel so brainless.
Does anyone experience this? And I don’t strictly mean feeling unintelligent or stupid. I mean do you ever wish you weren’t living.

Sorry to everyone who seems to think I’m about 12- I’m in my early 20s.
Secondly, my parents and I are not very close and I rarely see them. And no, I do not plan on “talking to my parents or a school consular”.

Hahaha excuse my inability to spell. I meant counselor.

Answer 1

Regardless of what you may think, you must believe that you are a beautiful person, not in a physical sense but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. From the way you express yourself, I can see that you have much to offer and you do have a place in our universe for a higher purpose though you may not see it at this moment. I can truly identify with you for I have suffered much in my life because of your very same feelings. There were times that I even contemplated suicide and degraded into the world of crime, drugs, and degeneracy. I actually came from a very good family but I have no idea why I felt so different from everyone else, like everyone else was better and smarter than me, so much so that I wished that I were someone else. I figured that I would never amount to anything so why keep living in a farce. Apparently, I neither had the intelligence or capabilities to accomplish anything in my life so anything that was even remotely repulsive in our society was fair game for me. In doing so, I witnessed many horrifying events that traumatized me, both mentally and physically. But in the moment of my most agonizing pain, I went through some kind of awakening. I couldn't explain it, didn't even know if it was something spiritual or what the hell it was, but I do know that I had an urge to find out what it was that I was good for in this world even if I gave it an effort just for once before I finally gave up. During my search, I discovered that I had musical talent, which is another story altogether but I can say that I believe with all my heart that all human beings posess some type of artistic talent whether it be painting, sculpture, music, dance, poetry, singing, composition, crafts, etc. We must find and nurture that art that is within us for that is our one true and undeniable form of expression. When it is found, much peace and joy comes into one's life. Nowadays I am an accomplished piano player and I've toured around the world with jazz groups and I compose and write all of my own music. So who's to say what you may discover within yourself although you may not be aware of it at this moment. So believe, you must really believe that you are more than what you think. Just by looking at your writing I can tell that you're quite smart. You write better than half of the characters that roam around on Yahoo! Take care and I wish you much peace and happiness. If anyone hasn't said they love you today, I do.

Answer 2

Firstly, did you receive head injuries in the accident? If you did then speak with your doctor. If you didn't, still have a word with him/her.

24 years ago I was dropped on my head from 20 feet - I was 26 at the time and very nearly didn't make it to 27. In the hospital, although I did not show it overly, I hated everyone except the night nurse. When other patients (mixed ward) came to speak to me during the day I resented it and was quite withdrawn. Because of this I turned night into day, sleeping in the light hours and staying awake in the dark, usually sitting by an open window and watching the traffic go by or chatting with my only friend in the world - the night nurse. I doubt she understood my feelings, but she did understand why I was doing it.

When I came out of hospital (I was off work for 6 months - I broke both wrists and some ribs as well) my short-term memory was impaired and this coupled with my obvious mental damage caused rows with people. I would swear blind for instance that I left my comb in the bathroom, be told I had left it elsewhere and sometime later would find myself in the wrong.

Over the years it has improved immensely, although I will I suspect always have the odd memory "moment". But take heart -it does get better, I promise!

Answer 3

Hi Honey,
I think everyone feels like this from time to time but the feeling should not last for long periods of time. You may be going through a deep depression because I felt the same way when I was depressed. It just sounds like you have a self esteem problem and I'm sure you are NOT stupid. It might help you to check out some self help books to help you with your self esteem. Or maybe you should see someone that u can talk to like a psychologist or a counselor. Self esteem issues are not easily resolved and the sooner you address them the sooner you will feel better. Good Luck and know you were meant to have survived that accident for a reason.

Answer 4

Feel that way? Never. Usually the average persons will to live is pretty intense. Look into your parents, since self directed melancholia can be inherited. If not there, what about the way you were raised. Were you ever encouraged to hate yourself? Parents continually put you down? Peers?
School, did you ever have successes? Maybe its better to take a vocational course where the job requires more hands on participation. Art? When you create soemthing, it really makes you feel tons better.
Drink vitamins, keep lights bright in your house. None of the yellow incandescent ugly bulbs. Go flourescent bulbs white daylight types. Stay outside when it is bright and sunny .
Get into physical activity if you can, it releases endorphins into your system.

Answer 5

Sounds like you need to find a way to build your self-esteem. Everyone has days where they just feel inadequate, but they will pass. Find something, anything, that you're good at, and do it often. It will help you feel better about yourself. As for your age, don't worry. Many people in your age group have gone through the same thing you are going through right now. Come up with a plan for your life, and then go for it!

Answer 6

Yes I have felt like this. A far as feeling stupid take an IQ test. That cured me quick. i understand what it is like to be in pain emotionaly and physically.Try to focus on ehat brings you joy. Smile and luagh as much as you can. Sometimes doing nice thing for other people helps too. Bringing joy to others can bring joy to you too.

Answer 7

i think all of us...has that once a a while, that is why it has a name.....it's called loneliness, we all feel that way...first you need to replace the PC for a new hobby, if you replaced things with other things, you'll find out, there is more to life than, asking questions and feeling for ourselves only. There are people who have nothing...not even food, ...i am sure you ate something today, i pray you did. Maybe dodning what you are doing...isn't working, maybe ask yourself, "what am I working for?" there are things you can do, to get out of this rut....don't you think we are all here for a reason,

Answer 8

I think that a lot of people think this way.
Remember this quote by Marianne Williamson:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the Glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."

Answer 9

i think everyone has felt this way sometime in their life. but there is no reason to feel this way! you were created by your parents for a reason, if anything just think of yourself as something they wanted! they chose to have a wonderful child and you should believe that you dont have that choice in life to decide your fate...your here for a purpose and it was your parents choice to have you. im sure in the future your going to feel normal and your going to find out what your purpose is, but in the meantime dont worry about it, im sure whatever you feel will pass and just know that everyone has felt this way but there is going to be a purpose for you, who knows you could save someones life someday!

Answer 10

sounds like a little depression is affecting you...i suggest you stand up and fight this feeling.. go to the county mental health in your area and tell the clerk you need to talk to someone...also take a assertive training class, it helps alot...or you can get self help books from the library and read some of them...know that you are special and deserve to live and enjoy life...sometimes one needs to talk to someone trained to help understand your feelings, i suggest a professional person that is trained to help.[mental health agency] and be proud that you are asking for help, nothing to be ashamed about