Stalking help... =/?

Question

This is a bit of a long story...
I have had strong romantic feelings for my art teacher since the beginning of the school year. First, I would just smile at him in the hallways... then it turned in to me following him everywhere, having his schedule memorized. The next step I took was to write him a nine-page love letter, hand-written, and basically me professing my undying love to him. He wasn't actually supposed to get the letter, a friend of mine stole it from me and gave it to him, so I went and apologized after school that day.
It only got worse from there. I got a new digital camera for my birthday, and I became obsessed with taking pictures of him and putting them on my walls and on the internet. I created a shrine dedicated to him, where I have pens he's used, a sharpie he had in his mouth, and various samples of his writing and artwork.
The worst was still yet to come.
On Halloween night, he went trick-or-treating with his two-year-old daughter and a friend of his, and I

... followed them around the neighborhood. All the while I felt terrible about ruining a good family moment, and I was crying my head off. I never spoke to him that night. When they went home (I had found his address in the phone book), I felt awful about it and just wanted to fade in to the rainy sky. I laid face-down in his driveway and started crying hysterically. His friend came over and asked me if I was okay, and that I should probably leave. I walked five miles home...
The next day in school, I was called to the office, and my mom was there with the principal, my guidance counselor, and everyone else important in the school.
They informed me that my art teacher had called the police the preceding night, and that his wife and daughter stayed at a hotel out of fear of me. I have NO violent intentions, it's honestly just a crush and nothing more. They say I can't see him anymore, and it's killing me inside. I don't want to scare him, but I know it's just a temporary thing and...

I just want to enjoy it without hurting anyone. I just want to see him, because that is when I am the happiest. What should I do to avoid crossing the line between 'crush' and 'creepy?'

I've already been sent to several professionals and they see nothing wrong. =/

And I know that what I'm doing is wrong, and I do plan to back off. I just want to see him more...

I'm so sorry you were a victim :|
I feel like such the enemy...

Answer 1

Been there. You need some professional help to figure out what the heck it is that keeps you yearning for him so badly. It is like you just can't stop this (cause you can't.) It is so deep and painful and you can't explain it to anyone without them looking at you funny. Therapy will be a great start. Here you can speak freely of how you feel about this man and it feels soooo good to be able to do this and not have someone look at you funny. Alot of people have these stroooog feelings. It hurts too, huh? Good luck sweetheart, you will be fine. Just take care of business now before you make it any harder for yourself. Just do it! One more important fact. You did say you went to seek help and they said you were fine. If this were so you would not be feeling like this. This is not the norm. If you are not being helped the way you should be (but you first must be honest with whom ever is helping you) by a therapist then you need to make an appointment with a Psychiatrist. Do not be frightened by this word. They are great and can get deep into your mind. It is a great experience. You will leave with more questions answered and wanting to go back for more. Because they know!

Answer 2

As a person who has been a victim of stalking, I have to tell you it's time to get help. Try to put yourself in his shoes. How would you feel if someone was following you around all the time and you had to always look over your shoulder? It's not fun, believe me. He has a daughter to protect and although you say you're feelings aren't dangerous, he doesn't know that for sure. He did the right thing to call the police. I'm sure you feel terrible and somehow think if you could only explain it would all be okay. But it won't. The only way you can make it right is by not having ANY contact with this guy or his family. And the best thing you can do for yourself is to go get some help right away. Talk to your mother and tell her you need counseling. If you don't get the help you need, you will find yourself repeating this behavior with the next "crush" you have and that'll result in the same thing happening all over again or it getting worse. Obsessing over someone is no way to win their love and you need to learn how to have a healthy relationship in which you can respect both your own feelings and your (willing) partners.
Stalking is serious business, that's why we have laws against it.

Answer 3

You've stepped way past the line already hon, and at this point there's no crossing back. Honestly I would seek professional help at this point. Not trying to be offensive in any way, but this does seem like a matter that requires some counciling.

Answer 4

get involved with some physical activity even if it is the health club as soon as now. there are 24 hour clubs. you always need something else to do. at all times. and yes, get to a councellor or a support group meeting of some kind even if you don't exactly have the type of issues the meeting is supposed to be focused on, for example over eatters anonymous, alcohol anonymous. do it fast! and stay far, far , far, far, far.... get it... away from that teacher.

Answer 5

I'm sorry to be so blunt, but you've already crossed that line. Back off, now. Otherwise you'll probably end up causing more harm, to yourself and to him.

Answer 6

I guess a new Barbie doll won't do the trick, huh?

Answer 7

You are already there. Try find someone more suitable to take your mind off it.