Have you ever..?

Question

Have you ever wanted to just leave your body and see first hand what people are saying about you when you aren't around...? Have you ever wanted to go back in time and fix something that you know...if only you had stuck up for yourself..things would different right now..? I wish I could go back in time...and take another road..I would change so much...I wouldn't have fallen for the guys that I have...I would stand up for myself..I don't feel sorry for myself..because..where I am right now...in life..is because of what I did in the past...I only wish I could know what things would be if things went differently...the thing is..the things I want to do...I can't...because things have gone far too long the way they are...for example..I can't be borthered to tell my friend to treat me differently..because she has treated me this way for three yrs..and I don't think she is going to change...for example she is still talking about me behind my back..and when we hang out..she acts like nothing

wrong..and I can't say anything in fear she is going to yell at me...Also..I would love to tell the guy I really had feelings for...that I miss talking to him..but I don't have a way to contact him.I really miss him as a friend..even though I wanted something more from him. However..my friend doesn't see that he hurt me..but thats another story all together..

Answer 1

I am sorry to say this because it is not nice, but you sound like a real coward. Of course you regret so many things, because you weren't brave enough to stand up for yourself, or do the things that were right for you in the first place. I don't know if this is because you are a people pleaser and just too nice so you let people walk over you and you make poor choices for yourself, or if it is because you have such low self-esteem that you feel you are not worth better things or better treatment.

Anyway, you'll have to figure it out for yourself. I don't know anything about you, but that is the impression I get from this question. I hope it gives you some insight into this situation.

Answer 2

its why we should live our life patiently and not to be anxious for anything we do. I know it sounds hard but its something good to do. yes i feel the same way you do. as for the friend, shes really not a friend if she says bad things about you. have you tried talking to her about this? and the male friend, its ways of finding people, through other friends or relatives