I feel very badly about this, any suggestions?

Question

Before I became saved, I had a better handle on life as a child and a youth than I do now, I had a lot of hope and tenacity and I strived to do my best.

I had a complete nervous breakdown at 16 years old back in 1985.
And shortly after I felt I became a christian and I did, but it was more of an emotional experience.

Now I am in my mid 30s. I get upset and frustarted easily partly to do with bi-polar, I even received some wrong doctrine that life owes me and God will bless me because I do good and am good to others.

I am very blessed I truly am, but there is something inside of me that says if things were this way then I would be happy. I am just learning at 37 years old that I am allowed to be human and not have ALL the answers.

I want to be content the way I was a child, I want to be able to trust again. I want to be able to fully love again and I just want God to revive and and give me hope.

What went wrong in my walk with God in this respect?How do I go forward?

Answer 1

I don't actually know how to react with your statement. It's just so real. Yeah you're not asking for my reaction but it makes sense.


Nothing went wrong in your walk with God. He just made the perfect thing. Think about this, if God never let you experience what you have experienced, you won't be asking questions like that. Now, how do you move forward?...

That's the hardest challenge that God wants you to overcome. It never was a problem, it still is not. A challenge is not a problem, it's a TASK. It's really hard to raise your foot when it had been glued for a long time in the ground, but you have to TRY. If you'll fail on your first try, try raising the other foot. You'll succeed you'll see. It's not God nor man who's your rival now, it's yourself. And that's the worst part.


But the best angle is always the TRY-ANGLE, right?

you're not losing anything....

Good Luck and God Bless You!!!!

Answer 2

I think as we get older we take life far too seriously.

Sounds like you need to be a bit silly. Do something frivolous that appeals to the child in you. Go to an amusement park or rent your favourite movies from your childhood. I still have sleep overs with my friends (I am nearly 33) where we do all the things we did as teens. Very occasionally I get an afternoon of work and do something fun with my boyfriend. Go to the zoo or something like that. We all have a child in us and we need to keep them happy too. Never neglect the child within. I don't know what it is you need to do but being silly occasionally really helps with all the strain and constant seriousness of maturity.

You don't have to know all the answers, or even all the questions. Just try to be the best you can and allow yourself to fail sometimes.

Getting back the love and trust you had as a child is a hard one. I think those things evolve as we get older. Being open is a start. I make myself smile all the time and make sure my smile finds people during the day. I find this way people approach me and I am open to them. It's a sort of trust in strangers. Concentrate on finding love within yourself and when the time is right you will find love in someone else.

Good luck and take care.

Answer 3

You have to deal with what you have been given.
If you have a slight medical condition that is where you start working from, if you haven't already go see your doctor/and or natural therapist who deals with bi-polar issues (very common today in society)

Exercise every day and eat well to give yourself a starting chance.

Start each day with positive thoughts and keep that idea going
throughout the day and push down as many negatives that try and take hold. The power of the mind is incredible.

Answer 4

I don't think anything went wrong. I do know that if you have bi-polar disease, you can get WAY down and then WAY up! Are you on your meds to keep you even keeled? If they are not working, get another kind of med from your doctor. As for God. He is right there beside you. You have to take his hand, though. So, go out and do some worshipping by doing some charity work for God. You'll feel so much better about yourself if you concentrate on helping other people. God will bless you for it.

Answer 5

Spend more time alone in the presence of God and talk with Him just like you would do with your best friend because in reality He is your best friend. Don't be so impatient with yourself and remember that the Lord said "in this world we would have tribulations but fear not for He has overcome the world". As long as we live in this fallen world there will be problems and because there is an enemy we can never let our guard down. I am not suggesting that you become weird and overly spiritual. Just be yourself and ask the Father for His wisdom, guidance, direction and protection. He is always with you but remember to be careful of the words you speak. Speak only those things that are good and right and true into your life for there really is power in our words. Study God's Word and associate with the right companions, then watch your whole world grow brighter and lighter. I wish you the best!

Answer 6

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Answer 7

Acknowledge that you know nothing and that you can't do anything without Him.

Sit down and name your demons or bad spirits. For example, laziness, jealousy, depression, fear, etc. You would be surprised how many you have. I named 27 for myself. Ask God to free you from those spirits and to give you the ability to discern when these spirits are at work.

Don't make plans. Instead, ask God what He has planned for you.

Answer 8

You've lost you're Faith My Brother...Just because you can't see it,taste it, feel it, touch it, or even smell it....Does'nt mean it's not there. You have'nt DONE anything wrong in your quest you need to realize "GOD" has "Revived and given you Hope" when you awoke today!Make today a NEW day with Love and a Renewed faith for Your "GOD"...

Answer 9

Something went wrong somewhere, you need to seek some professional help. Good luck and God bless

Answer 10

your problem is religion itself. people who are lost or confused often turn to religion because it makes them feel stable and safe. it also makes them feel like some higher power is in control, not themselves. by the same token, that means that anything that happens is because of God, and it's all God's fault / responsibility. see, you've said yourself that you want God to pull you out of this problem. you want God to come and magically fix your problems.

the fact of the matter is, God is not going to fix your problems. i personally believe there is no God, but if you believe in him, then you must believe that he does not fix people's lives. it is your BELIEF in him that is supposed to help you. your FAITH is what gives you the strength to carry on. it is not God fixing your life. it is your knowledge that God loves you that gives YOU the power to fix your own life.

you are not going to wake up one day and magically feel better because God filled your soul with hope. it is up to YOU to give yourself hope. it is up to YOU to realize that this life on Earth is yours to live. God gave you this life so you could learn and be happy. if you truly believe in God and all his teachings, trust your faith. trust that God wants you to be happy. trust that God loves you.