I hate myself. What is wrong with me?

Question

I was a single parent for 10 years and have always been very independent. 6 yrs ago my father passed away and I started to have panic attacks. The doctor perscribed Paxil and since I I have gained over 60 lbs. Now I take 50 mg of Zoloft. I remarried three years ago and started working from home. I am not sure what is wrong with me, but i hate leaving the house. I desperately want and need another job. I send out many resumes and when I get the calls for interviews I will schedule them, but can not get myself to go. Or sometimes I will go and when offered the job, I can not get myself to start it. I hate myself and feel so fat and ugly. I am afraid if I go back to the doctor, he will increase my medication and I do not want that. I can't stand to gain anymore weight and I hate feeling medicated all the time. Please help me, I am only 35 years old and so confused all the time. I can never carry anything out and always change my mind. I want my life back. Please help me.

Answer 1

This is called low self-esteem. Stop saying you hate yourself, you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you....find some support groups...you need positive things in your life....Don't look for help from strangers, try to help yourself, If someone gives you bad advice and you take it all you going to do is blame yourself.....Think about the things you like to do and places you like to go, and just do it....What is wrong with this doctor you have, you need to tell him/her that the medicine is making your problem worse... and making you paranoid. .If you want your life back , that independence, then you are going to have to take that first step, you know, maybe go somewhere, take a walk. Like I said, do something for yourself, just get comfortable and start that life all over again...Stop saying you are scared , there is a whole world out there and it is waiting for you......You probably have a lot to offer, you probably can help someone, an elderly person maybe...a school kid, do you have siblings,,,, Go get that job you want, start anywhere, just GET OUT OF THAT HOUSE!!!!!!!!! (baby steps) take your time , and remember who you are, get those negative thoughts out of your head, start thinking a lot more positive....Don't say "I think I can" . When you start thinking more positive and get out there, you will be saying "I knew I could"....remember (baby steps)....a little at a time....Good Luck

Answer 2

FIND A NEW DOCTOR!! I have ANtepartem depression..so I am depressed although I am pregnant!! I had postpartem with my son and have been depressed almost all my life. I was on lexapro for a few years and it wasn;t working...I have a new doctor who put me on prozac and I feel a whole lot better!!!! I was goign to kill myself a few months agi but I didnp;t becoase of my little son..imagine what that would do to him?

This is what you need to do:
1. Get a new doctor..women psychiatrists are my favorit. they inderstand better! The doctor makes all the difference girl friend!!!
2. Start counseling with a pscycologists..meet as often as needed even if it is every other day. have her work with your psych dr. it may be easier to find a psycologist first since you will be doinf a lot of TALKING with her and ask her to refer you to a dr.

3. Find a ggod bible based church and watch Joes Oseteen on TBN..he will change your life! But find a church! Know that God loves you and that he created you!

4. Get the book BATTLEFIELD of THE MIND by Joyce Meyer


Be there for those 3 beautiful girls you have..don not let them down.. there is nothing more in this world that they need than YOU..with oall your faults issues etc

Please find a church and the other peole I mentioned.

If only you know how I was a few months ago...and if you can see me now!!!!!!

Do the things I mentioned.

Please email me at [e-mail]
so we can be pen pals.
I now know that God KEPT me to help other like me get through this.
I am here for you..email me I will listen and not judge!

Answer 3

Sarah, I know that there are moments when insecurity hits you like a train and you think you are the ugliest, most horrible, green eyed monster on the planet. I have been there. There are times when I compare myself to other people and how I wish I could be them. Or sometimes I criticize some of my body parts because they're too big or too small or too weird looking. Everybody goes through that, Sarah. EVERYBODY! Don't feel like you're the only one who does. It's not necessarily wrong to hate yourself, but it really isn't wise. It only makes you unhappy. Whatever the stuff is about you that is a cause for you to hate yourself, that shouldn't cause you to hate yourself. Everybody makes mistakes, Sarah. Nobody is perfect. It's okay to make mistakes. That's how you learn. Sarah, you may not be a Christian, but Jesus loves you. He does not look at your mistakes and He doesn't keep track of how many sins you have committed. He loves you just the way you are. Don't hate yourself, Sarah. Love yourself. I'm not talking about being stuck up. Just love yourself. You are a unique individual. Nobody else was made to look like you. Everybody was made to be different. I hope I wasn't too wordy and I hope what I said helped. Keep your chin up, Sarah!

Answer 4

well, for one you could start exercising. not only would it help you lose a little (or a lot if you're really dedicated) of the weight, but exercising releases endorphines in your brain. endorphines basically make you happier. you wouldn't have to start out with really heavy workouts or anything. just walk around the block 3 or 4 times a week. 30 minutes at least 3 times a week would be a great start. tell your husband about your plans to exercise on a regular basis and invite him to join.

Answer 5

you just need to take the meds. if ur afraid to gain weight, work out, a lot. or u could find a job that requires a lot of exercising,

just remember, no matters what happens, u've always got your family and friends, who will support and help u through everything.

Answer 6

With all the pressure you have had to put up with raising your 3 girls and your dad dying its not hard to imagine that anxiety would rear its ugly head. Check your state government for mental health help,it wouldn't hurt to talk to somebody.

Answer 7

sorry about it honey dude later-